let it ride. {began this post last night. It's kind of graphic, so... Ya might want to skip this one.}

It's... certainly not easy.

It's... not 'impossible'... either.

; )

Still fighting the good fight, for Miss. Peanut.

<3

It's been a very consuming, and frustrating battle.

Peanut refuses to eat... and, drinks very little.

: (

Christine... gave her IV fluids, again... today.

We're continuing with antibiotic injections, because... that's our last option.

Took a urine sample in to Christine, this afternoon.

Just like every other 'test'....

no answers for her anorexia.

: (..............

It's heartbreaking.

: (

beyond.

Beyond.

: (......................

Seems 'Fairfax'... is up to their old tricks, again.

: (

{Not... The 'Good'... 'Fairfax' Elected Folks, and Great New... City Clerk. <3}

Been wading through some of 'that'... over the last week, or so.

: (

Council Meeting... tonight.

Something tells me, I... should let it ride.

Let them all... 

'ride'...

for now.

{maybe... forever. ; ) seems to me, ultimately... most of them... deserve each other.

Eventually... everything comes out in the wash.}

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

{began writing this... much earlier.

Believe... Peanut gave me a 'sign'... a few minutes ago.

'things'

have

changed.

We'll see, what Christine thinks about it, tomorrow.

; )

I... have my own thoughts.

Guessin'... Miss. Peanut does too. }

<3

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

Actually wrote the above, Tuesday afternoon/Eve.

Peanut... wasn't doing well, at all.

wasn't sure she'd make it through the night.

She did.

<3

Peanut... isn't in pain.

She has zero appetite, and sleeps a lot.

We're going to continue with her antibiotics. I take her daily... for her injections. I... can't give them to her, myself.

Gave her one, on Saturday, myself...

but Sunday, Peanut was 'wise' to me.

Could only get half of her dose finished.

She fought me, to the point I was afraid I'd do her more harm, than good.

{Horses are much easier.}

The Girls at The Clinic, totally understood.

: )

They... also struggled, with two people.

Peanut is surprisingly strong... being so ill.

: (

 I have a sample of vomit, I'll take to Christine, today.

Peanut... throws up, daily.

Bile... 

: (

Last night... was 'different'.

: (

Told The Girls, at this point... I'm going to keep Peanut 'Comfortable'.

As long as she still perks up to her Squeak Toy, and gets excited when I pick up her leash,

we'll keep trying.

: )

<3

Skipped last nights Council Meeting.

Fairfax... is such a Mess.

: (

again...

getting pretty tired of some at 'Fairfax'... peeing on my boots, and telling me it's 'rain'.

Guess... they don't understand there's more than One way to test their 'Precipitation'.

We've been getting a lot of rain, over the last several days.

Again... throughout the night, and morning.

I'm heading out the door, to take a quick walk, and check for flooding issues.

Thanks to Everyone... 

for their 

Concern 

for

Miss. Peanut.

<3 <3 <3 

One day... at a time.

; )

<3

'Faint of Heart'...

Started this... 'Saturday's' post... early Sunday morning.

There's simply.... too much to put into 'words'... in a few,

 short hours.

The Truth Is... I'm still 'chewin' '... on Saturday...  and... so many, many...

'yesterdays'

'before'.

{'Today'... hasn't been 'easy', either.}

{'Today' rarely... 'is'.}

So many, many... 'things' to be Grateful for.

<3

So... many, many... 'things' to be not so much...

'For'.

'The Journey'...

ain't for the

 'Faint of Heart'.

I'll do my best... to write about the 'yesterdays'...

when I can.

guess...

again,

I think...

I need a moment.

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

{There's gonna be a lot... coming down the pipeline, this week. I'll post something... daily, tho... it may not be much more than a line, or two.}

<3

<3

'these'... days.

It's been pretty quiet around Home.

Picking up meds for Peanut, this morning.

Kind of a last ditch effort.

I'll be giving her injections, over the weekend, see if they help at all.

All we can do... is Hope.

; )

Don't want to leave Peanut... but, need to help Dear... Renate, for a bit, today.

<3

Shouldn't take long. Pal, Bill... and Grandson, Justin... will be helping as well.

: )

Had a go-round with 'City Hall'... yesterday, concerning more wrongfulness I watched unfold, on Thursday.

'These'... aren't the days to ruffle my feathers.

I'm a little 'short fused'... when it comes to 

'human' nonsense, 'these' days.

: (

Guess... I always am, after all of the years, being Jacked around... by these 'people'...

my 'filter'....

concerning 'them'... ain't holdin' up....

very well, concerning 'them'...

 'these' days.

Nope.

Reminds me of the old saying....

"Don't piss on my boots...

and tell me it's raining."

I'm getting pretty good at knowing the difference, 

'these' days.

Don't like to write... when there's no 'good' news to report.

'Life'

It is... what it is.

One Day... at a Time.

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

Indeed.

The Journey.

<3

The 'Surprise Lilies'... are Incredible this year.

: )

Long ago... Friend, Julie... gave them to me, 'Long, Long'... ago.

: )

There's another Bed... of them, on the other side of the entryway to The Hen House, behind The Rabbit Hole.

Was trying to remember when Julie gave them to me.

???

20 years ago...

?

Perhaps, further back than that... the way 'Time'... slips away.

They are Stunning... this year.

<3

; )

'Some'... 

people.

; )

<3

{IDOT, and Fairfax... 'people', in 2018, to date. ; ) }

{bless their hearts}

; )

Miss. Peanut, this morning... as we were heading to see Christine.

They ran all sorts of tests, again... today, along with a detailed ultrasound.

Did several other procedures.... and, came up empty.

We're all so incredibly frustrated.

: (

Picked Peanut up, late this afternoon, so they'd have a chance to 'observe' her.

We're going to visit in the morning,  over what our next plan of action will be.

<3

Indeed.

Think... we're all on the same page, tonight.

; )

Peanut... is Happy to be Home.

<3

She went Straight to her bed.

: )

She's been through Hell.

: (

On a Happier Note, spoke with a Dear... Old Friend, today.

<3

Haven't 'visited' with her... in several years.

She's an Amazing Antique Dealer.

Long, Long... Time.

: )

We laughed, and... visited about her 'Journey' over Decades... 

Chasing

 this 

Crazy...

 'Love of Old'.

: )

It's a Sickness!!!

Hahahahahahaha!!

; )

<3

The Hundreds of Thousands of Miles...

The Sleeping in her Van, while doing Shows across the Country.

; )

Yes... we compared a few...

 'Battle Scars'.

; )

Hahahahahahaha!!!

; )

When we went to say 'Good-bye'...

we both said...

in 

Unison,

"Love You... Girl!!"

<3 <3 <3 

Hoping... we can get together, soon.

It's been far, far... too long.

; )

oh... my.

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

<3

'Solid'.

I've spent more time with Dr. Christine, at River Basin...

these last several weeks with Miss. Peanut, than I have in the last 25, plus... Years

with The Horses!!

; )

Admiral... Babe, Bucky... and Scout.

<3

In January... Peanut weighed 77 pounds.

I... weighed her today, 55.6 pounds.

: (

Had to buy Peanut a new collar.

She's always worn... Polly's Collar.

<3

It won't fit anymore.

They gave Peanut an injection of fluids, today..

that's the 'hump' above her shoulders.

Peanut... is going back, in the morning, early... for more tests.

I... could've left Peanut, there, tonight...

 but, no I couldn't.

<3

Peanut... is blind, has been, since she was a Pup.

Peanut... is a 'Shelter' rescue.

<3

There's no way... I'd ever leave her alone, in a cage... in a strange environment.

Not happenin'.

One of the very first Vet's I worked with, as a Teen, was Doc Hanna, in Springville, Iowa.

Doc was a Large, and Small Animal Vet.

<3

Remember Doc telling me how much 'Better' Animals heal, in their Home Environment.

: )

He'd send our 'Critters'... Home, shortly after surgeries.

Gave detailed instructions for their Care.

<3

Doc Hanna, taught me so much... about Caring... for Animals.

<3

Hopefully... we'll have some answers tomorrow.

Sold a Darling... Early... {1880's} Amana, Iowa... Table, to a Sweet Gal, from Iowa City, this late afternoon.

; )

'Kyli'... is a Nurse.

{knew it the minute I met her.}

; )

Kyli... LOVED That Old... Walnut Table.

<3

{this... is why I 'do' what I 'do'}

<3

The Love... of Old.

<3

Below... are mostly, memories... that popped up today.

: )

Folk's say... you shouldn't look back.

; )

I... respectfully... disagree.

Being in the moment... is Very Important.

{especially when you're going down a flight of stairs, doing laundry, or... sweeping out the back of a FUSO Box Truck. : ) }

Living for the Future, is... important, as well.

: )

the thing is...

Nobody...  is promised 'tomorrow'.

When I look back, well... I'm grateful.

: )

There's been a whole bunch of 'things' over the years...

that sure could've changed my way of thinking.

When I look back, and 'see'... 

: )

I'm still... pretty 'solid'.

<3

In Spades!!

Hahahahaha!!

: )

; )

<3

<3

It's 'All'... About 'The Journey'.

; )

Fact.

; )

<3

<3 <3 <3 

<3

I've... Never Ever Forgotten Those Who've Stood With Me...

in 'The Rain', when... I knew, very well...

they had Far Better Choices.

Never Will.

; )

Love to Ya...

Prayers for

All.

Barb C.

<3

Spoiler... Alert. : )

; )

Priceless.

<3

Take It... Easy.

Above... is a Sweet, little old Rabbit, that Pal, Dale dropped off last week.

; )

I live... where 'The Rabbit Hole' is. Sometimes, customers get upset when they find things they'd like to purchase, here... that aren't 'for sale'.

I... don't sell 'Gifts'.

Ever.

<3

People don't know... it's difficult to differentiate, the 'line' between The Rabbit Hole, and Home.

Impossible, really... 

; )

They... pretty much 'meld' together.

<3

I've been 'Gifted' with some Wonderful Treasures, from Dear Friends, over the years.

Some... will Always, as long as I'm alive... be held.

There are some 'things'... Friends have sent with me, that... will be sold.

: )

They know it, I... know it.

We 'Know'... I'll find 'The Hands' they were truly meant to 'find'.

<3

{It's a 'Rabbit Hole'... thing. ; ) }

{You either 'understand it'... or, Ya don't. ; ) }

The Love of Old... Soulfulness.

<3

Still battling with Miss. Peanut's issues.

: (

She's still hangin' on.

<3

Many have asked... how old... Peanut is.

She's young.

; )

about...

 7

More tests, and fluids, tomorrow.

Thursday... more tests.

<3

; )

Indeed.

Indeed.

Always...

; )

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

(Hy-Vee Grocery Store... had a 'Pie Eating Contest', 11 years ago on this day.

; )

There were a dozen, or so... contestants. 

A few... were mighty big dudes.

; )

I never had a doubt who 'The Winner'... would be.

; )

Daughter, Liz, may never eat Apple Pie, again...

but, 

By God...

Liz Showed'em The Way Home!!}

; )

<3

<3

One Day... at a Time.

Summertime.

: )

Love seeing the Volunteer... Brown-eyed Susan pop up all around The Rabbit Hole, every year.

<3

Like Queen Anne's Lace, and... Purple Asters, they put on quite a show... this time of year.

: )

Plans changed yesterday... after visiting with Dear... Renate, on the phone.

Renate's moved in, partially... just.

Renate brought The Kitties from the apartment, Friday... 

they are NOT... adjusting well.

: (

Bud, and Renate... lost their Two... Beloved Kitties, in the Fire, nearly two years ago.

Bud, and Renate were devasted.

Their Home, was a total loss, as well.

: (...................

Like so many of us understand the deep Love of Our '4' legged 'Children'. 

: (

Then... Bud, suddenly passed away.

Oh my.

: (....................

Renate, well... I have no words.

: (

Bud, and Renate never had '2' legged Children.

Their Kitties, Pups, and Each Other, were Their Lives.

<3

Renate adopted two Kittens, last year.

They've been Such a Blessing to her.

<3

After Renate shared how traumatized The Kitties are, with this 'Move'...

told her, perhaps... we should wait a week.

; )

Let The Kitties get adjusted. 

<3

The LAST thing, in my opinion... those Kitties need, are Strangers in the house, moving furniture, and making all sorts of Racket.

{Renate is keeping The Kitties in her bedroom, with her... and everything they need, but they haven't eaten... and are hiding, even from Renate.}

: (

We Can't let ANYTHING.... happen to Those Kitties.

<3

Renate thought, that might be a good idea.

: )

There's no hurry.

: )

We'll Get'er Done, when the time is right.

<3

{Those 'Kitties' will have to kept in Renate's Bedroom, while we're moving things,

 whenever we come.

; )

Dear God... we Can't Let Anything... happen to them, or have them 'Slip' outside.}

Was sharing Miss. Peanut's awful, seemingly never ending mess, with Renate.

: (

Bud... Loved Peanut.

<3

Renate, too... but, Bud... really Spoiled her.

; )

This 'Move'... has Got to be so Incredibly Difficult, for Renate.

: (

Heartbreaking.

As we were going through thoughts, yesterday...

of

 Bud, and Beloved 'Children'...

oh dear.

We both melted into a Big Old Pool of Goo.

: (................................

{Hate It... When That Happens!! : ( }

Oh... dear.

Peanut was doing better, yesterday...

today, she's worse than ever.

: (

Damn It.... Damn It... Damn It!!!

: (................

<3

I keep hearing my Dad's advice, in my head... concerning the 'sick' 'Critters', I cared for... when I was young.

How Frustrated I would be, when... some... just couldn't thrive, no matter how hard I tried, and tried.

: (..................

Dad would ask me... if I knew in my heart, I'd done my best for them.

I'd tell him, yes... yes, but... 

He'd say...

"If you know in your heart, you've done your best, that's all you can do. Have no regrets."

<3

I... don't know... at this point, if.... I've Done my Best.

: (

That's What's So Frustrating.

: (

Is there Something... I'm missing.

Is There Something More.... I should be Doing.

: (

Heartbreaking.

: (

I know... Christine, Peanut's Vet, is at a loss, as well.

: (

She wants an update in the morning, hope there's one to give.

I'm not a fan... of The Twilight Zone.

{It's Scary... almost, too real.}

The above... episode, "The Hunt"... always touched my heart.

: )

It... came up, a couple of nights ago, I... switched the channel.

Couldn't watch it.

It's a good one, but... really, really... hard to take.

I've made it very plain to The Lord, since I was very young... if our Beloved Animal's aren't allowed in Heaven,

I... don't want to go there, either.

; )

The Lord Knows... He'd better send me to where The Animal's are, because... 'Heaven'... wouldn't be 'Heaven' for me, without Them.

<3

Welcome... August.

<3

Let Miss. Peanut outside around 4 a.m. this morn... oh my.

; )

It rained most of the day... yesterday, it brought in Cooler Weather.

<3

When I opened the door, that Cool Air Embraced us like an Old...

 Welcome Friend!!

; )

Left the door wide open...  still is.

<3

Love It!!

<3

Took Peanut to see Christine, yesterday.

We were there for several hours.

Christine took more images, and bloodwork.

I... was actually hoping Peanut's white count would be elevated.

It wasn't.

Again... Everything came back Good, and even better, than her previous tests, yet... she's lost another four pounds.

I... gotta tell ya, we're all very frustrated.

Peanut is eating, but... only a few tablespoons of food, a few times a day.

: (

Her teeth are fine. Christine took more extensive images of her head, and chest.

Nothing abnormal.

Christine gave Peanut an injection of steroids.

{I... am not a fan of steroids, but...at this  point, well... we're kind of out of options.}

She's eating a little, this morning.

: )

One Day... at a Time.

<3

The Great Staff, at River Basin... LOVES Peanut.

; )

She's Such a Good Girl.

<3

Was going to write about my visit with Long Time... Neighbor, May... yesterday.

: )

We had Such a Lovely Lunch, at Edith Lucielle's. 

May is from Ireland. Over the years, she's invited me to visit Ireland, with her.

: )

I... never could. 

Too many obligations at 'Home'... always, but... sure enjoy listening to May, concerning her young Life... in Ireland.

: )

I... never really knew May's age. I... don't 'see' people by their 'age', mostly 'see' people by their 'being'.

: )

May is 84, going on 30.

<3

Amazing Woman.

; )

May... Loved John, and... Loves Justin, and 'J'.

<3

Over the years, about 40 of 'em... we've appreciated each other.

<3

May said...

"Barb... sure Miss Your Sales... here. Seeing people Crowd on Memorial Day Weekends, and in the Fall."

{That kinda surprised me. Always worried about our Neighbors, during the Events, here.

Didn't want them to be inconvenienced, in any way.}

May... enjoys poking around The Rabbit Hole, even when I'm not there.

: )

It's another world.... for sure.

; )

May said... she was concerned with all of the Wild Grape, customer's won't be able to 'see' the wares.

: )

Told May... 'That's Just The Way I Want It.'

; )

Reminded May, if people can't 'see' in, I... can't 'see' 'Out', and what's become of our Land, and 'Neighborhood'.

; )

Told May... the 'Right' people, always, always... 'Find' their Way to The Rabbit Hole.

; )

May, agreed, and... totally... Understood.

<3

Contractor's are coming in, in the next several weeks, to try to make

'Repairs'.

If... they get everything 'Done'... maybe, I'll be able to pull 'The Fall Harvest Sale' together, in October.

No promises, at this point.

'Summer'... has gotten away from me.

It's been 'Hurry Up, and Wait'... for weeks.

It Is... What It Is.

; )

Stumbled across the above, this morning.

; )

Hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

I don't personally have a 'Therapist'... 

Guessing, if I did... 

the above, would be Fittin'!!

; )

Hahahahahahaha!!

; )

Was thinking the other day, 

{that's always dangerous. : ) }

I... do, actually have Many... many 'Therapists'.

; )

'Old... Fords',

'Backroads'....

and,

The Rabbit Hole, when I can 'Find' it.

; )

Indeed.

: )

<3

Pal, Bill... and I, are going to visit Dear... Renate, {Bud} today.

<3

Her New 'Home'... is done.

We're going to help move some things, for her.

<3

This is extremely difficult for Renate.

She Misses Bud, So.

We All... do.

: (

Unbelievable... how 'Life'... can change forever, in the blink of an eye.

You'd think, after going through so many, many... losses, and changes... over a lifetime, we'd get used to them, somehow.

Speakin' for myself, 'change'... life's 'upheavals', don't ever soften when they 'hit'.

Better get crackin'.

; )

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

; )

{Received a little information, yesterday afternoon, that...

kinda brought out the 'Ornery' in me.

; )

That's Never, Ever... a 'Good' time to 'Post'.

Hahahahahahahaha!!!}

oh...

dear.

: )

Get'er Done.

<3

Grandson... Justin, got his 6.0 Rockin' and Rollin'!!

: )

Justin's Pal... Antone, has been such a Great 'Partner in 'Crime'!!

; )

Those Boys...

are Having So Much Fun...

working on that Old...Ford.

: )

Priceless.

<3

I... had an 'Interesting' day... yesterday.

Great Day.

: )

Spent a little of it with a Dear Neighbor.

<3

She's from Ireland.

<3

I'll write about our beautiful visit, tomorrow.

: )

Miss. Peanut, has been eating a little, she's heading to see Christine, tomorrow.

{River Basin Equine, and Pet Clinic}

Hopefully... we'll get to the bottom of 'why'.

I've been pretty busy lining up Contractors, to get things 'Fixed' around Home, and The Rabbit Hole.

That's been a 'Journey'.

oh... my.

Hahahahahaha!!!

; )

Been a little more, than 'crazy'.

; )

It Is... What It Is.

At the end of the day... I'm confident, we'll...

 Get'er Done.

; )

{We Always... Do.}

: )

Stay Tuned.

Love to Ya...

Prayers for All.

Barb C.

<3

Priceless.

: )