Bohemian Rhapsody...Nutcracker Suite... hmmmm...

 

Oh...my...

As I sat...in front of the computer...and

on my cell phone...

scouring the house phone's caller ID...

for the better half...of the day...

trying to locate...the Girls...who may...have bought a little..

pine drawer...

{thanks...to Everyone...helping!}

It hit me...

{I know...this is Crazy...how my mind...works...}

I wonder...how...my old...Dr. from Years back...is doing...?

{what takes...me to these 'Back Roads'...I'll Never Know..}

I have thought of her...so....many times... over the years...

She was my Dr. from the time I was 18, 'til...just after I had Justin...{about 5 years}

She sat with me...the entire time...I was in Labor...

and...conducted...the surgery...

{she was My Rock!}

She...moved away...to work in a Walk in Clinic...at a College's...Dr.'s Office...

in Wisconsin...

I was Heartbroken...

She was such...a Dear Soul...

I considered her...one of my Closest Friends...

 tho...we only knew each other...as Dr., and Patient...

I Trusted her...and...knew...She always had..my best interest...at Heart...

I Knew...She Cared...

She is only a few years older than me...

and...once...I remember looking at her...as she was writing a prescription...for me...

{I was...maybe...19.....}

thinking...and...

hearing my brother's...words....he had...once...said to me...

"You Know...you Really...could have been 'Something'...."

then...laughing...under his breath...

"but...look at you"....

I thought...yep...I could have been...her...

If...I would have applied...myself...been...more...structured...

Not...have been...such a 'Free Spirit'...

Was...I jealous...of her?...

No Way...

I Admired Her...

Wish...I could have been all of those things...she was...

{brings back...Harry Chapin... "Taxi"...}

Knowing...fully well...even...then... I could be...none..of those things...

and...wouldn't change...who I am...

not...even...then....

Throughout the years... I have made friends...that are...Doctors...

and...have shared... my admiration...of Dr. Eilers

Asked them...if they knew her...

They didn't...

Every time...I think of her...I smile...

I remember...when she told me...I was Pregnant...with Justin...

oh my...

I said...

"I'm Not Ready..to have Children...!!! I didn't Plan on This...!!!!"

She smiled...

held my hand...

and said....

"Barb...if everyone waited...'til they were 'Ready'...there wouldn't be very many Children"....

When I 'Googled'...her name....

I found...her obituary...

I lost my breath...

I truly...did...

She passed away...last year...

She was 55.....

I wrote...a note...to the Family...sharing my Wonderful Memories....of her...

and...what a Blessing...she was...in my life...

With...Prayers...to Her...and her Loved Ones...

After...I reread...my note...to edit...

I saw...today's...date...

December, 20th....

It was...28 years ago...Today...to that very moment...

She...was holding my Hand...

Assuring me...I was going to be...fine....

In the Emergency Room....

I had been in a Horrible...car accident...

She never left my side...

I went back...and added that...to my letter...

I poured a glass of wine...

lit...a stogie...

 went...and sat by The Tree...

put my feet up...

Listened...to Karen Carpenter...

her...amazing...voice...

Singing...such Beautiful Christmas Songs....

but...honestly...

I didn't know...if I should be playing...

"Queen"...'Bohemian Rhapsody'...

or...'The Nutcracker Suite'....

oh...my....

oh...my....

Love...to ya...

Barb C.

{Maybe..."Taxi"... would have been the best...song...of choice...

and...for my brother...

tho...I was young...at the time....

 I could have dropped him... like a rock...and set him...back...in his shoes...

verbally....

{he's 17 years older than me...}

But...out of respect...for my Mother... and...honestly...respect... for him...my older brother...

I said...little...

but...

Enough...

Sometimes...

It...simply... Is...What It Is...

and all one can say is...

"Bless Their Heart".......}
{when I saw Dr. Eilers Obituary....turns out....she and my brother...
 shared the same...Birthdate
November, 29th...}