My...Early Christmas Gifts...and...I ask...for No More...

I worked on the Tree...today...

It's Therapy...

Much...Needed Therapy...

{I'm calling it...'Done'...}

Received...the call... from my Dear...Friend, and Customer...

Concerning... the Big Cupboards...

 {Kits}

This...has been weighing..Heavy...on my mind...

He said... "Do...Not...Worry!

 He'll Take Them... even if we have to Super Glue...

and Duct Tape them Together!!!..."

oh my...

This...was...

My First...'Gift'...

{I Swear...I deal...with the Most Amazing...Angels...

They Carry Me....when...I can't begin...to find my feet....

His main concern...was...about Mom...

What a Loving...Caring...Spirit...}

a Gentle...Soul... and...such a Hard...worker...

 He was enroute...to his Fifth Show...in so many weeks...

 oh my...}

Then...moments later...

I received a call...from the Friend... I had bought them from....

{who saw a side of Barbara...he'd Never seen before...

 When he delivered..the Massive Cupboards...

I will have to say... I was...Twisted....when I saw them... 

no...I was Beyond...Twisted....

My head...was Spinning...

{Literally...and My Eyes...were Rolling Back...in My Head...}

 I was Grasping...for anything... Solid....

to Stop...The World...and Let me Off...

I had Scolded him...

{with words...that Rarely...come out of my Mouth... : ( }

 Second...and Third... Guessed his decisions......and work...

Yep...

 I was a Mess....

A Storming... Mess....

 I called him...on Friday... and apologized... for my 'Behavior'...

He called me back...but...didn't leave a message...

Today...

we talked...

I, again...said I was sorry...for my Behavior...

 but... I was Lost... and couldn't see my way out... of this...

yet... I couldn't leave him... holding the bag...

but...I knew...I couldn't send these Cupboards...to my other...Dear Friend...

 and leave him...with a Puzzle....

 I also knew... I didn't have the money...to spend...on these....myself...

Spinning...

 yes...I was Spinning....

{between Mom...Thanksgiving... trying to recuperate...from Jan's... and...

all of the Day to Day...

'Life'....

ahhh.... So Very...Much...'Life'....

I'm pretty....

Raw...

It was then...he gave me...my Second...Gift...

He said to me...

" There is Nothing...You could ever Say...or Do...

That would make me...Stop Loving You....

I Know...Your Heart..."

and...I wept...

What Better Gifts....

Could...I Ever... ask for...

They Don't...Get Better...than This...

They Truly....Do Not...

Love...to ya...

Barb C.

{we'll get those 'Kits' together...

{John said he could... but...then...John...hasn't Seen Them... : ) }

{more... 'Life'... : ) }

 The Friend..I bought them from...said he'd come...and help..

{he's 4 hours away... I won't have him do that...

we'll get 'em...somehow...we'll get 'em..

It will all come together... it always does...

As my Other...Dear Friend said.....

 Even...if we have to use a Little... Super Glue... : )

yes...We'll get 'em... : )}

Mom..is touch..and go...

 They talked to me...about Hospice...Today... : (

Don't think...we're ready...for that...yet.............

I'm meeting with My Wonderful Dr. tomorrow...

he's visiting...Mom...at the Hospital...

Talk about...Angels...

My Third...Gift...

of the Day... 

oh my... 

I am...Blessed...

So...Very...Blessed... : )

{If...you have missed the Music... well...it's gone... hope to find....another playlist...

for Today.....

my song...would be...

"Palm of Your Hand..." Alison Krauss...

'cause...that's where I am...

in the palm...of His...Hand...

: )

and...So Very...Thankful...to be There...