Friday, July 1, 2011

Whew....what a day....

Got a call from my Cousin, Judy....we were trying to figure out where to have the After Service 'Gathering'...Everywhere is soooo expensive....The Funeral, is Wednesday.... so...I offered to have it here... 50 to 125 people.... oh dear...I was thinking out loud....I'm scrapping....and cleaning...I'm a horrible procrastinator...{as you all know}... the set up..for the show...Sunday...I'll load tomorrow...the show...Monday... get the house cleaned and yard done...and buildings ready...and food done...on Tuesday....oh dear....Then...Wednesday morn...get Mom ready at the nursing home...and get her to the Funeral....and...back to the nursing home.... then...get ready for guests...oh yeah... I'll make it happen....Peg said she'd be here...from Missouri...to help...{Bless Her Heart!}
But...as I was at the nursing home...breaking the news, to Mom...Judy's Husband, Don called...and said they are going to gather at a restaurant....who ever wishes to come.... and just visit....is welcome.... They didn't want to put me out....I assured him...they weren't...{guess thy don't know how talented I am, at dancing on a razor blade...} Don said...that my offer was one of the nicest things that had happened through all of this...How sweet was that....
I was a little relieved....but... disappointed...as well... I would do anything for Family....{and Friends...}I know I'm not around much...always on the road... but....when push comes to shove... get out of my way...I'll make it happen...and.....I would have made it happen.... with a little help...from the most amazing friends.... and fam.....
I'm relieved for a Big Reason....Mom....she took the news...very hard.... I was heartbroken, for her....I knew it would be this way.... Sister, Merry Jo....wondered why I was waiting.... well... let me tell ya....I Never run towards a Heart Break....ever...
Brother, Larry, doesn't think Mom should go to the Funeral....
 Mom wants to go....and...She Will Be There....I have a van lined up, to drop her off...and pick her up....I can't transfer her, anymore....her legs simply say no.... I bought her a nice outfit....and will do her hair and makeup....
It will be a very hard day for her....
I felt a bit of her....leave me...when I told her about Helen....They were so close....when they were Girls....and NOTHING HURTS ME MORE...than to see My Mom... cry....we sat....and wept...together....Mom didn't know I was crying.... she's blind.... I kept talking to her.... reassuring her...about our 'Journey'... but ...oh my... I was broken....{this...is why...I waited...I can't take it...}
I was busy...busy...with folks, today....and Horse issues... {Scout is doing much better}
Whew...what a day....
Love to ya....
Barb C.

2 comments:

vikki said...

~♥sweetie...soo sorry about your Aunt Helen...loved. the pic of the two, your mom & her...don't seem like there's much of that kind of bonding anymore...like everything else everyone is soo busy etc. we now have all the modern conveniences, microwaves, dishwashers, etc... we should have more time, but seems like we are all the more hurried & busy. used to do all the dishes by hand, make big meals, have everyone over, people stopped by, now hurry hurry...wonderful reminder of how precious our time here is...how blessed we are for every moment...to cherish friends, family including & especially the 4*legged fur angels, to take the time to appreciate all of nature, to listen, really listen to the wind, birds, a song, voices of loved ones...appreciate each moment of this journey. love. the hollyhocks...reminds me of my g'pa! will havta save me some seeds. don't work too hard,,,{i know}...& say hi to peg... hope to git to solon/mt vernon on monday Good Lord willing... =) whereabouts willya be set up?
loveya m'dear with hugs & blessings, vikki xoxo {peg, too}

simplyiowa said...

Hey Vikki...
I sure hope to see ya, in Mt.Vernon..We'll be on Main street...{the ones with all the business'...across from Wolfes...You'll see the FUSO...it's parked where we set up...
As I was reading your comment....I was thinking waht a Blessing You are... and about our 'Journey' to Nashville... You are such an Angel...always right there...with such a calming, peaceful way... Hope you know, how very much you are loved...
Blessings, to You....
Barb C.