Sunday, August 9, 2020

POSTPONED!!! ESTATE TAG SALE!! '1' Cottage Grove Dr. N.E. Iowa City, Iowa. NEW DATES!! August 20 - 23!!!... 9 - 6 Daily! {Numbers at 8:30 a.m. on the 20th, and 23rd..}

ESTATE TAG SALE!!

POSTPONED!!!

NEW DATES...

August 20 - 23!!!

Due to The Catastrophic Storm {Hurricane, actually.} that Blew through Iowa, August 10th, there is Much Damage, and most power is OUT. Thankfully, only loss of power, at the Iowa City Sale Home. 

I have no power, water, phone, or internet. To Update this Blog, was quite a Trick!!!

Thanks, So Much to Fern Hill, in South Amana, one of FEW that have service..I'm updating, from their Store, now. There may not be many updates, until we get Power in Fairfax, that may not happen, before the Sale. 

The Crews are working as quickly as they can, but...at this point....there are few places to find Fuel. It's like a war zone.

Everyone I know...have lost Much.

We'll Be Ready To Go...on The 20th!!


'1' Cottage Grove Dr. N.E. Iowa City, Iowa.

NEW DATES...August 20 - 23!! 

9 a.m. 'til 6 p.m. Daily! {Numbers at 8:30 a.m., on the 20th, and 23rd. No Early Sales.}

August 20, and 21. Full Price.

August 22, Most Items 25% OFF

August 23, Most Items 50% OFF

The Attached Chandeliers, and Sconces will Not be Reduced in Price.

Masks, and Social Distancing Required.

This is an Absolutely Beautiful Home... {For Sale!} Filled, with...Lovely, Lovely...Things. It's been a privilege working with these Beautiful pieces.

There are Several French, and Victorian Upholstered Pieces. Sofas, Settees, Chairs, Bedroom Sets, Paintings, Prints, Mirrors, Leather Sofa, Chandeliers, Candelabras, Furniture Dating from the Late 1700's to Modern. 

Loads of BLING!!! <3 <3 <3 

I'll be updating if, and when...I can! No Power...Yet! Make Plans to Attend, on the New Dates!

Much, to unpack. There will be a partial Estate, along with a Family Friend, bringing Items. Those haven't arrived yet. 

Stay Tuned!!

Below, are a few images.


This is just a Snippet.

I'll be posting a link, to estatesale.com ID # 333408 'Fabulous French Estate Sale' on my Simply Iowa Facebook page, with Many...more images, as well. ; ) 

There's also...Regular Household,  Lovely....Clothing, and...Garden Related Items...on this Sale, too.

Make Plans...to Attend! 

Saturday, August 8, 2020

Patsy Cline - Your Cheatin' Heart

Shiftin' Gears... Iowa City Estate Sale August 13-16.

Shifting Gears.


I'll be posting images, and details concerning the Iowa City Estate Sale, starting the Evening of August 9th. 

Hopefully...there will be No MORE Wrongful Catastrophes, caused by The IDOT District 6, this upcoming week. I've been tied to Home, with the Flooded basement, and Servpro working here, daily. I'm very Grateful, to Pal, Bill...for working in Iowa City, during these hectic, demanding... and devastating... times.


I've also...been so concerned, that something could happen again, that would flood our basement. I'm nervous about leaving Home. The IDOT finally opened a hole in the ground, a few days ago, near our tile, but....it won't be able to drain, freely, seeping into nothing but dirt.

I'm also having 'Blogger Issues', as you can see, everything is double spacing.

: (

Daughter, Liz...is stopping by, to try to help me figure it out. It could, simply...be a 'Blogger Issue', as they seem to be 'Updating' everything, now. : (

So...it will be, what it will be. All of it. ; ) Just gonna have to Roll with The Punches, no matter.

After the Iowa City Sale, I'll be Setting my Sights, on this IDOT Wrongfulness. There are many issues, that have me gravely concerned. Wrongful Trails....and Flooding. With the IDOT's Trail Accommodations, for Fairfax, {That were Agreed through our Recorded Settlement Agreement, Would Not Be, after the IDOT Condemned our Land, for 'Highway Maintenance and Road Improvement', when according to their own Engineer, in writing...was actually Condemned for Fairfax's Trail, on the Bridge, and Under. : (  uh....oh. : (  } we have lost the drainage, not only from our Home, {gutters, and floor drain}but...The Rabbit Hole, as well. Our Land...will become a 'Mote'. { Poorly designed Stallman Drive/151 Intersection. } As I've shared with District 6, long before they broke ground, on numerous occasions. Verbally, and in writing. {I'm also terribly concerned about the Safety, but...the IDOT District 6, is not. They've proven that, over and over.} : (  I've never asked for anything, that wasn't Fair, and Forthright. Truth, Honesty...with the Expectation, of Those I Deal with, To Keep Their Word, as I do. That's All. It's called, 'Respect'. 'Integrity'. 

I've seen very little, of either...over the last 4 years. 

I've often...wondered, how the Fairfax, Mayor... Council, Engineer, IDOT Boys...would 'feel', if Their Mother, Daughter...Sister, or...Wives...were being Treated, in Their Absence, the way...They, have treated...me, and...All, We've Worked our Lives...away, for.

For that matter, I..also, wonder...how 'They'd All Feel', if 'Their' Dad, Son, or....Brother, were being Treated, as We are...in 'Their Absence'. oh...my. 

Several, of my Dear...Friends, have suggested, if...I weren't a Woman, they'd all treat me differently. I, don't believe that. {I, don't want to believe that. } They, also... say... "If John were Here...This, Wouldn't be Happening." : ( I, don't...want to believe...that, of Them...either. 

I wasn't Raised, Brought Up... to 'Think'..That Way. Guess, Time will tell. It Always...does. <3



So...I'm heading to Iowa City, and...am looking Forward, To That! It's an Amazing Sale, with Loads...of Beauty. 

Stay Tuned!!!

Love...to Ya!

Barb C. 

{Thought...since I posted my Favorite Patsy Cline...Quote, I...should probably, post...one of Her...Perfect Tunes, above...as well. ; ) }









Thursday, August 6, 2020

Love Story ~ Taylor Swift Lyrics

Finding Strength...in moments of weakness.

Found my way...to the basement, early...
this morning, before the Servpro Guys, arrived.
I, knew....I'd better find my feet, and face the Music, before it was gone.

I went into the back corner closet...I'd not been in, for decades.
Opened the door, and saw an old...suitcase, partially open, on the floor.
I'd never seen it, before.
I, opened it wider, and began carefully looking through it.
Inside, was much of John's personal papers.
His, long...long...ago, Art Work, and Drawings.
<3 <3 <3 
Then, I saw a leather pouch.
It, was a Billfold.
All, hand tooled.
Had John's name, and initials...tooled into the leather.
I knew, it was something, John...had made.
<3
I tucked it under my arm...and set the suitcase up high, on the things...we are attempting to save.
{Had I not found that old suitcase, this morning.....I'm sure, it would've been gone. It's in pretty sad..shape.}

Rescued a few other precious...things, as well.
<3

After the Men...arrived, I sat down with John's Billfold.
I, never...ever...went through John's Wallet. Ever. 
John, never said...I couldn't...but, that's something, I would...never, do.
He, never...ever...went through my Purse, ever.
Hahahaha.
I remember asking John to grab something out of my purse, every now, and then....
: )
He, never would.
; )
He'd just bring my purse, to me....and let me Dig.
: )
I, always felt, whatever....he kept in his wallet, was His...Business.
; )
So...it was difficult, opening his Billfold, today.
I, kind of felt...like I was invading his privacy.
: (
I, opened it, and carefully....went through it, because...I felt, maybe....I should.

Oh my.
<3
It Held...Everything, that was So...John.
<3 
I won't share...it's contents, here..
I, will..with our Children, and Grandchildren....
<3 
Most items that were dated, were from the early, to mid...70's.
Before I knew John.
I found it interesting...that there were many things in John's Wallet, then...
that, I carried in mine, about that same time.
<3
There was a Title, to a 1965 Mustang, folded neatly...inside.
I, also...carried a Title to a 1965 Mustang, in my Wallet, about that same time.
<3 <3 <3
 
I, lost that Mustang...had to sell it, to pay the fines, when I was picked up...for no muffler, and a few other...little violations.
: )
John, also...had a 'Moving Violation'...Ticket, tucked in his wallet.
; )
I, couldn't make out...exactly what it was for, but....I have a few, ideas.
; )
I, carried a few of Those.... with...around then, as well. 
; )
I gotta tell ya, finding John's Wallet, really...gave me a lot of Strength, today.
It...was such, a Blessing, through...all of this, Madness.
Priceless.
<3 <3 <3 





Wednesday, August 5, 2020

No words.



The Servpro Men, just left.
They're coming back...tomorrow.
They are super nice, and work very hard.
That basement, is a mess.
: (
I had the Boys, Justin, and Eric...start piling things high...wherever they could, to get things to higher ground, in case it flooded, again.
It's total...destruction, on every level.
The Servpro Guys, tore out all of the drywall, about 4 feet up.
All of the doors, and casings, are...gone.

I, can't even look at it.
Hearing them...demolish, was absolutely...devastating.
Peanut, my little Best Friend, sat next to me shaking.
She, doesn't understand...what's happening.
That, makes two of us.

The IDOT, opened the area where the drain tile was/is located.
I, have no idea...if it will drain.

Looks to me, like it's seeping into the ground.
I, don't see any intact tile. 
All...
for a Wrongful...Trail, that nobody, should ever walk on.

There were things, I'd wanted to save...but, the Men told me, I should let them go.
: (
Mostly, I agreed with them.

 Made my way to the basement, a few minutes ago.
I, didn't go down there, while they were working.
 Doubted...I could've kept my composure.

I was doing o.k., until...I saw this.

It's an old...level, John probably used, when he was building the walls, in the basement.
Under...the old, level...
was an empty pack, of John's Lucky Strikes.
I picked it up, and...cleaned it off, the best..I could,
then...
Lost It.
Absolutely...
Lost It.
Melted into a Pool...of Heartbreak.
 Had to remind myself..to breathe.
It...
Literally Knocked The Wind Out Of Me.
All Of It.

so...
yes, I'm glad...I didn't go there, while the Men were working.

There are...no words.









Tuesday, August 4, 2020

Iowa City Estate Sale....Snippet. More...to come.










So...here are few images, of the Iowa City Estate Sale.
{August 13-16}
There's More...Coming.
; )



Monday, August 3, 2020

Alice's Theme - Danny Elfman (Lyrics, HD)

'Of Cabbages and Kings'...


Oh...my.
What a Day.
I'm writing tonight, because tomorrow will start early...
I'll be in Iowa City, working on the Estate Sale.
I've lost a week, holding down the Fort, or...'Tara', as my Pal, Steph...referred to our 'Home', today.
: )

Seems, I'm always pushing through the 'Looking Glass'.
 today...was no different.
This 'World'...we exist in, these days...truly, gets 'Curiouser. and Curiouser'.
oh my.
Between meeting with Cleaning Services, {Great Gal, came out....
today, to give us an estimate... : ) I'm very hopeful....with them. : ) }
 Then arguing with our Insurance Adjuster....and, having long conversations, with Fairfax's Mayor, and...several Workers, well....
It's been a Push, Through The Looking Glass, to say the least.
oh my.
: )

 Ran across this image, from a couple of years ago...
I was driving back and forth from Des Moines, daily....while doing an Event, there.
{Junk Jubilee}
It was grueling.
Spending nearly four hours a day, driving...and, working like crazy, at the Show.
On one of the drives, Home...
I was enamored with an Amazing....Semi.
It was Beautiful.
<3
The Driver, must've been as enamored with Jethro, as I was, his Truck.
; )
We had Great Fun...zippin' through the Interstate Traffic, most of the way from Des Moines, to the Amana Exit.
: )
Sometimes...all it takes, is One Person, to make a long day....into a short one.
: )
They help ya Push...on through.
: )
Forget, all of the obstacles...of the day....and, 
Run...with ya,
Full Throttle, Wide Open.
<3.


Went to the Rabbit Hole, today....to gather supplies.
I'm doing repair work, at the House....
Spotted a little frog, perched on one of the totes, in the Greenhouse.
<3
 Tried to put him outside, but...he didn't want to leave.
He must've jumped 5 feet, out of my hands.
: )
There's plenty to eat, there...and, water... so, I figured, he might as well...make himself at Home.
<3
I'd had enough arguments, and...frustration...for the day, 
The Frog, could simply...have his way.
<3

I'm weary...tonight.
oh...my.
Mental stress, can be far more exhausting, than physical, as we all...know.

Love...Johnny Depp.
Above, is one of my favorite quotes, of his.
<3
It's so....true.
Hope Everyone, has a Beautiful Tuesday.
Hopefully...
I'll have more images, of the Iowa City Estate Sale, tomorrow Evening.

Love, to Ya...
Barb C.


Johnny Cash- Get Rhythm (Official-Unofficial) Music Video

Monday.... a Brand New Start. oh...my.


Got up up early, to face the day.
It's gonna be a full one, interesting one, I'll bet, too.
; )
Meeting with an Insurance Adjuster, and another clean up...Dude.
I went to the basement, yesterday....
it's so bad.
: (
The IDOT, still hasn't fixed our drain, to the ditch.
It's been a week.
My fear, is that we'll get it all cleaned, and....it could happen all over again, with that drain unable to drain.
I knocked some of the cobwebs down, from the basement ceiling, yesterday...
moved fans, and dehumidifiers to different areas.
Since my tumble, down those stairs, I don't go to the basement, often.
I don't remember the fall, but...those rooms hold many memories,
 tho..they are fond, it's still..painful to visit them, 
especially...now, that so many are destroyed

Daughter, Liz....brought a huge bag of Garden Veggies, the other day.
<3
I, do...so Love Fresh Veggies.
<3
Cooked some of them up...yesterday.
<3
I don't eat much meat, if  any....
Folks ask me, what do I eat...if not meat.
Everything Else!!
Hahahahaha
I won't go hungry...; )


With the Tequila, the Stogies...hit the Trash, yesterday....too.
It's difficult to sit here and write, without a Stogie.
; )
Bad....Habit.
Nasty...
but, I liked it.
: )
However, it's time....to Grab the Bull by the Horns.
Self medicating...and, leaning on crutches...makes the Job...that much more difficult.
{they've probably saved a few, others....from being wounded, over the last few years. ; )
  If they thought I was a pain in the ass, while subdued by nicotine....
hahahahaha....
: ) 
oh dear...
They're about to meet a different side...of The Mad Hatter. ; ) }

There's a few reasons, I'm kickin' the habits.
I want to be healthy, and as sharp....as I can be.
There's a Battle coming.
I need to be All In.
: )
The other reason, 
{most people won't understand this. Closest Pals, and...Son, Justin....don't.}
The Gypsy Ford, needs a new /rebuilt 7.3 Engine.
I....Adore that Old Truck.
When I talked with Justin, this morning....asked him to call Cody, the Diesel Dr., and tell him...it's time for a 'Heart Transplant'...
Justin rolled his eyes.
: (
{Makes me cry, just thinking about it, did...when I was trying to explain...to Justin, too. : ( : ( : ( }
There's...not much 'joy'....in my life, these days.
Hasn't been, for a long, long....time.
That...Old, beat up....ruff riding, coal rollin'....Ford, makes me happy.
<3
I feel Good...when I climb inside.
: )
That's...rare, for me....on most days.
{I'm not complaining. I know...Everyone, has their Mountains. : ( }
So, I told Justin.... if you can find Something, that makes you Smile, it's worth Keeping, and Fixing.
 I figure...my 'Bad Habit' Dough...is going to pay The Diesel Dr., for The Transplant.
: )
It'll ad up fast.
I quit smoking, several years ago, saved the dough...to buy 'Sally', 
the Mustang Convertible.
<3 
Then...when stress got pretty heavy, a few years later, I started smoking, again.
: (
If I can quit, now....with 'This'...kinda stress, well...I'd say, that's it.
They're Gone.
; )

I saw the below quote, on FB yesterday.
{Pal, Janice...had posted it. : ) }
All I could say, when I read it....

"That's a Fact."

Hahahaha...
; )



Love...to You,
Barb C. 

Sunday, August 2, 2020

Kenny Chesney - You And Tequila ft. Grace Potter (Official Music Video)

Tequila...oh my.

Had such a Great Day...
yesterday.
: ) 
It was a Hot...One, workin' outside.
I quit..around 4.
Went to Casey's...picked up a bag of Ice.
Thought...I'm gonna have an Ice Cold...Margarita.
; )
The Dude, at the Grocery Store...told me about a brand of Tequila, 
that's supposed to be pretty good, a while back.
It is, I sip on it, over ice, now and then.
; )
Last night, I thought I'd try to make a Margarita, like Pal, Jan... introduced me to, in 
Santa Fe, a couple of years ago.
: )
They're different, from the Marg's around here.
Much cleaner.
Not Nearly....as Sweet.
Just....
Lime...a little Orange Liqueur, and...you guessed it, 
'Tequila'...
over Mountains of Ice.
oh my.
oh...my.
; )
So....Refreshing!!
: )
I gotta tell ya, 
One...is One....too many.
One More....is Never Enough.
YIKES!!!
Holy Smokes!
I, don't know......if it was because I hadn't eaten...
or, was a little dehydrated, from working in the heat...
or...
it was that Blue Agave....
{Frickin Succulents.
An Iowa Girl, should always stick to 'Corn Squeezins'.}
; )
Sadly, I don't think I'll be able to sip Tequila....for a bit.
I'm not sure...I can even stand the smell of it.
I'm...not sure, that I can look at a Succulent Plant, for awhile.
oh my. 
{The Tequila Hit The Trash Can...this Morning, 
Outside.
Far...Far...Away. }

The Grocery Dude, was correct, that Tequila..is Good.
Very....Smooth.
; )
Until...it Isn't.
Holy Smokes!
Wow!!
I've never been one to do anything....in 'Moderation'.
: )
Like the song goes...
"It's always your Favorite Sins, that'll Do Ya...In!!"
; )
It's gonna be a Long....Long, Day.
{ As Ron White would say...."Shooooo.... Buddy" 
Wow!!}

Love to Ya...
Barb C.




Saturday, August 1, 2020

Darryl Worley - I Miss My Friend (Official Video)

Some Things...Never, Ever...Change.


Snapped the above image, of the 'Confessions'...Plaque, today.
<3
Spent lot's of Time, down the rabbit hole, today.
<3 <3 <3 
Spent a Lot of Time...Cuttin' Brush, so I could Find My Way...down the rabbit hole.
<3
oh...my.
<3
: )
The IDOT, wasn't Wrongfully Butchering...today.
It was Good, Workin'...Outside, Enjoying...what I Miss...So.
The Rabbit Hole.
<3
My Sanctuary.
<3

Love, to You.
Barb C.


Alison Krauss - When You Say Nothing At All

Be Kind....to Yourself, and.... Others.




Sat down with yesterday's cold...sittin' in the pot,
 coffee...
 this morning....
pondering about what I would write this morning.
My mind's been racing, since about 4 a.m.
So much to do, so many obligations....
so much...uncertainty, so much...'hurry up, and wait'.
In other words...my life seems completely....
 Out of Control.
'Normal'.
: )

Drain tile hasn't been fixed, so..basement, is getting uglier by the day.
Insurance Adjuster is coming on Monday, along with another company to write an estimate.
Pal, Bill...and I, are heading to Iowa City, today...to work on that Estate.
{Sale will be August 13-16 more images, and details, soon. }

As I was looking through images, this morning, ran across the one above, of the entrance door, to the rabbit hole.
Pal, Maurina...had brought the bronze 'Confessions' plaque to one of the Sale's here, Many...Years ago.
It's the real deal, and when I saw it, had to buy it, because....that little 'Rabbit Hole', has heard Many....
'Confessions', over the years.
<3 <3 <3 
I nailed the little plaque to the door, as a permanent Invitation.

There's something...about that Rabbit Hole, that seems to invite people....to open up, and...share their 'Stories'.
It, embraces...comforts, somehow....in it's Grand...Chaos.
It...seems to 'Listen', and....never... 'Judge'.
<3 <3 <3 
I, remember....when I saw the little plaque, I thought, '5 to 7 Daily'...
didn't seem quite right.
That's a pretty small window, for all of the 'Confessions' that need to be heard.

One, late morning....shortly after I'd placed the little plaque on the door, a group of women stopped by.
I was sitting outside, on the ground, painting a sign, that read, 
"Be Kind to Yourself, and Others"
It was during a time, when everyone who had been stopping by, seemed to be juggling so much, trying to do Everything....for Everyone, except themselves.
I told one after the other....
to
 Be Kind, to Themselves...and, Others....
'In That Order'.
: )
That's Not...as Simple, as it sounds.
; )
but,
It's Absolutely Necessary.
It's something, that most people have to keep reminding themselves to do, often.
It's not....easy.

The women climbed out of their Fancy...Fancy....Car, and headed to the rabbit hole.
I welcomed them, then...told them to go inside, and see what they could find.
: )
Told them, if they needed anything, or had any questions, to come get me, I'd be right there, painting.
; )
The women, made their rounds, each had found a little something, we got settled up, then...
the last woman, who had been inside the longest, came walking up to me...
and tried to shove two, dollar bills, in my hand, 
but...I couldn't see what she was holding, and paying for.
I asked her, what she was buying....and she said...
"This, I want it for my friend, I think she'd love it. It doesn't have a price, but I thought two dollars would be fair."
I, looked at what she had in her hand....and, about fell over.
It was the 'Confessions' Plaque.
uh oh.
I knew, she had to have RIPPED it off of the door, with force.
Holy...Smokes.
: (
I said... "Ma'am, that's not for sale."
She replied...
"Yes it is. My Friend would Want This! Here...Take the Money."
oh my.
; )
Instead....I Took the Plaque, from her clenched hand, walked away, grabbed my Drill....
and Immediately Screwed It to The Door.
: )
{Kinda reminds me, now...of the IDOT's, and Fairfax's....'manners'.}

It's all about 'The Journey'....
oh my.
; )

I'm heading to the Rabbit Hole, this morning.
{Not Open...}
As much...as it hurts, to go outside, I...Really Need, to be Kind...to myself, today.
Once I get inside, and close the door, behind me....I, know....I'll be 'Home'.
Comforted.
I've Got To Leave, 'Outside'...
'Outside'.
The Rabbit Hole, can listen to my 'Confessions'...today.
<3 <3 <3 

The Rabbit Hole, looks... about like how I feel, these days.
It always...does.
Good,...bad, and...ugly.
That's ok. 
: )
<3
It Is...what It Is.
<3 <3 <3 

Love, to You.
Barb C.










Friday, July 31, 2020

Till I Gain Control Again Alison Krauss

Grateful.

This week....
oh, my.
It'll be an entire Chapter, in my Book, someday.
Talk about a roller coaster ride.
oh...my.
When our basement flooded, because of the IDOT's negligence...
it about...did me in.
Our faucet, in the kitchen...also quit, because when the well ran out of water, pumping into the basement, it sucked up loads of sediment, I....shouldn't have turned the kitchen faucet on, first...
the lines are smaller.
I, was so rattled, with Justin standing there...by the basement, wondering if the pump was working....
I didn't think to turn the bathtub faucet on first, and let it run.
So...
Had no water in the kitchen.
I..tapped on the old, kitchen faucet....to loosen some of that sediment...
got the water trickling...but....then it wouldn't shut off.
: (
Oh My Lord!!
Hahahahaha.
: (

Called Pal, Bill...he gave me the name of a Great Plumber, and he came out, that Evening.
Super...Nice Man!
He was here until nearly 11 p.m., on Tuesday.
Bless His Heart!
I, was So Happy to have a New Faucet, and...Sprayer!
Haven't had a sprayer, for 25 years.
John...didn't like to do plumbing.
; )
John could do, most anything..he set his mind to, but...plumbing, could get him riled, in short order.
I've seen Many Pipe Wrenches Sail Through The Air, over the years.
<3 

Wednesday morning, I was Thrilled to wake up to the New Faucet!
I, wasn't thrilled...when I turned the water on, and....had no water pressure.
: (
Called Marty, the Awesome Plumber...he came back out, tore everything back apart...
the faucet, broke...in the process...and, Marty...was sounding a lot like John, before he left.
Hahahahaha!
He couldn't fix it, Wednesday night, it was getting very late, again.
So...
Marty, was back....Thursday morning.
Bless His Heart.
It's working great, now.
: )

I reached out to our Insurance Company, on Monday.
The Adjuster, whom I've never met, called me on Tuesday.
He said, after we'd visited for a bit...
"There may be a problem, I see the Policy has John's name on it, and not yours. 
Why, aren't you named on the policy?"
I told him, I am....he'll have to talk with our Awesome Agent, Lisa..
She'll straighten it out.
{She did. <3 }

I, went on....and told him, that John...had passed away, 6 years ago.
: (
His name...is Still, on our printed checks, his coat....is still hanging, exactly where he put it, his boots, are where he left them....
even...the little container, that he brought in, every night, to fill in the mornings, with cat food, for the outside cats, is right where he last, set it....by the door.
Our old...Clocks, haven't been wound, since John left.
I, can't bare to turn the keys, knowing...it was John's hand, that had last wound them.

It took me two years, to go into the room, where John, and I...spent most of our time...together.
Have you, any idea...what it's like....going into that basement, and seeing our 'Memories'....destroyed?
Because...a Drain, couldn't drain.
A Drain....I've been Constantly...Reminding The IDOT of, both...in writing, and verbally.
Long, Long...before they broke ground.
Watching them..take so many trees, John...planted, and Loved....so.
For Nothing.
Worse, than Nothing.
For a Trail, that was agreed...wouldn't be.

I've had a lot of time, here...at home, to process.
There's something...that's been eating at me...for several months, that's....had me so worried.
I've written about, talked about it, with Folks.
It's had me more concerned...than all of the tragic loss.
I've been afraid, I wouldn't be able to forgive the people who are behind, and involved with all of this wrongfulness.
I, could feel myself, slipping into a very dark place, concerning them all.
: ( : ( : ( 

On Tuesday Evening, while writing the post, about Staebler, and AJ, from the IDOT,
who wouldn't return my texts...pleading for help.
: ( : ( : ( 
I wrote...to them, personally...and...here, 
"If They....would've been in Trouble, and I saw them...struggling, there's no way, I'd ever turn my back on them. Ever. No matter what our 'history'...is."

I went to bed, that night....then, so sad, and broken...
about 3 a.m., I woke up....and thought, My God....
I, haven't lost my Soul.
I realized, after putting That, in writing....
I, Hadn't Lost....my Soul.
<3 <3 <3 
Have you Any Idea...what That Meant to me???

God, through a pretty ugly situation....showed me, I'm not...as unforgiving, 
as I thought, was So Afraid...I was becoming.
<3 <3 <3 
That's the GOOD News.
The Best...News.
<3 <3 <3 

My Dear Friend, Skip...called me yesterday.
I've known him, since I was a Teen.
: )
He knew my Dad, and adored him.
Skip, has loved me, all of these years.
I, love him...too, just not they way...he's always hoped.
We've remained close Friends, for over 40 years.
He calls, a couple times a month, to check up on me.
Always...has.
Bless His Heart.
<3
As we visited, about this, yesterday.... he said...
"Barbie...
{ Skip, is one of  Few... People, I won't throttle, for calling me 'Barbie'. ; ) }
I know your heart. You don't have a heart, that couldn't forgive."
I told him...
I've never in my life, been this close...to that kind of darkness,
it Scared me to Death.
 Through this tragedy, God....Gave me, the Best Gift.
I'm So...
Grateful.

Throughout, all of This, I've been Truly Blessed...by having some Amazing People, close to me.
Some, I've known for years...
Some, for moments.
They, are Angels, really. 

Love, to ya....
Barb C. 

"



Thursday, July 30, 2020

Welcome To My World by Jim Reeves

Can't Quite....


Yeah, I can't quite put EVERYTHING...into words, yet.
I wouldn't 'Wish'...This World, on...anyone.
There's some Really....Good News, and....some not so good news, I'll be writing about, when I can put my thoughts together, watching the Mold...Grow, in our Basement.
; )
I'm running on about 4 hours of sleep, with...loads, of Stress, and....Heartbreak.
Can't clean anything...until the IDOT Repairs the Tile, that's responsible for the Flooding.
It could All...Happen Again, with no way....to drain.




I was Blessed, by a little Morning Glory, at the door of the overgrown rabbit hole, today.
<3
Normally....
There'd be...Tons of Morning Glory, that I always plant, in the Spring.
Not...this year.
There's A Lot...
that, isn't...
wasn't..
This Year.
Thanks to the IDOT, and Fairfax City Hall.
That Wrongful Trail, sure means a Lot...to Them.
: (

As I stood, at the Door, of my Beloved...'Rabbit Hole',
'Sanctuary'...this afternoon, well...
I, gotta tell ya, it was difficult.
I, don't go close to it, anymore...unless I absolutely... have to.
I, knew...I needed to capture more images, of the Wrongful...Carnage.
: (
The Rabbit Hole, will be the next, to Flood, because of the IDOT's Poorly Designed Stallman Drive Intersection.
I, tried...and tried, to warn the Boys, at District 6.
{Newman, Staebler...and, AJ. }
It all...fell, on Deaf Ears.
: (
Bless Their Hearts.
<3



Where's the Water Gonna Go...
Boys?
Remember, I told ya'll...last Fall, "Water doesn't run Uphill."
With no Ditch, and...Everything Flat, for Fairfax's Wrongful...Suicide Trail, District 6, has Provided for Them...
guess...
The Rabbit Hole, will Take The Brunt.
For the Record, the Rabbit Hole, has Never Flooded.
Ever.
Until..Now.
Let's See...how This Poorly Designed Mess, works out....for us.
{ Bless Their Hearts }

You can see...the Poor, old...broken...Stallman Drive sign.
That's where we had a ditch, to take in the water...that kept the rabbit hole from flooding.
Now, we'll See, who has access to That Land, Who Profits, from IDOT's District 6's... Rushed...
Poorly Designed Intersection.
and...'What' It's 'Use'...is Now going to be for.
; )
{IDOT District 6, and..Fairfax.}
oh...my. 
I Begged Them Both, to Rethink....This Poor Design.
Hahahahaha....
Silly Boys.
; )
That Cross, being Rolled Over....
again, and again,
 on Tuesday....Marking our Drain Tile, 
AJ, and Staebler,
 from District 6, not responding to my Pleas, for Help...
as our Memories, were Drowning...
 in our Basement,
 because...of District 6,
and...their Wrongful, Trail...for Fairfax,
spoke Volumes.
; )
Stay Tuned...for The Rest of The Story.
; )

Love...to Ya.
Barb C.