Too Many Miles... Too little smiles...{ lyrics...from Harry Chapin 'Taxi'...}

After visiting Mom...in the Hospital...this Eve...

{I spent several hours...with her...}

Attempted to feed her...her Supper...

and... helped the Nurses...transfer her... from the potty...back...to bed....

she is so weak...

and...her breathing... is so...difficult....

{they are wanting to release her... in the morn...I took her...clothes...in...for the trip...}

oh my...

There is no...way...she should....go home...

another...'Bus Ride'...

I don't think...so...

I told the Nurses...

I will be back...Very...Early...in the Morn...

I want the Dr. to tell me... He...or She...

would put...their Mother... on a Bus...

in her condition...

I told her Nurse...I'd be sleeping...with my phone...

and Call....if they needed me....

If...I didn't answer...

Call...again...and again...

{I am...so...weary....}

I'll be there...

While I found my way...to the car...

my mind...racing...

I wanted to... escape...

just......sit...and listen...to Jazz...

Yes...

Escape...

{The Light House...}

Jethro... took....to The Highway....instead...

We Drove...and Drove...

{better...than 'Jazz'... on this 'Journey'...}

and...then...

Home....

I sat down...and searched...for 'Music'...

my...therapy...

when I got here...

and...landed on Harry Chapin...

"Taxi"...

There..is something...about...'The Journey'...

We...All... Have One...

Even...Harry...: )

It...was Good...

I sat...and had a Visit...with The Lord...this Morn...

and told him...

" I've had...enough....Lord...You're going to have to...carry...the Load...for awhile..."

{you see....there is Much More....to my...'Journey'...that only...He...and I know... : ) }

 I'll leave it...at that...

and...

Trust...

Yes...

There have been

 "Too Many Miles...with Too...little smiles"...

Love...to ya...

Barb C.

 

 

The Highway.....
Thank...The Lord...for...The Highway...
Yes..I do...

{Amy...Thanks...for The Wine... It's come in...handy...this Eve... : ) }

My Polly....
She Never...leaves my Side....
 She Knows...
She...Tries....to
 'comfort'...
She...Worries....
yes...
She...Knows....
My...Little...Angel....

{As...I sat...with Mom...tonight... I thought...

"This...is Out...of My Hands..."...

I felt...like... I was out of...options... for her...

such... a 'Helpless'......Place...to be...

for a 'Guardian'...

I have looked after...my Folks...

Forever...

Fought...Many...Battles...

and...have won...

With Dad... I couldn't be there... was not...aware...

but...with Mom...

I have been there... Every Single Step...

of the way...

but...

at this point...

I can't help her....

I can't...make her Heart...Stronger...

or...

Her Lungs...Breathe...Easier...

That...

Breaks...my Heart... 

it...Breaks...

My Heart...

{after I reread this...

 I want to clarify...

I will Stand...Tall...and Fearlessly.......

Against... Any...Person...Place...or..Thing...

that stands in the way...of Mom's...

or...The Ones...I Love...

Well Being...

but...

The Fight...we have now...

isn't as simple...as a Panel of Doctors....

or...any...'Authority'...figure...

It is Something...Much...Bigger...

I Encountered...this Evening...

That is what

Jethro...and I were Escaping From....}

yet...make...no mistake...

 I'll....Fight...for her...until...

she says...

"Enough"...