Estate Sale... in the Works.

We are working on another 'Living Estate Sale'.

The Sale is located on the S.E. side of Cedar Rapids.

Lovely, Lovely....Home, that's on the market.

We haven't set a date, yet...but, am hoping mid June.

I'll have more images, as we get things Set.

; )

Stay Tuned!

Miley Cyrus - Happy Hippie Presents: Miley Cyrus & Melanie Safka - Look ...

look... what They've Done...to my 'Song'.

I sat outside, the rabbit hole, with....Peanut, in the rain...

We watched More Carnage, this afternoon.

The '49 Ford...seemed to take all of the IDOT's Bullshit, Solely...

for

 'Fairfax's Trail', with the IDOT's Blessings, 

{and... 'Grading'}

in 

'Stride'.

oh my.

; )

<3 <3 <3 

This...is All, for a Walking/Bike Trail.

 {and, a Horrible, Turn, on Stallman Drive.}

Fairfax.

oh my.

The IDOT.

Fairfax City Hall.

Bless...Their Hearts.

<3 <3 <3

; ) 

I, sang...the Tune, above...

Loud,

 as me...and Peanut, sat in the rain...

Watchin' Them Destroy. 

: ( : ( : ( 

Hahahaha!

oh my.

Yep. 

It's Perfect.

I, sure hope, those...who survive, Fairfax's Trail...

understand, at what 'Cost',

 that Trail...has Taken.

Millions of dollars, and...Lives. 

oh my.

before one Foot, has stepped on it.

: (

{there's a document...I believe...the IDOT, has, 'overlooked'.

We'll see.

I've put it, in 'Josey Wales'...hands. 

We'll see, what he does with it. ; ) }

<3

Pray for Us.

<3 <3 <3 

Love...to You.

Barb C. 

{I'm so angry, hurt...and, broken....tonight.

I, can't begin, to find 'words'. 

'Betrayal'...

might...be a start. }

{So much... for Taking Things, with a 'Cool Head', and... 'Grace'.}

oh...my.

Alice's Theme - Danny Elfman (Lyrics, HD)

Nothing...is Quite 'What'...it Seems.

Starting on an Estate Sale, this afternoon.

If all works out...

I'll have a few images, this Evening.

 I'm having some issues posting images, from my old laptop, so...

if every now and then...

the blog looks strange, you'll know it wasn't because of the Tequila, 

it's because of the Old...Laptop!

Hahahaha!

I may have to post images, from my phone...

then, go back...

and write, from my computer.

oh my.

; )

Keep checking back, if only pictures are posted.

So much...coming down, with the IDOT, and others, here at Home.

: ( : ( : ( 

oh dear...

oh...

dear.

: (

A Friend, wrote a post...yesterday, or the day before...

and wondered if the 'World' seems to be completely out of 'sync', to anyone else.

Yes...indeed.

Told her, it turned Upside Down, about six and half years ago, for me.

With each passing day, since....

it keeps getting Curiouser, and Curiouser.

It's like Alice must've felt...as she was falling down the rabbit hole.

So many, I believe...are feeling this way, these days.

While visiting, with my Dear Friend, who's struggling so...now, I told her...

"We're All Here, at This Time...Together, for a Purpose.

A Purpose...Only The Lord...Knows."

We're All Here...

Fighting Battles, 'Lessons'...for a Reason.

It's difficult to understand, when you're in the Vortex.

'Silly Silo'.

Another...Dear, Dear...Friend, once told me....

"To Those Who Have Much...

Much, is Expected."

<3 <3 <3 

{'Much'...to me, means what your 'Strengths' are, what You were Blessed with.

I believe the Lord...expects us to Use Them, to Help Others, whatever....they may be. 

We All...Have Them.}

Told my Friend, I think the Lord...is trying to teach me patience, and....

how to face these, what seem to be

 never ending...

 Insane, Provocations...

with a Smile, 

Cool Head,

 and Grace.

I, went on...and told her....

up, until now....

I've Failed Those 'Lessons',

 Miserably.

; )

but...

I'm Trying.

: )

Every day...

I'm Workin' on It.

Every Day...

I'm Challenged.

oh my.

; )

seems...

Many...

 are,

 these days.

One Day....at a Time.

<3 <3 <3 

Love to Each.....and, Everyone.

Keep Those Beautiful...

Powerful...

Wings...

Poundin'.

; )

We'll get through this.

: )

Barb C.

Merle Haggard "Sing Me Back Home"

Alison Krauss - Away Down The River (A Hundred Miles Or More, Live From ...

Moments...

After leaving the Kids, Jethro..and, I...made a quick stop....at my 'Happy Place',
 near Keystone, Iowa. <3 <3 <3 }

Went to visit...little Jack, and the Kids....Friday Evening.

I'd wanted to get there, earlier...

but, a Dear Friend, stopped by, who is going through...so, so...much.

: ( : ( : ( 

I, wanted to hold her...in my arms, so, so...much.

Before this 'virus'....when there were no words, to comfort...

at least...

you could Hold...those who are Hurting, so deeply, in your arms... 

heart, to heart, 

soul...to soul.

: ( : ( : ( 

When she went on her way...I gathered up a couple of old, rusty...

TONKA Trucks, for Jack.

: )

I needed to get fuel...

and, after I thought about it, for a minute, decided....to go on into Town...

get Jack, a 'New' Toy.

 Wasn't sure...he'd truly understand Grandma's...'Gnarly'...ones.

: )

Stopped to get fuel, first...and realized I'd left my debit card, in my other shirt pocket.

I was very low on fuel...so, pre paid....with the last little bit of cash, I had, that would get me to Target, and back...

{I have a Target debit, so thought...instead of turning around, and taking detours back Home...

I'd get cash, for more fuel, and Jack's card...at Target.}

{ZING!! hahahaha...oh my. Nothing comes easy, for an old...Mad Hatter. ; ) }

Did the Birthday shopping, headed to the station, to...stand in line, once again, pre pay, and fill up.

I, thought 10.00 more, should get it close, but not go over.

I paid, went back to Jethro...

the pump wasn't set.

So...I waited a minute, watched the Clerk, she was so busy.

Long Line...waiting.

Finally, I decided to walk back to her.

Stand in line...to tell her there was a problem.

By the time I reached her, someone else, had put the 10.00, in her vehicle...at the wrong pump.

: (

The Girl...who took my fuel, walked up, to purchase something.

The Clerk asked her if she'd just gotten 10.00 of fuel, without paying for it....

the Girl...looked a little surprised, but...said..."Yes."

The Clerk said... "You have to pay her that 10.00, because that was hers."

I, looked at the Girl...I could see her mind, trying to figure out, what had just 'Happened'???

: )

I tossed the Clerk, another 10, and told the Girl...

"Merry Christmas."

: )

oh my....

Got MY FUEL...and, went on...to see little Jack, and....Kids.

<3 <3 <3 

Then, on the way....

two different people, in Chevy trucks, passed me...then slowed up, for no reason.

When I tried to pass...they wanted to Race.

: (

They wouldn't let me around them.

Each, sped up...so, each time...

 I backed off...and continued following.

I was in no mood for 'Racing'.

The way my luck has been running, I was sure...as soon as

 I BLEW THEIR FRICKIN' DOORS OFF...

There'd be a Deputy Sheriff, just ahead.

; )

{I...was right, Both...times. ; ) }

oh my.

<3

When I got to the Kids' house...

I, was pretty fried.

but...

Jack was So Excited...to See what I had in the sack.

: )

He loved the little Matchbox Monster Trucks. : )

His Mama, couldn't unwrap them quick enough!

We stood outside, and visited....for awhile.

Then, before I left...I thought I'd grab the old, Rusty...

TONKA Truck, and Digger....from the Trunk, and put them in his outside Toy Box. 

Jack, was just walking out of the house...

then...

Stopped in His Tracks...

and...

said...

"WHAT????????!!!"

when he saw what I was carrying.

Hahahahahaha!!

Those new Toys, were Forgotten, and...out to the Garden he went...

Lugging...the Old...Dump Truck, and.....started Haulin' Dirt!!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

That, made my Day.

<3 <3 <3

One of the Kids' Farmer Friends, who has done so much...for the Kids, since they moved there...

stopped by.

We were talking about my 'Happy Place', not far from there...

where I lived, as a little girl.

{Where I drive back to...every Easter Sunday.}

He said...looking very puzzled...

"I remember that place. I used to drive school bus. 

I...remember...picking up a little girl there, years ago. 

That house has been gone, for years."

Then...he said...

"I just got Chills."

yep.

; )

He said..."There were several buildings there."

Yep, I said...

A Big Barn, and a Big...Chicken House, there was a wire Corn Crib, out back.

Sometimes,

 when I go there, sit....in the drive, gazing at what used to be...

still...

is, in my mind...

if I'm lucky...

I can hear the old screen door slam, on the porch...

of that Grand, Old...Farm House.."

: ) : ) : )

As we parted, I Thanked...him, over, and over...

for watching out, over the Kids.

{They Adore Him, and...several Others, who've taken a Shine to Them. <3 }

Told him, he probably...has no idea, how Grateful...I am.

I, just...haven't been there for them... since John passed away.

There's been too much Loss, over the last 6 years.

Too many Battles.

When Others...step up, and step in...and help Carry, during these troubled times, I...can't begin, to say how Grateful...I am.

May God Bless, those Kindhearted, Caring...Folks.

<3 <3 <3 

Today, it's 6 years since John left us.

He left us on the 25th., but....it fell on the Sunday, before Memorial Day, that year.

This morning...was difficult.

: (

I woke up...early, and... kept watching the clock.

Still am.

As the minutes...slip by,

I remember, exactly what was happening each moment, of that Sunday, before Memorial Day,

6 years ago.

: ( : ( : ( 

Lives can be torn apart...in a matter of moments.

I, often...often... think of

'situations', 

as happening, or being...

 'before' John...left, and...'after'...John, left.

It's like...living two very, very...different lives.

John...took a whole lot...of me, with him.

There's a part of me, that feels John with me....all the time.

: ) <3

There's another...part, that is totally...gone.

I feel like a bird, trying to fly....with one wing.

I Miss Him So.

I...Miss, the part of myself, that went away... with him, six years ago.

: (

Love....to All.

Thank You, for Your Powerful Prayers.

There are So Many...who are Suffering, and Struggling.

Prayers, are So Very....Important.

<3 <3 <3 

Barb C.

{I couldn't decide...what I'd do today. Usually, we'd be having the Big...Memorial Day Weekend Sale, and...I'm beyond busy.

With the road torn up, and...'virus' mess, no sale.

So...

I'm gonna scrub the floor, downstairs.

: )

John...always cleaned, and polished the downstairs floor, and was always so proud of how it Shined, when he was done.

<3

I won't do nearly, as good of a job, as he did...

but, I know...he'll be close, watching over.

<3 <3 <3 }

{Just got done...scrubbin' floors, sat down... listening to music.
A Tune....popped up, I hadn't thought about, for a long time.
'Sing me back Home', by Merle Haggard.
<3 <3 <3
Merle, was so much like John.
<3
I've always...always...Loved Merle Haggard, since I was very young.
When I met John....I, thought...he was cut from the same cloth.
<3
Workin' Man.
Hard Workin' Man.
: )
with...a Huge, Tender...Heart.
John, had been through Hell...when he was young.
He could've so easily...with, Everything...he'd endured, no fault, of his own...
turned out so much differently.
What a Man.
<3 <3 <3



As our neighbor, Tom...said, a while back...
while we were visiting, One to One.
"I never had the opportunity to get to Know...John.
I knew, he was a Good Man,
I also...knew....he wasn't anyone I'd ever want 'Fuck' with."

I BURST OUT LAUGHING!!!
Hahahaha!!
That's a Fact...
{Unless...He Loved You.}
<3 <3 <3
Tom, Nailed...It.

At John's 'Celebration of Life'...
I had Merle Haggard Music, playin' throughout.
What a Gift, that this...tune, popped up.
<3 <3 <3 }

Jim Reeves - Precious Memories

Here's to the 'Memories', we're Making...today, and...The Past's...Treasured.

Yesterday, was little Jack's Third Birthday!!

I, was all consumed with some very ugly stuff, concerning the IDOT.

Thankfully, Josey Wales... was consumed with me, and these ongoing, and...

unfortunate issues.

Don't know what I'd do...without, him. 

It kinda zapped the wind from my sails.

but...

Today, is another...day, and I plan on gathering up some old 

Toy Trucks, and Tractors, from my 'collection', for Jack to Love...Enjoy, and...

Play With!

Those, old...Toys...Love to be Played With.

<3 <3 <3 

Jack will be Thrilled to have them, too.

<3 <3 <3 

Bought this Truckload of Old...Toys, a few years ago.
Most...have found new Playmates, but....I held several back, for the Kids.
{me. ; ) too. ; ) }
I'll gather up, a few...for Jack, today...and drop them off, this afternoon.
<3 <3 <3 

I'm gonna go to the rabbit hole, this morning...

water the pretty Flowers, under the canopy,

and...bring a few more treasures outside.

I plan on being Open, on the 23rd. from 11-3, 

outside, only.

{Just, received the news, as I was writing...that I'd been dreading, 

concerning my Sister, Joyce.

She passed away, early, this morning.

Visited with my Niece, Mary Beth...for a long, long time...on the phone.

It's funny, I never know what to say, in these difficult times...

but, once you start reflecting, on 

Those you

Love...

The Memories...

 do the talkin' for you.

<3 <3 <3 

We've been Blessed, with some Beautiful...Memories.}

Love, to All.

Thank you...for your Prayers, for those...who are struggling, today.

I, Pray...for All...as well.

Barb C. 

Everly Brothers - Cathy's Clown (1960)

Burlesque. My Favorite..'filter'.

Spent the day...

trying to make sense...of So Much!

Thankfully, I had my Mind, mostly...buried in Moss, 

{Thanks, to Fern Hill...in South Amana, Iowa.}

Flowers...and, Old....Souls.

I Thank God...

for The Soulfulness.

<3 <3 <3 

Dear, Faithful...Friends.

<3 <3 <3

As I was loading these images...

I used the 'Burlesque Filter'.

Hahahaha...

I, gotta Tell Ya, It's My Favorite.

; )

Yes, I so wish...

I could be in New Orleans, these days.

I wouldn't have to pay..for the Beautiful...

Moss.

It's Alive, and...Well...

there.

<3 

: )

Yes...There's Somethin' About The South.

<3 <3 <3 

This is an Open Air...area, I'm working at, behind the rabbit hole.

<3 <3 <3 

Every week, I'll be adding, and...Fluffin'.

; )

There's So Much.

<3 <3 <3 

I'll be Open, by Appointment. 

Call Me.

319-241-1348

I'll be doing some Live Videos...soon.

Maybe...Live Sales.

; )

<3

I posted the Tune above... for the IDOT, and...Fairfax, City Hall.

Their Engineer, Mayor...Council...{most of the Council.} and, another. 

I had to move a LOT of Stuff, in a Hurry, because...I Trusted, the Word, of the IDOT, and...a Settlement Agreement, between me, and Them.

It cost me...Loads of Heartache, and...Loads...of Money, when They...Backslid.

Found out, today...while visiting with someone...I, sadly...foolishly, trusted, with the IDOT.

I'm 'The Clown'.

; )

Oh My...

: )

How They Must....Laugh, at How They've...Taken, from us.

Unlawfully.

and...

seemingly, are getting by, with it.

: (

oh...dear.

: (

Their Words, don't matter.

Sadly...a Signed...Recorded, Settlement Agreement, doesn't either.

: ( : ( : ( 

We'll see.

: (

Right, is Right...

Wrong, is wrong...

no matter how ya 'Slice' it.

<3

Maybe...the Law, doesn't even matter....anymore.

We'll...see.

; (
Yes... I Die Each Time...
I Have to Deal...
with
The IDOT. and...Their 'Friends' from Fairfax, Iowa, City Hall.

Love, to All.

<3 <3 <3 

There are so many...so close, to me...

who are Hurting, and Struggling.

Please, Pray....for All Who Suffer.

<3 <3 <3 

Barb C.

Robert Plant & Alison Krauss - "Sister Rosetta Goes Before Us"

Busy...Busy....Busy!

Another, cool... May...morning.

Yippee!

Headin' out the door, to get some Flowers, and...Moss.

I'm going to check our local, Fairfax Greenhouse, for Flowers, then...

head to Fern Hill, in South Amana, Iowa...

for a Box of Moss!

I'm kinda Lost...without Moss.

; )

{Thankfully...they have some Waiting for me!!}

Moss, has always been a must, around the rabbit hole.

There's Something...about it, that softens...the edges.

: )

I'll have pictures, later...to show you.

I use other things, like shredded coconut, and...even, old...stuffing from Victorian upholstered furniture, that I've saved.

Sometimes....I use Straw, or Hay...to 'buffer', 'soften'... too.

; )

but...

in the Spring....

Green Moss, is my Favorite.

<3

I know...there's some packed in the FUSO, and Trailer...

{Show Stuff}

but, I'd have to unload Everything....to get to it.

If...this were a Normal Year, that wouldn't be an issue.

They'd be unloaded, and we'd be having a Memorial Day Weekend Sale.

With the IDOT, having everything torn up, there's no way...

I could'nt have any Sales, here...this year.

{or...last, because they were supposed to have started on it then.}

I, think...even with this 'virus', I could've pulled a Sale off, now...

outside, only.

Not...happenin'...tho, with all of this highway mess.

I'm working on things outside, and will be open, 'Outside'...

 and let Folks Dig...around, at a distance, on the 21st, 22nd, and 23rd.

From 11-3, or....by appointment.

One Day...at a Time.

Hope you All...have a Beautiful Day, 

and...gather up All of The Blessings, in it.

<3

Love...to Ya!

Barb C.

Queen - Killer Queen (Top Of The Pops, 1974)

click...click...click.

; )

oh dear...

It's Definitely...After 5, 

down the rabbit hole.

; )

Got the three Chandeliers Hangin'.

oh my.

; )

Difficult to do...alone.

Difficult...to do, without an 8 foot ladder.
{after Hunting...for an hour, decided the 8 foot ladder, must be in the Truck, or Trailer...
Buried.}

4 foot ladder, was better than nothing.
Dangerous...
but, Better...than Nothing.

; )

I used some of my Dad's 'Farmin'/Scrapper 'Engineering Skills', 

that he taught me...So Many...

Years, ago.

{Some things...you Never Forget. <3 }

; )

Where there's a Will...There's a Way.

Failure...is Not...an Option.

Gitt'er Done.

; )

Old Wire, and...Studyin'...the situation, a bit,

usually works.

; )

Those Chandeliers...are Stout.
{Thankfully, I don't buy things by the Pound. }

oh my.

I don't even want to know....how much they weigh.

The job goes easier, when ya don't know.

{I worked up a Sweat...and, it's thankfully...a little chilly, today. }

; )

Moved, and Moved...and...Moved, Much...

; )

My body, said..."Enough", at 5, without looking at a clock.

<3

Should get that area pulled together...tomorrow.

; )

oh...my.

Stay Tuned....

Love, to Ya...

Barb C.

Mona Lisas & Mad Hatters - Elton John Lyrics [on screen]

It's Coming Alive...down The Rabbit Hole.

I've been playin' down the rabbit hole, and am Thankful...for the cool weather.

; )

Yesterday, went on a 'Chandelier' Run.

Oh My.

Loading them in Jethro, the Mustang...

was Quite a Trick!

They...are Massive!

oh dear.

but....

They are Home!

I thought of John, as I was driving...

he always warned me about using the Cars, the Nice ones....

like a Truck.

{YIKES!}

{The Ford, is Trapped, by the IDOT, and it's too muddy to drive through the yard, and pasture.}

I remember unloading Extremely Fast, when I'd get home...after doing Exactly, what he told me Not To!

{Did the Same, Yesterday. ; ) 

guess...

Some things...Never Change!}

Had two Chandeliers, in the back seat, with the driver's and passenger seats, ahead as far a they could go...

and, the third, was in his trunk...

with the deck lid....open, all the way Home!

YIKES!!

My knees were up to the dash, it was interesting...shiftin' gears.

oh my.

; )

Everything is growing so fast, with the rain....

Things, are coming back to Life, that's Such a Blessing, to see.

Peg planted so much...years ago, here.

It's such a Lovely Reminder....of her, when her Beloveds...wake up, in the Spring.

'Farmer's Drinkin' Glasses'

aka, Vintage Fruit Jars.

Love Them.

They make Great...Vases, too.

<3

One...can never have...Too Many, ya know.

: )

I hope to be OPEN by appointment, mid week.

Outside, mainly.

I'm staging Outside, now.

The rabbit hole, is nowhere near ready to start receiving Guests.

I'll be starting work on one of the upcoming Estate Sales, late in the week, as well.

One Day...

at a 

Time...

my Friends.

<3

I have a Family member, and...a Very...Dear Friend, who are struggling.

I, ask you to keep Them, and their Families...

 in your Powerful Prayers,

 along with All...

who are struggling, today.

Love...to Each, and Everyone.

Barb C. 

{Hopefully, I'll have the Chandeliers Up...Today.

at least...a few of them.

I'm going to hang them in the Tent, behind the rabbit hole.

These last three, are Very...Heavy, and awkward.

; )

There are Many...down the rabbit hole, packed away, I hope to hang Many...

Out There.

; )

Like Fruit Jars, 

One...

can Never Have....

Too Many Chandeliers.

: ) }

Rascal Flatts - Stand

Then You Stand.

I'd written a post, earlier...

Found my way...

as difficult, as it was...

to The Rabbit Hole.

; )

Met, with some Real...Angels.

Nothing planned, nothing...expected.

; )

What 'Happened' There...

was, Amazing.

<3

I, can't write about it, now...

It'll be in the book.

Trust me.

<3

I couldn't Understand...

WHY???

Why, I'd choose 'The Wedding Song', for the last post.

I think long, and Hard...about Music.

That, 'Tune'...didn't Fit, what I'd written about...

but, posted it...anyway.

Trust me...

It All Made, Perfect Sense...

at the end, of this day.

Wow.

That's How God Works.

<3 <3 <3 

The Tune, I'm posting...above...

makes perfect sense, too.

: )

I, heard it...when I fired Jethro up, turned his key...
 it was Playin' Loud.
Wow.
Then...
Jethro...

Laid 4th Gear Scratches...
{well...maybe not 4th Gear...but, All of 1st, 2nd...and...a little of 3rd. : ) }

on what's left...

of Highway 151, through...

'fairfax'.

; ) 

<3 

Yes...

That's...

How God Works.
<3 <3 <3

{John, too. ; ) }

<3 <3 <3 

Love...to Ya,

Barb C.

Peter, Paul and Mary - Wedding Song "There is Love" (25th Anniversary Co...

Angels.

Went outside...this morning, and picked a few Lilacs.

: )

I'd run across an old Garden Style book, earlier.

: )

The Rabbit Hole contributed to that book, years ago.

It was fun...flippin' through the pages, and seeing some of the old...treasures, from then.

I miss, Good Books,...don't find the same inspiration from a screen.

I worked outside, did a little weed whippin', but, soon found out how soft, and...what a butterball...I've become.

A Friend called, where we were going to possibly have a sale, but...

there wasn't enough...to have one, back in February. {we do have two sales coming, soon.}

I wound up buying quite a bit of the estate.

My Friend, is bringing a load, I couldn't haul...

The Ford, is trapped, by the house, with the IDOT having this road torn up...

so, I have no way to haul.

The Gipsy Ford, is at The Diesel Dr., so...I'm truckless.

The FUSO, is Loaded Full.

I've Got to Get Busy, and...Get Sellin'.

oh my.

My Friend, from the Estate, and I...had a long chat, this morning.

God...has a way of sending Angels...exactly when we need them.

She had some very thoughtful advice.

: )

I'm gonna take some pictures...and, try to make sense of the rabbit hole, one little area, at a time.

: )

I...do, so love...to play with those...old...'toys'. : )

It's...so difficult these days, to put one foot, in front of the other.

There was a knock at the door, as I was writing.

It was one of the contractors, who's been working on the highway.

oh my.

I was Kind.

; )

He, was interested in an Angel...I have here.

: )

Told him...I'm gonna have to think a bit, before I sell her.

Told him....I think, I need every Angel....I have, close to me...these days.

He understood.

: )

He also shared the 'Trail' Plan...that supposedly, 'Isn't'...with me.

Where it's going to be.

oh my.

yes...

I, was still...

Kind.

: )

Not...his fault.

: )

Told him, should I decide to keep the Angel, I'll take his information...

as, 'Angels'...seem to find their way...here, often.

: )

Well...

I'd better get out there, make room...for, yet....

another Load.

; )

Love...to You.

Barb C. 

Loving Arms Kris Kristofferson and Rita Coolidge

Storms Never Last

'Trust'...Priceless. {and...Rare}

The above image...

is from several years ago.

It was captured, after a very long day,
while I was struggling with some very...bad news.
I, thought...at the time, That, was the worst day, most...
Crippling day, of my life.
I, was wrong.
There's been many, very similar...and much worse days,
since.
Much.
Many.
Guess, most of us...understand, that.
The other night, after sharing my Evening with Lots of
Tequila...
I took a walk outside, and captured a live video...
of what's happening around here.
I, haven't cried that hard, in a long time.
I, thought...it was the Tequila.
Sadly, the tears didn't let up...
long after the Tequila, went away.
Too much Tequila,
Too much Hell,
for...
Too long.
A Dear Friend, called me, after I'd taken the video down...
I, didn't watch it, before I deleted it.
She said...
"It's a Good Thing Scarlett O'Hara didn't have Social Media!"
: )
She went on, and said...
''I'm not gonna worry about you, tho...until you start making dresses, out of curtains."
: )
oh my.
I'm struggling, with All....of This.
Not the 'virus'.
We'll get through that.
The IDOT, The City...
The Carnage.
The Loss.
all...
so wrong.
I've got to try, somehow....
to save myself.
They've Taken....so much.
I...can't allow them, to take my
'Self'...
too.
I, thought to myself...earlier, today...
I've got to find a job, where all I do, is drive.
or...
do something, that's repetitive.
'This'... 'all', has drained every ounce of creativity, from my soul.
The sad thing, is...
If...I had to do it 'all' over, again....
I would.
I've thought, long...and hard, about Much, today.
I, know...God, has a perfect plan.
: )
{Guess, this is where....I should clench my fist,
shake it at the Heavens...
and say...
"As God as my Witness, They're Not Going to Lick Me!!"}
: )
A Big...Thunderstorm just blew through.
I looked out the window, as I was writing, and saw...the
Most
Beautiful Rainbow.
: )
By the time I ran through the house, to get my phone, to take a picture...
it had faded, but....
I Saw It...
in
It's
Grandeur.
<3
Hope... There's a Rainbow...
Beautiful, Rainbow...
Above You, too.
<3 <3 <3
Love, to You.
Barb C.

After the top picture was taken...
on such a horrible day,
looking back, now...
I...remember, too...
Many, Many...
Happy Times.
Days...
 Filled with Fun, and Laughter.
: )
Days, filled with Beauty.
: )
In my heart, I know...
there will be More, of Those.
It's...sometimes, so very difficult, to believe that,
when you're standing in the midst of the Storm, and...
the World, is literally crashing down, around your feet.
During these 'Storms'....
I sure Miss John.
<3
He, had a way....of reassuring me, that...
 'This Too, Shall Pass'.
: )
I, never... quite knew how...he was Always so sure, of that.
but...
I, Knew...by God...if He said It,
It was True, and we'd Mak'er.
'That'...We Did.
; )
<3 <3 <3
That's...
'Trust'.
 Priceless.
{and, Rare.}
John, always had a Cool Head.
and...a Steady Hand.
{Two things, I lack...being a 'Mad Hatter'. }
It's difficult to choose a Tune for this post, thinking about John, this Evening.
It's difficult, because....there's Many, I could choose.
Mostly by Jennings, or, Jennings, and Colter, or Kristofferson, or, Kristofferson, and Coolidge.
I'll post two, above.
<3 <3 <3

<3 <3 <3

John, Drivin'...that Old...Mustang, above... 'Sally'.
: )
{Folks wonder, why...I won't sell our old... 'Ford Family'. : )
The Memories, they Hold...are Priceless.
Money, can't 'buy' them.
If 'money'...can't 'buy'...an Old Ford,
 Imagine how hard I'd Fight, not to 'sell' Land, John worked his Life...Away, for.
For Nothing, but a Suicide...Trail, on
 Fairfax City Hall's, and their Hired Gun, 'Engineer's..
'Wish List'...
oh my.
: (
It makes me sad...that the IDOT, district 6, went along...
with, Fairfax.
: ( }

I need some Angels today.

Loreena McKennitt Skellig

A Ghost...in this House.

Had many great plans, for this day....with so much work staring at me.

None...of it, got done.

Some days....

I feel like a Ghost, in this House.

This...

was one of Those...days.

It's so difficult, to explain.

I, can't seem to make my feet walk out the door, with...

all of this, horrible...carnage.

I can't get away from the sounds, and...earth moving constant vibrations,

 but...,

'Seeing' it, is...absolutely devastating.

Crushing.

It's not my nature...when I see people, near our home...

not to be kind.

Not...make eye contact, or...give a friendly, wave.

I, can't stand to look at these people.

I, know...none of 'This'...is their fault.

It's...just their 'job'. 

The only peace....I find, is late...

when it's dark, outside, and...quiet.

I walked through the house....

and, captured a few images, for today's post.

Some...of the things pictured here, make me smile.

Others...

make my eyes...a little misty.

Decided to drain the color from them.

Everything...seems so much clearer, 'honest'...

in black and white.

I was thinking about the music...the Rabbit Hole, always...

Sings.

Loreena Mc Kennitt, used to play down the rabbit hole, non stop...

like Alison Krauss, mostly does...now.

Today...feels like...a Loreena day.

I, can almost smell the intoxicating scent of 'Fairies and Flowers'....

that used to permeate the rabbit hole, so many years ago.

When I saw the beautiful...Spring...Green, in the old...Rosary Beads, a few moments ago... 

I thought of Loreena.

Guess...it's the Irish, in me.

<3 

Took the Old, 'Gipsy' Ford...back to the Diesel Dr., yesterday.

She, drove much better...while driving there.

Kind of like, when your tooth stops aching, when you're headed to the Dentist, to get it pulled.

; )

We'll see what he has to say...about the old Girl.

<3

Tomorrow's...another day.

Hopefully, I'll get my feet to step outside, before the IDOT gets started.

Maybe...

if I can get to the rabbit hole, and...shut myself inside...

I, can 'Haunt'...it, for the day.

Love, to You.

Barb C.

{I just read some comments, I'd missed...from a few weeks ago.

Thanks, Everyone.

<3

Yes, God...is in Control. 

<3 <3 <3 }

From one end...to the other.

Destruction.

I, can't look out the windows.

This...

is a War Zone.

I have a lot more understanding, 

for the People who lived in The South, during, and after the Civil War.

I, also...understand the meaning of 'Carpetbaggers', from those days.

They still are around.

They, are who's to Blame...for  All of 'This'.

Shame...on them.