Monday, December 10, 2012

Heart...In...Hand....

Heart in Hand....
I Love..this Old Heart Choker..
It has a Thick...Velvet Ribbon....that feels so Good...around my neck...
I wore this...Saturday....
I wear 'Hearts'... when I need a little...'Strength'....
I always...feel...Dad..is a little closer... when I have one...on...or am near one... : )
Heart...in Hand...
Yes...
Our Hearts...
are...
in our
 Hands...
I walked in...on Mom's Dr.
in her room....
Sunday Morn......
He...looked a bit... Surprised...
when our eyes met...
He said....he didn't know...I was going to be there... : )
{he...was Smiling...when he said it...}
I walked up to him...and...
Embraced him...
Thanked Him...
and told him...
I Loved Him...
I Know...he is...doing his Best...
as...am I...
I told him...
As we visited....
 Saturday...
I had noticed his shoes...
He is a Working Man...
His shoes...have many....many...miles on them...
I Respect..that...
I told him...
I...am often...Bare Footed.....myself....
I Know...The ...'Journey'....
The Earth....
{He must...have thought...I was Crazy...}
But...I Gotta Tell ya..
I can see...much... by the 'Wear'....in Folks...
{yes...'The Journey'....}
In...their Eyes...Hands...and...Feet....
This...Young Man...is going to be...
an Amazing...Dr.
He's... not afraid...of Work...
Miles....
I explained to him....
I Know...he is...trying...to Balance...
Everything...
but...
Life...
is a fragile...thing....
First...and Foremost....
in my Heart...
are...
People...
Living....Beings....
Respect...of Life....
We also visited...about...technical...points...
{I can...sort of... hold...my own... on that level...a bit...}
somehow...
Must be Little Angels...on my Shoulder.. whispering...in my ear...translating......for me.... Mom...always...seems so surprised...that...I can talk to these Folks...
then...can explain.....it all...to her...
Or... Maybe... it was...
working...on Old Cars...and Trucks...I've had to...Keep...'Alive'... over my 'Journey'...: )
The Heart and Lungs...are Much...Like a Motor...
The Oil Pump...{The Heart...of a Car..}
Carburetor... {Fuel Injector...on newer...models...}... Radiator...and Exhaust...}
I understand...
The Levels...
The Heart Rate...
Blood Pressure...
Blood Levels...
White Counts...
Oxygen Levels...
 and...much...of the 'Lingo'...
How...the Heart...
'Works'...
The Valves....
Pumping...from the Lower...to the Upper...
the ins...and outs...
It...was a Good....informative...visit...
We...came to a Meeting...of the Minds...
on...many levels...
He...said...he'd like to keep Mom...another..day...
{wanted to change...some meds... and see how she was going to respond...}
I Hugged him...Again...
{The Poor Man... was by now... probably...Incensed... in Patchouli...}
oh dear...
Everyday...Mom...is in The Hospital...makes her Recovery Chances...
Better...
Mom...and I...were also...Blessed...
by Visits... from Susie...and Sallie...
Her Nieces...
{Mom's Late, Brother...Frank's Girls......
He was...a Wonderful...Man...}
They...are Amazing...Women...
{They...Look...Exactly...the same...as when...we were kids...Beautiful...
how...can That...be?}
We sat...and visited...for hours...
We hadn't seen each other...in Years...
They Both....have had their Share...of 'Life'...it seems...
But...we all Laughed...and...so enjoyed Mom's Stories...and...
so Much...Family History...she shared with the Girls...
{Mom's Memory...is Incredible!}
Mom Sang...Songs...for them...Czech Songs....and ones...they remember Their Dad...singing with Mom...and Helen...
Sallie...and I are the closest...in age...she's a few years older...
She said...how much...she enjoyed...coming out...Horseback Riding..with me...when we were Kids.... Spoke...of White Cloud...
and How Much...She Loved Riding Her...: )
{My Girl... The Most...Amazing Horse...}
Then...she said..
"You always...seemed so much older...than you were...always...so...serious..."
then...Susie... said something...
under her breath...
I didn't catch...and asked her...to repeat...
she said....
"It's because...you had to be..."....
You know... I always...knew... I had to be...
'Older'...
With...the 'Freedom'...I was given...
as a very young girl...
came... Mountains...of...
Responsibility...
The Caregiver...
for Family...
and...Critters....
and...it never bothered me...
but...I didn't think...anyone else...knew that....
That...was something... I processed...the rest of the Evening....
oh...my...
Love...to ya..
Barb C.
{Mom is going home...today...
 Thanks...for The Wonderful E-mails....Kind...Thoughts and Prayers....
Love...to You...All...
Barb C.}
  
Serious...
serious...
yep....
I reckon...so.....

2 comments:

sue in mexico mo said...

Best wishes for your mother. I have been in your shoes. It isn't easy. . .

simplyiowa said...

Same..to You...Sue...
As we Both Know....Things Worth Fighting For...usually...don't come...easy...
Love to ya..
Barb C.