Friday, June 5, 2020
Prayers for Mary.
Yesterday, was an extremely difficult day, on so many levels.
Aunt Florence's Funeral...left me extremely weak in the knees.
My Cousins, are Such...Beautiful People.
Florence, had to have been so incredibly Proud, of them.
<3 <3 <3
Not long, after I returned home...
I noticed I'd missed a message, from Cindy Nutt. {Dear Friend <3 }
Called her back, and...she informed me, Tom, Mary's Beloved Husband, had posted some very sad news, concerning....Mary.
Mary Sellon, has been such a Dear...Dear, Friend, over decades.
I've been keeping tabs, with Mary, and Tom...
over the last several weeks.
Mary's cancer had returned....a few months ago, and...she was ready to face yet...another Battle.
Mary, is a Fighter.
So Full...of Life.
She's been Tested, all too often, over the last decade.
Mary, Loves....Antiques, and has a Great Store, at her Home, near Janesville, Iowa.
'Dark Horse Antiques'.
<3
Mary, and...I, also have a Mutual Love, of Horses.
She and I...have traveled Many, Many...of the same roads.
I, Love her...Dearly.
Her Laugh, is her Signature.
Unmistakable... 'Mary.'
She Laughs, Often.
<3 <3 <3
I'd do anything...for Mary, and Tom.
They, are Amazing Folks.
It Breaks my Heart, they are going through this.
I visited with Tom, for a long, long...time, last night.
Hospice is coming in, now....and, Mary...is sleeping, most of the time.
This has all come on, so fast.
Last time I spoke with Mary, she was ready to Give cancer Hell...
again.
Then, things went all...wrong.
I, Pray....for Mary, and...Tom.
I'm asking...You, to, as well.
I'm very concerned...about them Both.
Mary...
in her own, Hatter Hat, Daughter, Liz...created.
<3
She Wears It...Well. <3 <3 <3
Mary,..as Tom, described...
"Has been the love of my life, and best friend for 51 years, and my wife...for 48 and a half."
I'm so...so, Sorry, for them.
Tom.
: )
<3 <3 <3
Peg, and Mary...
{Cindy, and Tom Nutt, and Liz...in the background.}
This was at John's Memorial, July 19, 2014.
<3
What a Blessing, They All...Are, and were.
We lost Tom Nutt, this year...and, Our Peg, 4 years ago.
April 7, 2016
: ( : ( : (
Today...is Peg's Birthday.
Mary, and Peg...Adored each other. <3
My Heart, is so heavy...
but, I won't lose Hope.
I've seen Mary, Win Many Battles, when few...thought she could.
Thank You, for Your Prayers.
<3 <3 <3
Barb C.
Wednesday, June 3, 2020
Love...
This is such a Beautiful...
Quote.
It was posted on one of my Favorite FB Pages.
Melodious Heart's Encouragement.
<3
It was a very long day, just got Home.
Traveled, what seemed to be a Million Miles, then...
attended my Favorite Aunt's...Visitation.
Florence, will be Greatly...Missed.
As I stood there, next to her...
watching the slide show....of her 'Life',
I...broke down, and...wept.
I swore...before I went, I...wouldn't do that.
This World, Needs....More People, like Florence Dvorak.
<3 <3 <3
We Can't Afford to Lose...Them.
not now.
: (
Her Kids, told me...Florence's Sister, Passed...yesterday.
Two Days...apart.
I, told them...
Florence, saw How Beautiful...Heaven Is,
and came back, to bring her Sister, with.
<3 <3 <3
I'm sure...of that.
That's...how Florence was.
<3 <3 <3
Love...
and, Prayers...to All.
Barb C.
{Florence's Funeral..is in the morning. Pray...for Us. <3
I, Pray...I can keep my legs, underneath me.}
anyway.
Slipped this old dress on, today...
Haven't worn it, for a long time.
Have a million things to do..
Some...aren't very pleasant.
My Aunt Florence's Visitation, is this Evening.
before...that, we're meeting a client, about another possible Estate Sale.
Daughter, Liz's Birthday...was yesterday, I need to go see her.
<3
Been dealing with the 'trail'...mess, this morning.
oh my.
oh...my.
We are working on the S.E. Living Estate Sale, today...as well.
{Dates for that, will be June 18-21
Pictures, and details, coming soon.}
We'll be working on a Big...Estate Sale, over the next few weeks, as well...
that has Tons....of Stuff.
Loads of Tools, and Household.
That is scheduled for mid, to late July.
Seems, everything is 'Hurry Up', and 'Wait'....these days.
I'm either standing completely Still...
or, Flying a Million Miles an Hour.
As I was thinking about the ways of the world....today,
I thought about Mother Teresa.
What a Blessing She Was.
<3
Still Is.
Always will be.
<3
The Tune...above, is much...what She...said, was, and Is.
<3
These days....people, could get so bitter, and angry, with all of the injustice.
To tell the truth, I...fight those feelings, a lot.
I know...where Those...'feelings' come from.
: (
It's very difficult, to fight them off, some days.
I, must.
We...must.
Patience...has never been one of my virtues.
I want Everything Fixed, and Right...
'Fair'...
Now.
That's not how we learn, and grow.
That's not...how we will 'Feed our Children'.
I remember reading in my Streams in the Desert, years ago...
that "Grain must be Ground to Make Bread"
{Isaiah 28:28}
today...
I turned to John 13:7
"You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
During these sometimes, very dark, and difficult times,
speaking...for myself,
I need to cling all the Tighter,
to...
Faith...
Trust...
Patience...
but...
Most of All.
'Love'.
Love to You.
Prayers...for All, who are Struggling, and Suffering, today.
Barb C.
Tuesday, June 2, 2020
We Live...in The Twilight Zone.
I wrote an email to Josey Wales, this morning..
{my Lawyer. }
Concerning the trail, 'that isn't', yet...it is.
I kept writing, and writing...
then deleting....and deleting.
Told him, so.
After reading, what I'd written, describing this 'situation', solely for Fairfax's trail...
told him...I had to spare him, from my thoughts.
The words were far too painful to read, myself.
I, wouldn't subject him, to them.
They weren't curse words, they were heartbreaking...words.
It seems, so many...are turned upside down, these days.
I don't watch the Twilight Zone.
When John was here...we'd watch it, occasionally, but...it always left me so unsettled.
The way this world is turning, it feels like we're living in an episode, that never stops.
Stores were closing their doors in Cedar Rapids on Sunday...because of looting threats.
I can't watch the news...but, I...can't not, watch some of it, either.
Can't look outside the window, because of the devastation.
A dear Friend, stopped by, the other day, and...said she was sick to her stomach for hours, after she left here, after witnessing this, first hand.
: (
When I cut my hand, last night...picking up a broken glass, Peanut had knocked over...
I, didn't even feel it.
I'm so...numb.
So...numb.
Work, is my salvation.
Faith...is what carries me.
I...know, I Know....
All of This, is happening for a reason.
I...Know...God, has a Plan.
I get so weary...
Seeing So Many...suffering, and...not have the ability to help them, is a suffering, all it's own.
I just received a call from my Pal, Chicago Ray.
He's been such a Gift, in my life.
He has so much Faith, and...always encourages me to 'Hold On'.
"Don't Give Up."
: )
Giving Up...has never been an option, in my heart and soul.
Trying to figure out...how to keep going, is the biggest issue.
I, just thought of how a Mule behaves...when he's asked to jump a fence, that's taller than he is.
It's amazing to watch.
A Mule, will walk up to a tall fence, {Not run...like a Horse.}
He'll stand with his chest right next to that fence, and...kind of weave...back and forth.
Sizing up the Hurdle.
Then...with one Big Jump, goes over the top.
I'm still 'weaving', at the Fence.
Many...of us, are.
Like Chicago Ray, says...
we can't give up.
Even Mules...get weary, tho.
Love...to You.
Barb C.
Monday, June 1, 2020
But...Wait! There's MORE!!!
Hahahaha!!
oh my.
A Friend, posted the Guy, from many years ago, that did the Infomercials, who...
Just...when you thought he gave the Best Deal...Ever....
would go on, to say...
"But...Wait! There's More!!"
{John used to say it, just before the T.V. Salesman said it.
: )
'But...Wait, There's More!' : ) }
hahahaha.....
; )
The post said...
"'Motto' for 2020!"
oh my...
2020, just keeps Throwin' More...on The 'Deal'.
I think we're All....Feeling That Way, these days.
One Wave...After Another!
Oh My!
So Many...are Struggling, and...Hurting.
: (
Saturday Evening, I picked up a few groceries...
and another new Toy, for Peanut.
It had been a Long Day.
The IDOT was working overtime outside.
It's nearly impossible, for me to go outside, while they are working.
It's a War Zone, on so many levels.
Watching them, day after day...
destroy, and do things, we've agreed to in writing, wouldn't be happening,
that is,
makes me physically ill.
: (
A few minutes, after I gave Peanut, her Brand New Squeaker Toy....
I looked downstairs, and saw the Carnage.
She's annihilated that Toy.
; )
I, thought to myself...
'Peanut is as Frustrated with her New Toy, as I am...with the City, and IDOT.
: )
except...
I've been Chewing on Their Bullshit, for around 4 years. '
Peanut sat outside the door, as I cleaned up the Carnage.
No...I didn't scold her.
<3
I, Understand...Her.
<3 <3 <3
Trapped.
These Guys, have been very kind, really.
{They...aren't the IDOT, just Contractors}
They've been 'Coached'...tho.
: (
The Truth...is so difficult to get from anyone, these days.
Pictures speak for themselves.
Fairfax's Walking Trail.
On the Bridge, where our Settlement Agreement, that was recorded
January, 2019, stated it Would Not Be.
oh my.
Trail, and our Home...to the right.
This...is where the Living Estate Sale, will be...
in a couple of weeks.
So....Peaceful.
So...
Beautiful.
I'm looking forward to working there.
Escape the wrongdoings, and...'Hell'.
: (
I'll, hopefully...have images of some of the things there, this Evening.
I, was informed yesterday....my Favorite Aunt, Florence...passed away, yesterday, in the early morning.
I am still in Shock.
: (
Somehow...I thought she'd be here...forever.
: (
She was my Mom's Brother, Frankie's Wife.
I admired her, so.
Her life, I know...now, and, after I grew up...was Difficult, but....she had such Inner Strength, as a child...being around her so much, I...never saw how difficult her life, truly was.
She, seemed to take everything in stride, and always kept her head down...and worked so hard, through everything.
She always made me feel at ease...and, Welcome, in her presence.
Florence was a Farm Woman, and knew so much about Natural Remedies.
She used to hunt Ginseng, Morel Mushrooms, {along with several other species of Mushrooms}sell eggs, always milked a Cow... There were always, Flocks of Geese, Ducks...and Turkeys, roaming around their Farm. Florence always had a huge garden, she, and my Cousins... sold Sweet Corn, and Garden Vegetables, every Summer.
I remember, smelling the wonderful aroma of Dill, when I walked in her Home.
She had bunches of it, tied...and hanging to dry in her kitchen.
She canned, and froze...tons of food, every Summer.
She did much of her own butchering, too.
I...remember sitting, and listening to Florence, and Dad...visit, when I was little.
They, were so much alike.
: )
Hard Working, Down to Earth.
'Simple'
'Good'.
<3 <3 <3
I, just can't believe...she's gone.
: (
My Cousin, told me Florence passed away, suddenly, in the Night.
That's....a Blessing.
Lost, my Sister, Joyce...little over a week ago, now...Florence.
So Much...Hurt, for So Many...
these days.
: ( : ( : (
I'm brokenhearted, for my Family.
I'm brokenhearted...for so Many.
I, can't turn on the news, anymore.
: (
Faith...is the Only...place, I can turn.
I'll try to be like Florence...and, put my head down...
and, keep on working.
Trust...in the Lord, to bring Comfort, to Those...who are suffering so.
Prayers...Prayers, for All...
who are Suffering, and Struggling, so.
May God, Bless Us All.
Love, to You.
Barb C.
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