Wednesday, September 30, 2020

Jamey Johnson - In Color (Official Video)

Ya Should've Seen It...in Color.


Took a ride, with a Dear Friend, yesterday....
about three hours...from Home.
: )
We went to visit her Uncle.
He's 95, and...lives on a Farm, that's been in the Family, since...the Civil War era.
My Friend, told me....not much has left the Farm, since then.
They needed some direction, on which way to go....with everything.
I was happy...to help, if...I could.

When we arrived, and...walked inside the old Farmhouse, I could smell...the wood burning Cookstove.
<3
It was keeping the Kitchen...Toasty, it...was a Chilly....Day.
{Outside. : ) }
Nothing...Heats, like Wood.
<3




The Uncle, came from the back of the House...and greeted us, in the Kitchen.
: )
Oh...my, it took me back.
<3
We visited for a while...then, started going through....the House, room...by room.
: )
Stories....Memories...
Everywhere.
<3
It wasn't long....I had to say, "Let's go outside, and go through the Buildings. We'll get back to the House...later. : ) "

I, can only take....so many....Memories, at a time, these days. 
<3




One of the Shed's....was Filled with Wood, that Neighbors...had just helped The Uncle, get ready, for another...Winter.
<3
The Old...Wood Burning Cookstove, won't go hungry. <3 

This is where they had cut, and split...wood, the day before we visited.
I'll bet, there was a Lot of Sweat, while splittin' all of the wood, for the Stove.
<3


Every Building, Barn...and Shed, was...Full.
Years, of 'Living'....carefully....stored within.
<3


As we walked...over the Property, I noticed the Most...Amazing, Old...Pine Tree.
<3
oh...my. 
I asked The Uncle, about it.
He...said his Beloved...Wife, had planted it, when she was a little Girl.
<3
He showed me, with his hands, how tall...The Pine was, when...she planted it.
<3
He Lost...her, early....this year.
: ( : ( : ( 
oh...my.
: (




<3 <3 <3 




The Uncle....and, I...had some Wonderful...Conversations.
<3
When, my Friend, and another...Dear Friend, who rode with us...went to get us all...some Lunch, 
The Uncle....and, I...sat in the Kitchen, and visited.
I, listened....mostly.
: )
He...spoke...so Lovingly, about his Soulmate.
<3 
Loss.
Memories.
<3
The Journey.
: )
The struggles, at the end.
: (

{ it's pretty easy, to 'Listen'...when the Folks Speakin', 
are honest, and...knowledgeable. }
<3

It's amazing, how...much we all...truly, have in common.

As The Uncle, and I....walked over the Grounds, he mentioned...early, that he should've grabbed his cane.
I, offered to go get it for him...
he, said...no.

By...the time we were getting ready to leave, he was walking better than me!!
<3
The Uncle, was a Marine...
{'Is' a Marine. 'Once a Marine, Always...a Marine'. : ) }

It was a Gift....to Visit, my Dear Friend's Uncle.
: )
Told both of them, I'll help....any way....I can.
Whatever they want, I'll help.
It's a Gift...to be around Folks, like These.
: )
It...Truly, Is.
<3 
These...are the Kind of Folks...Dad 'Knew', and...
introduced me to, as a child.
<3 <3 <3 

'The Real Deal'....Folks.
Priceless.

Love to Ya.
Barb C. 







 

Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Simply Iowa... Cousins on The Farm

Ya...Can, go Back.


It's kinda...funny.
As worried as I was...about 'Seeing'...my Favorite Aunt, and Uncle's...Farm, 
through these 'Grown Up'....eyes, 
well...
guess, I shouldn't have worried...so.
: )

I...Still...'See', The Barn Standing...Tall, and Proud.
<3
Still...'See', 'Blackie', the Wonderful....old, Labrador, Greeting me, with his Tail...Waggin'.
<3
Still...'See', The Chickens, Ducks, and Geese....and could...almost hear the Guineas....and....
Peacocks, perched in the Trees, letting Everyone Know....
'Company Is Here!'
<3
: )




The Cousin's...were there, working... Sunday afternoon, when I arrived.
: )
I walked up...the old, concrete steps, then...on, inside.
 Haven't been inside, since I was about 12.

 Expected...to smell....the Wonderful Scent, of Dillweed, hanging in the Kitchen, like always.
{Most Czech Kitchens, in my mind, should Always...have Fresh Dillweed, hangin' around. <3 }
I, didn't.
: (
The Cousins...had everything boxed up.
They've been cleaning, and packing...for weeks.

Stood in the Kitchen....
looking at all of the boxes.
Remembering...
Remembering.

Saw...things, packed, that I...'Knew'.


Felt my hands...cover my face..as I stood there.
I, couldn't....'Look',
 'See'...
any 
more.
I, was slipping...away...
melting.
oh my.
: (

Then,
Turned....
and walked into what used to be the Dining Room, 
where The Cousins, were gathered.
All...I could say, was...
"I'm puttin' on another Hat, now. 
 Have To.
Business Hat. 
If...I don't, I'm done."

Cousin...Sallie, I was always closest to... said, she wondered, how...I would handle this.
: (
Told her...I, wondered....too.
oh my.
{Florence's Funeral, was one of the most Difficult ones, I've ever attended.
She, was Such....an Amazing Woman.
She worked Harder, than any Three Men, I Know...Combined.
She Loved...Critters, and...The Earth.  <3 <3 <3 
Beautiful...Inside, and...Out.
<3 <3 <3 }

I, noticed the Old...Victrola, that had been upstairs.
The Cousin's had just brought it down.
I, remember....Sallie, and me...cranking that Victrola, over...and over, and listening to the old...records.
: )
 Took a video, above....
of Cousin's Sallie, and  Randy...along with Randy's Wife....Sharon, as we all stood there, listening to it, again.
<3 <3 <3 


It didn't take me long....however....
to have to step outside, and....
look through the Buildings.

We walked into The Barn.
<3
I, remember....Florence, milking the Cow....there.
<3
Looked up, and saw...an Old...Old... Coca Cola Cooler.
Randy, shared Many Memories...of That Old....Cooler.
: )





When I stepped away, from The Barn....
I, looked across the Pasture.
Saw...a big Dumpster.
 Asked Randy...what was in it.

He said.....
"Old...scrap iron, and junk...from The Barn. 
The recycler's are coming tomorrow, to get it."
uh oh.....

Didn't take me long, to get to it...or, climb the side...of it, to see...what they'd Pitched.
oh my.

It was raining...
but, threw my umbrella down...
and began pointing to things...
that had Better Get Pulled Out, now.
; )

Soon, Gary.... Cousin Susie's Husband....joined us.
<3
: )

{Men, soon become 'Boys'...when ya show 'em....
'Remind'...them, 
how Extremely Cool....
some of that 'Junk'....Truly....Is. : ) <3 }


 


I kept pointing at Things...That OUGHT NOT...go to Scrap.
<3
They...Kept Diggin'. <3


Randy, kept...sayin'...
"This is all Rusty...."

Hahahaha....
Yep, I kept sayin'...
If it was New, and Shiny....I wouldn't be askin' you to Rescue It!!
: )

Then, Randy....pulled something out, that...I thought he was 'Pullin' my Leg'...on.


It was an Old.... Indian Motorcycle Wrench.
Holy...Smokes.
<3 <3 <3 


Randy, kept....Diggin'.
<3
Then, after...a bit, he...said,
"I think we've dug as deep, as we can....'Safely'."

I, said... 
"I get it. 
Guess...that's it. 
Only thing left to do...
Is Keep Diggin'...
 'Unsafely'.
; )
 Keep Diggin'....Boys."
; ) 

Hahahahaha!

They...Did!!
Bless Their Hearts!!!
<3 <3 <3 




We pulled...some Very....Cool Things, from their Demise.
<3 <3 <3 






Randy, told me about the encounter...he'd had with a Huge...Snake, while he was cleaning The Barn.
I'm not afraid...of Snakes, but...I don't stay around them long....either. : )
Live....and, Let Live.
{With a lot of Space...between us. ; ) }


After Long...Conversations....with 'Cousins',
it was time to go Home.
Sallie, walked me to Jethro.
Just...as I was going to open the door, Sallie said....
"Uh Oh! Look Out!! Snake!"

I, looked at it....and said, "Don't catch it...until I get a Picture!"
Asked her...while I was taking pictures, " What Kind...of a Snake...is it???"

She said....
"Rubber."

Hahahahaha!
It was a Rubber Snake, she'd tried to scare me with.
: ) : ) : ) 
I'm No Fun.
: )
There's a Long...Story, around This.
Another...
Day.
<3 



Sallie.
<3 <3 <3 

Told the Cousin's....
I'd help them....with anything they need.
<3
: )
It, almost...
almost...
felt like Old...Times.
: )
'Family'.
oh...my.
<3

Love...to Ya.
Barb C. 

{Spent the day...on The Road. 
Another...
Long...Story, tomorrow.
 oh my. 
<3 }

Sunday, September 27, 2020

Trace Adkins - I Got My Game On

Bootstraps.... oh my.


Oh my....

Love the Trace Adkins Tune....
'I've Got My Game...On'
; )
Hahahahaha....
oh my.

Some days....it's Mighty Difficult, to Get Your Game...On.
; )


 

I've got Quite a Sunday....ahead.
I'm Pullin' Myself Up...
by my Bootstraps, slowly.
Hahahaha...
Have to meet with Family, later.
It's gonna be a difficult day.
I'm...concerned.
I'm trying to Suit my Heart....Up, with some Tuff...Armor.
oh my.
I'm nervous...should one tear...slip,
 It'll be All...Over.
I'll melt...into a Puddle.
: (



Wish...I could wear The Hatter's Hat...today.
Be...anyone else...but, me.
: (

Memories...Loss, I....don't like to visit 'them'.
If I didn't Love...these Folks, so Much...
ya couldn't drag me... 'There'.
Haven't been 'there'...since I was was young.
oh my. 

They need my Help.
<3
so...
I'll Slip My Game...On.
Do My Job.
As John...would say...
"Git'er Done.'

I, hope....and Pray, I can be Professional.
My Heart....can't get in the way.
if...it does,
'Game Over'.

oh...my.

Love...to Ya.
Barb C.

{ as I was cleaning....this morning, before I take off, kept thinking....Why, does going back there.....worry me so?
I, had such Wonderful...times there.
Beautiful....Memories.
<3 <3 <3 
Then... it hit me.
I want to Keep 'Those'....Memories.
<3 <3 <3 
I, don't want to know...now, what I didn't know...then.
: (
I...want to remember.... Everything, Just The Way....I saw it All,
 through the eyes of a Child.
<3
I don't want to 'see'...'it'...through these....eyes. }

Friday, September 25, 2020

ALISON KRAUSS Can´t find my way home

Trying....to find my way back.

Walked to the rabbit hole, this morning.
Put a little water, in the Fountain.
Fed...the Fish....in the Trough.
<3



They are HUGE!
I, don't even know how old they are.
Many...Years...old.
<3
The Koi...are at least 14 inches long.
They were tiny...when I brought them home.
Not much bigger than Minnows.
<3
Then, a few years ago.... I noticed 'Other'...Fish in the Trough....that I didn't put in there.
That....was a Surprise!
I think they're Bluegill.
<3
I don't know how....they found their way, down the rabbit hole.
Some, think...a Bird, might have brought eggs, on their feet, from the Creek.
I, don't know.... but, I love seeing them.
There...are Many.
<3

It's kinda..strange, that's the way....'Fish'...began, down the rabbit hole, about 20 years ago.
Only had the Fountain, then.
{The one...I just got goin'...in the front Greenhouse}

One...Christmas Day....we had a bit of a blow up...at the Dinner Table.
It was between the Young Adult/Teenage, Kids.
A disrespectful conversation.
{They were all...old enough to know better.
I waited for John, to put a stop to it, he...didn't.}

I've never tolerated arguing...in our Home. 
Ever.
Never...at the Dinner Table,
 especially...
during
'Christmas Dinner'.


So, I excused myself...and walked down to the rabbit hole.
 Stood inside the Greenhouse...looking at the Beautiful...Fountain.
I'd put Evergreen Branches...in the Big...Fountain's...bowl, for the Holiday Season.
: )
It was warm enough...inside the Greenhouse, the Fountain...hadn't frozen, and the water...was running, so....beautifully.
So....Calming.
My heart...was so...heavy, {Christmas..is very important. }
but.... like always, the rabbit hole, soothed my soul.
<3

Then, all of a sudden, I saw something MOVE....in the water!
It Startled Me!
I Jumped Back!

Oh my...
It was a Fish.
<3
A Big Minnow!
All....I could think of...
"There Is Life!!!"
<3 <3 <3 
It was such an ugly...Christmas, that year.
but....
God, showed me.....
'There is Life'.
<3 <3 <3 

The Minnow, was brown....in color.
but...within a few weeks, he'd turned Orange.
<3
Then, I saw another.
<3 <3 <3 

There were Two.
I'm not sure...how they found their way to the rabbit hole...
the only thing I can figure...
I'd bought some Water Plants, that late...Summer, and...maybe, the eggs were on them.
Doesn't matter.
That Christmas...Day, that First...little Fish, was The Best Christmas Gift...
I received!!!
<3 
They were both very gentle...and, so Friendly, and tame.

Sadly, several years later....they passed away.
They, are both buried...beside the rabbit hole.

I wasn't going to bring any fish, back....
but, I was at Walmart, one day....
and saw the little Fish, so crowded...in a tank, there....
I bought 5.
Two Koi, and 3 Goldfish.
We've lost a couple...to Critters, but...somehow...I think, when we clean the Trough, there's gonna be Many, Many....More, than we started with.
: )

None of these are as tame.....as the first Two.
but...that's o.k.
: )
They seem Happy.
That's all that matters.
<3

I'd like to clean this trough out, before it turns cold....
I keep a stock tank heater, in it over the Winter.
It's amazing...how these little Creatures have survived, and....thrived.
<3 <3 <3 
I've worried about them...with all of the poison dust, from the IDOT's Dump, across the road.
The tank....has to be filled, at the bottom....with concrete, and asphalt dust.
: ( 



 






John shared the above post on my FB Page...7 years ago, yesterday.
Oh my...
<3 <3 <3 
God...only knows, how much I miss him.


Yesterday, was a tuff day.
It was my Sister, Merry Jo's... Birthday.
 Called her, and wished her a Happy...Day. <3
We talked, for a long...long, time.
I was filling her in, on everything.
{Only...because she asked. : ( }
Sadly...I made her cry...
: (
me...too.
I...didn't mean to do that.
: (
Especially....on her Birthday.
: (
That's...why, I don't call very often.
She worries...like Mom, did.
: (
I, don't talk to Family...or, Friends....very often.
They...feel so helpless....I, don't want them...to feel that way.
: (
It sounds strange....but, it's easier....to talk to Folks I don't know.

 Think...I'm gonna make it rule, like the 'No Talking Politics' Rule....
 down the rabbit hole.
No...talking about any of this 'wrongfulness'...there, either.
Ya can't get away from it, in our Home...anymore, or....outside...but, I can't have any of it...
contaminating my 'Sanctuary'.
A...
"Don't  Ask...and Don't Tell" Rule...
down the rabbit hole.
: )

I thought the below...quote, was a perfect example, of how to juggle Life.
This...mess, included.
I, used to be able...to do that, without thinking about it.
It's been much more difficult, this time around.
I've got to try...and find my way back, to this way of thinking.
<3




Love...to Ya.
Barb C.



{John came to the rabbit hole, that Christmas Day. 
We had a long chat, about what had transpired....at the Dinner Table.
: )
John, agreed...he should've stepped in.
<3
Nothing...like that, ever happened again.
<3
 Home...
should be your Family's Sanctuary.
Family...should be respectful of each other, always....
but, especially...within it's Walls, 
and...
Especially....at The Dinner Table. 
Just sayin'.
; )
<3
Ya want to argue...pick...and prod, 
do it...elsewhere. 

I, reminded....John, we'd Both seen Enough of 'That'...growing up, 
we couldn't allow it, in our Home.
Ever. 
He...agreed. <3 }

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Wednesday, September 23, 2020

Put That Hammer Down...and Give It Hell. {Never mind...those brakes. }

Oh my....
had a little Fun, today.
'Fun'...always...seems to Find It's Way...
down the rabbit hole, when ya least expect it.
: )
I had my day...planned out.
A Contractor, was supposed to come visit, and...assess the Hurricane Damages, this afternoon.
He didn't show.
{I, know....they are all...Losing Their Minds, around here...these days. <3 }
Pal, Wanda...and her Beloved...Terry, were gonna swing by, and pick up...too.
Wanda, invited me to Lunch...with her, and....Terry, I had plenty of time...before the contractor...was scheduled to arrive, so...I agreed.
<3
We had a Lovely...Visit.
<3
As we were leaving the restaurant...
Wanda, came running up...to Jethro, and said...
"Don't Leave...the Van won't start."

I'm not a Mopar person...
the Only thing...I know, about Mopar's...
They Are Temperamental.
{and...expensive...to Fix.
Nothing...like a 'Ford'. ; ) }

After listening to it, I...thought, it could be the alternator...
could be...the battery.
Things, are different these days.
Back in Our Day...a Battery, would give some warning...before it Died.
Not...like.. John always said...with these New...Computer Driven...Vehicles.
A Battery, can Die, in a moment.
If the computer can't get enough energy...your vehicle...will do some Crazy...things.
It's True.
I ran home...grabbed Justin's....Amazing, 'Snap On'...Jump Pac.{it drives me Crazy...how Expensive....these New 'Tools'...are. oh my... But, I'm so Thankful...how small, and Quick...They Work. ; ) }

I, jumped Wanda's Van...over, and over.
It would run...for a few moments, then...die.
: (
I, called Sankot's...Garage, in Fairfax...just a few miles from where we were sittin'.
They didn't have a Hauler, to come get it...but, if we could get it there...
they'd try to help.
<3
So...I told Terry, and Wanda...I'd follow them, if Terry could keep it running, when we got close to Sankot's.., I'd pass them, and lead them in.
Terry, had to Keep the RPM's Up...Not Let the Van...die.
We didn't make it out of the Parking lot.

Terry, is an Amazing...Driver, he's just not used to Driving...'Broken'.
I, am.

I don't turn the Keys..to Jethro...over to Anyone.
but...
I, knew...if we were going to get that Van....to Sankot's...
I'd have to drive it.
Terry, would have to Drive....Jethro.
oh my.

Poor Wanda!!!
Hahahaha...
She rode with me, in The Van!!!
It brought back Memories...of headin' to Nashville, with Peg, and....Wanda, and...Wanda, turning White as a Ghost...crossing a Certain Bridge.
<3 
Hahahahaha.
Oh...My!!!

I kept the RPM's UP...and had The Brakes...Smokin'.
Had to.
Wanda said...as we were FLYING....
"I smell something burning'.
: )
Yep...Those, are The Brakes.
I have to Ride Them....nearly as Hard, as the Gas.
I've gotta keep the RPM's Up...or, this...Van....will die.
We'll be Jumpin' It....every 300 feet.
Hang On...we'll get there.
; )

THAT...was my Fun...for The Day.
: )
We Got There....
: )
Terry, too...with Jethro.
<3
When Terry climbed out...of Jethro.... at Sankot's....he said, 'Jethro's got a Deep Clutch.'
: )
Yes....Indeed.
; )
He's...a Trick, to Drive....but, Oh My....So Much Fun. <3 

Sankot's put a new Battery, in The Van...
Wanda, and Terry....made it Home.
I, told them...to have their alternator checked, again...before they take a Long...Haul.
Just...to be safe.
<3 

When I thought...about what Tune, to play...tonight.
I, thought about...
'Smokey and The Bandit'
Jerry Reed, 'Eastbound and...Down'.
<3
and...a Beloved... Pontiac Trans Am.
<3


 My Beloved Driver...
John, built...
<3
Like...Jethro.
<3
He's....Still Here.
<3
They all...are.
'Family'.
Always...will, be.
<3 <3 <3 

Love...to Ya.
Barb C. 

In The Palm of Your Hand

The Last...Key.

 

Took a walk...down the rabbit hole, this morning.
The morning's have been cool, and....somehow, my coffee always tastes a little better, these crisp mornings.

I walked barefooted, through the dew laden grass.
<3
I, know...I sound like a broken record, but...you truly, have no idea....
how incredibly difficult it is to 'see'...what's happening around home.
oh my.
Has been, for so long.
Too...long.


When I walked inside, the little rabbit hole, my eyes...fell upon the Christmas present, I'd given Peg...
several years ago.
Michael...brought so many of Peg's Treasures, to me... when he moved back to Iowa.
<3

Peg, would never let me 'buy'...her anything for Christmas.
She Insisted, I make her something, with my hands.
<3
That, was so Easy...for Peg, to do.
She, like John...was an Incredible Artist.
<3
Me....ah, not so much.
: )
Peg, saved all of the tags, I'd written on, when she'd pick things out, from the rabbit hole.
oh...my.
<3
So, that year....as Peg was battling cancer, I wrote her a note, on an old tag, then...gave her one of the hand cut, tin....Key's...that John had made.
<3



I've seen the Key, in one of the boxes, over the months, but....
couldn't pick it up...to read, what I'd written, until....now.
oh my.

A Soul...can only take so much.
I've had to be...very careful.

I gave Peg, a 'Streams in the Desert'...Book, with the Key.
It's carried me, through some difficult times, to say the least.
<3
I remember reading in my Streams, long ago....
'Don't be discouraged, for it may be the last key on the ring...that Opens the Door."
<3
It's so...true.
Difficult, to remember...while frantically fumbling...through key, after...key, after...key.
oh...my.

When I walked inside, the first thing....I saw, was a little Heart, sitting on an old...clock, by the door.
<3




a...tiny, yet....powerful, reminder...
we never walk alone.
<3

I've been backed into a corner...a lot, over the last few years.
Especially, over the last several months.
I, don't like that.
I, guess...nobody, does.
I, so...dislike confrontation.
I, just want to be treated fairly, and.... be told the Truth.
I, just want to live, and let live.

Guess, we all...do.
If...Folks would only...do, the right thing.
Keep their word, and....be respectful....of their Neighbors.
That's all.

I've been Blessed, by some Folks, who...are looking out for me.
I've had to lean on them....That's so....difficult, when I Know...
Everyone, is fighting their own...battles.
oh my. 

I, remember....when I was about 19, Dad...had hired two guys, a little older, than me...
 to help him scrap some Farm Machinery.
I was working two jobs, and had obligations with the Horses.
Dad, called me early...one morning.
He had to walk...3 miles, to get to a phone.
{Dad, would've been about 70 years old.}
He was living in the Old...Farmhouse, where he was scrapping..
He told me, the guys, he'd hired...had backed him into a corner, the night before, took the keys, to our Old Ford, that was loaded, and ready to go to the scrap yard, the following morning.

I called John, we picked Dad up....and started searching for The Ford, and the guys.
We went to the scrap yard, I talked to Henry, the owner of the Yard, he...told me the guys had already been there, and sold the load.
: (
So...we kept searching.
We spotted the Ford, in a parking lot.
Hood up, one of the guys...was trying to get it running.
{Loyal...Old Ford. <3 }
and...
one....was trying to take the license plates off.
: (
oh my.

John, parked in front of The Ford, I bailed out.....of the car, and....
Lost My Mind.

The guy, who'd been under the hood, ran to the driver's door.
He didn't have a chance, to open it, before I got to him.
I asked him...how he liked being 'Backed into a Corner?'
oh my.
Asked him...to go ahead, try....to treat me, like he, and his buddy, treated Dad, the night before.
Again...he didn't have a chance.
I saw Red. So...did the guy.
I'd never sworn in front of Dad, before...that morning.
He'd never seen me that angry, frankly...I don't ever recall...being that angry, in my life.

John, was standing over the guy, that was still crouched, on the ground, at the bumper...of the Old..Ford.
I, remember...glancing over my shoulder...to make sure, that guy wasn't going to come from behind.
Oh my...when I saw John...smokin' a Stogie....then, flicking it, in the other guy's face...
asking him...
"Where's the Loot?" repeatedly....in a way, that John...was so...very good at...
I, gotta tell ya, both of those guys, got a little taste, of what's it's like....
to be backed into a corner.

We got the 'Loot'...the guys took off running.

When I got back in the car...where Dad, was sitting, in the back seat, nothing mattered, except, I felt ashamed...that Dad, had heard me swear, and...see, that some of his 'Boxing Skills', were handed down.

When I think about this...it makes me understand, how painful...it's been for our Children, to watch what's been happening to their Mom.
oh my.
Liz would Love...for me to leave Fairfax.
Sell...and, leave.
We can't discuss it, anymore.
: (
I told her...I can't have any negativity....around me.
You're either....with me, or against me.

I, wish....this wrongful...battle could've been settled as quickly, as that one.
Some of that...is my fault.
It's so much easier...to fight for someone I love, that's been wronged.
I, spend too much time, trying...hoping, those who have wronged me...will see the light, and do the right thing.
Obviously...that's not going to happen.
: (

So...I'm calling in, those...who can Help.
Protect.
{Legally}
I...have no choice.
: (
I'm backed into a corner.
Just...like Dad, oh my....
I can't imagine how difficult it was for Dad, to call me....
that Saturday morning, so many years ago.
: (
actually...I, can.

All I've asked for, is to be treated fairly. 
Nothing more.
People...to do their Jobs, and...Care, about Others.
Treat Other's... like They'd like to be Treated, or...have Their Loved Ones, Treated.
That's all.

I'm going to begin writing letters.
 Much...is already on the record, but....not everything.
It has to be, for future's sake.
I, can't choke....anymore.
I, can't depend...that Folks will do the right thing.
They've proven, again...again...they don't deserve that benefit...any longer.
: (

Maybe...I've finally found the Last...Key, on the ring.

Please...Pray for me, my Family....and The Helpers.
<3 <3 <3 
{and...those who are 'wrongful'.
 They, most likely need Prayers, the most.}

Love...to Ya.
Barb C.