Oh my.

 

One day... at a time.

The Windshield verses the Rearview mirror.

I... struggle, with that.

Always have.

; )

I'm an old Taurus... 'The Bull', who would much rather be grazing, eating 'Clover Tops', than... fighting a 'Bull Fight'.

 When a 'Red Flag'... is flashed in my face, well...

tend to sharpen my horns.

The Book... is coming.

There's so many moving parts, in this IDOT/Fairfax, Iowa...

'Mess'.

few... 

sadly, in my opinion, could follow it.

: (

It's gonna 'Take a Book', to explain.

'This Mess', in my humble opinion...

should 

Never, Ever...

Ever... Ever...

'Happen', to anyone, ever again.

Ever.

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

One Day... at a Time.

<3

Barb C.

Indeed.

 

So much.

It sickens me, to think...

For the record...

I know who you are, and... who you think you are.

Bless your hearts.

; )

At the end, of 'this' day... well, those who have wrongfully......ridden this 'Crazy Train', sadly...

I wish you all.. 'to Rot in Hell'.

: (

Make no mistake... I Will... be calling each,  and every 'Loser'... 'Liar', to The Front Lines.

It might take me a minute, and miles...

but, 

 guarantee, 

'Hell', eventually....

is 

coming to 

'Breakfast'.

Love to Ya...

Prayers, for All.

Barb C.

{so much for keeping things 'light'. ; ) oh my. 

visiting with neighbors, kinda stirs me up.

We all agree, 'Fairfax'... ain't 'Home, sweet home', anymore.

Hasn't been, for many, many... years.}

One Day... at a time.

; )

It's been a long... day,

but a good one.

; )

Grateful.

One Day... at a time.

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

Indeed.

 

'Light'

Keep tryin'... to 

keep things 'light' here, on the blog.

Best... I can, anyway.

There's so much happening in the world, today...

minute by minute...

Do my best... to stay away from it, here.

 Struggled about writing this... post,

yesterday, and... all day, today.

Somehow... believe I should put it out there.

Believe... many, many... have been directly, and indirectly touched, by this subject.

If you're like me...  can't read, or think about another ounce of sadness, here's your sign, to skip this post.

Yesterday morning, Grandson, Justin... popped in, to visit.

He, often does.

<3

We... share the same Love... of Old Diesel Fords, Horses... and Funny Redneck Videos.

: )

We were having Fun conversations... for quite a while, then...

his phone started pinging.

Justin, ignored the 'pings' at first, then... he looked a little concerned.

He said...

"Hang on Grandma, I've got to see what this is about."

Justin, walked upstairs, to the dining room, I... started working on the lap top.

Justin returned, after a few minutes, sat down... on the Settee, across from me.

Justin had a look on his face, look... in his eyes, I'd... never seen him have, before.

 asked...

 Justin, if everything was ok.

He... looked at me, and said... "You know... my Friend, '....' "

Yes....

: )

{They've been Pal's for a long time.}

"That was his Son... on the phone. He said, he wanted to let me know first.

When his Dad... got to work, this morning, he started his job, 

then pulled out a gun, and killed himself."

Not what I'd expected to hear from my 16 year old Grandson, or see in his eyes.

My mind... scrambled, to find 'words'.

All... I could muster, was...

"I'm so... so... sorry."

: (

We just sat here, in silence, for what seemed like a long, long... time, 

tho...

probably wasn't.

: (

Tried to gently... gently, explain to Justin, that... we never truly know, what's going on in someone else's mind.

and...

sadly, it seems, too often, Men have a very difficult time talking about their feelings.

Many have been raised to be 'strong', never complain, or talk about 'hurt', because some...

see that as a sign of weakness.

Often, they, themselves... see things that way.

: (

So... not true.

<3

but...

convincing them, of that... 

: (

Shared some of my Pals, stories... with Justin, yesterday.

I've lost six Friends, over the decades to suicide.

Five... were Men.

One, Woman.

: (

that... sadly, seems to be the average.

: (

Each... were fighting their own, very... different, and difficult 'battles'.

Money... Heartbreak, Cancer... but, mostly, in my opinion...

the lack of

 'Hope'.

: (

'Hope'... is something we must find, and keep...

 within ourselves, in my opinion.

Nobody... can give it to you.

to, some... 

sadly, so... very sadly,

 they can't find it, reach it... in their grasps.

: (

I know... how very much, Grandson, Justin... meant to his Pal.

: )

Those two shared many phone conversations in my presence.

Hahahahaha!!!

; )

That's the only way I knew Justin's 'Pal'.

<3

Justin... brought 'Light', to his Pal's Life.

: )

{Priceless}

That's all... any of us can do, for each other.

<3

That's All.

<3

Love to Ya...

Prayers...

for

All.

Barb C.

 

2009.

Can't post images, or even screenshots, to the blog, 

until...

 I can get my God Forsaken new Android, 'on board'.

; )

Can't send, or retrieve email.

One... would think, 'these days'... that would be 'big problems'.

In the short term, it's been a little difficult.

Not as 'difficult' as some... would imagine.

; )

It's been a Blessing, in so many ways.

; )

I've actually 'talked' to people.

 'Heard' their voices, and the 'tone' of their 'voices'.

; )

to me,

That's a 'Big Deal'.

'Real'.

'The Real Deal'.

<3

Stumbled through blogger posts, today.

Landed on many, from 2009.

; )

I screenshot, many of those posts... 

<3

can't share them, yet.

If... ya have a moment, or Hours, : ) take a look at those old posts.

<3

Guessing, if you're reading this, and not a 'bot'...

 You're Included, somehow... in those posts.

<3

What a Ride.

<3

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

 

Gentle... on my mind.

 

The Back-roads.

Pal... Allyson picked me up yesterday morning.

We spent a lot of miles...

 on 

Iowa Back-roads.

Covered Linn, Delaware, Buchanan, Tama, and Benton Counties.

{Some of The Very Best Counties... in The State, in my opinion.}

Enjoyed a wonderful breakfast, at Edith Lucielle's... then, hit some Amish Country Stores.

On the way 'Home'... asked Allyson to jump off the major Hi-way, and hit some of the 

'Back-roads'.

Iowa 'County' Roads, and Gravel.

Visit some of my old... 'Stomping Grounds'.

<3

I know those old... Iowa Back-roads, like the back of my hand.

Believe... I could almost... drive them blindfolded.

; )

Allyson and I... visited about many, many... things, on our 'Travels'.

{was in rare form... when she picked me up, after I'd been watching the 'news' from about 4 a.m. 

I'd predicted what 'unfolded' night before last, a week ago. Was hoping, to be mistaken.}

Had some personal 'news'... to share with Allyson, as well.

'That'... 'news', kinda... set Allyson on her heels.

{I'll be filling everyone in, concerning 'That' 'news', in days to come.

To say it's been a little 'stressful'... lately, would be quite an understatement.}

It was Good, visiting old memories.

'Landmarks'.

; )

Seeing the areas, I so often ramble about... probably painted a clearer picture, for Allyson.

She... agreed, how Incredibly Beautiful those areas are.

Still.

: )

Allyson said... she's thinking we need to take another 'Big Trip', next year.

; )

She, thought... perhaps a cruise.

I, said... "That would require a passport.

 I'm not ready to leave 'The Country', just.... yet."

; )

Told her... They probably wouldn't let me back In...

 'these days'.

Passport, or no.

; )

Hahahahahaha!

{Not to be picky... but, ah... a 'cruise' has never intrigued me.

Prefer 'fewer people', and flyin' by the seat of my pants.

Guessin' ya can't 'fly' too far off of a cruise ship, unless... you're a mighty good swimmer.}

; )

then...

Allyson suggested... perhaps, another trip back to Savannah.

: )

'Savannah'....

Now... 

That...

 sounded very

 Appealing.

Very.

; )

Anywhere 'South'. 

<3

Anywhere...

 where there's

 Moss... 

hanging from

 The Trees,

 would be

 Perfect.

'Heaven'.

Allyson Loves 'The South', nearly... as much as I do.

; )

Big Changes... are coming, here... to The Rabbit Hole, and Beyond.

Stay Tuned.

; )

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.