Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Tammy Wynette My Man (Understands)


Tammy Wynette - Woman To Woman (Live)

Tammy Wynette - Til I Can Make It On My Own

If Walls...could talk.

If Walls...could talk.
With these 'Snow Days'....that, everyone....seems to be so tired of, I....
actually, find myself...loving them.
Maybe, it's because....they give me an excuse, for doing absolutely nothing, and...
not feeling any guilt, about it.
I looked through pictures, this afternoon...as I was trying to decide what to write about, this Evening.
It makes me a little sad, because...not many years ago.....
instead of looking back, I would've been Bouncin' Through...this Beautiful Snow, and have images to share...
that...are as Fresh, as the Sparkling Beauty, that fell...last night.
The images I chose, are of our Home.
The Walls. 
<3 
We've had some...Very....Happy Times, here. 
: )
My mind, this Evening...goes back....to what The Walls heard, about 5 years ago.
It was the very first night, I slept here...within these walls, without John.
He'd slept...many, many...nights, without me...here.
I'm on the road...so much, with my wares.
Nashville.
Rochester.
Des Moines.
and...
Many other, Events, here and there...for days.
I...know, John kinda enjoyed...having The House to himself, while I was away.
<3 
: )
I, also...know, he Missed me, when I was gone...a little too long. : ) <3 
I was always...so....busy.
So Much...to Get Done. 
So...Many, obligations.
No One...Understood that, better than John.
We've Always...had to Pull, a Heavy Load.
My mind, went back....this Evening, to that First Night, without...John, being here.
It, was the day...he was admitted to the hospital.
The First Time, John...had ever been in a Hospital.
The...Evening, we were told...his vertigo, that he'd been battling...
was caused by brain cancer.
I went into Overdrive.
Totally....Took The Wheel.
I had to come Home...that night, to care for Polly, and Nicky.
I remember....opening the door, to let them outside.
I closed...the door, behind them.
then...
I walked to where that big...empty...oval...frame is,
and...
SCREAMED!!!!
I SCREAMED....at The Top of My Lungs...
until...
I was out of breath.
I couldn't let anyone...anyone, hear that.
not...even, our Beloved...Dogs.
I, especially...couldn't let John know.
We were in...for The Battle, of our lives.
Losing...wasn't an option.
Being weak.
Showing...any, kind of weakness...
wasn't an option.
These...walls, saw my weakness.
They, comfort me...now. 
so...on these 'Snow Days'...
when, I have...an 'excuse', that...I don't feel sorry for, 
I'm thankful, to be Enveloped...by them.
<3
They, are what John...Built. 
They're like his arms....around me.
<3 
Love...to ya.
Barb C. 
{The Tammy Wynette tune, 'Til I can Make It on my Own', I posted, above...is one, I've loved...since I was very young.
I used to listen to this Album...over, and over, at night, after I moved out, on my own, long before I met John. 
It still...plays, over and over...in my mind. 
Guess, it always...will. 
I talk to John, like he's here....with me, everyday. 
I, don't think I could make it through, if I didn't believe he is. }
{On that same...Album, is the tune... 'Woman to Woman'. 
I'll take some heat, over that one, and...'Stand by Your Man'. 
<3
all I can say, to the 'Flame Throwers'...
: )
Bring It On. }
: )
Hahahaha!
The Top...
Tammy Wynette Tune, pretty much...
Says it All. <3
Always...will. <3 <3 <3








Monday, February 18, 2019

Whitney Houston - Greatest Love Of All (Official Music Video)

Martina McBride - In My Daughter's Eyes lyrics

All The Kings Horses....

Daughter, Liz...gave me this little Humpty Dumpty Box, for Christmas.
: ) 
We'd agreed not to exchange gifts, this, last....Christmas.
The little box, brought a Smile...to my face.
It, was her Dad's...Wonderful...Dry....Sense of Humor, shining through...
as I gazed at it. : ) : ) : ) 
A... Whimsical...little reminder, of my 'Fall', down the basement stairs, in March.
{John... would've given me something...like this. <3 : ) : ) : ) }
What, really....took my breath away, was when I opened the tiny box.
<3 
Inside... was the Ring, John gave me...on another Christmas Day... decades ago.
It, took my Breath..away, that Christmas Day, as well. 
John, and I...didn't exchange gifts, at Christmas....very often.
{Socks, Tee Shirts...M&M's...Razors... : ) } 
We, bought for The Kids. <3 
John...handed me a package, that Christmas....I smiled...when I opened it.
It was a can of Pringles Potato Chips!
Hahahaha! 
I, Graciously...Thanked him... <3 
Then, he said...
'Aren't ya gonna open it???" 
{I was Sure...a Prank...of Some Sort, was Going to Shoot Out of That Can... 
and Hit me Square...on The Forehead!}
I, carefully opened the can...Bracing...for Impact...
to find this Beautiful...Beautiful...ring. 
<3 <3 <3 
John, Loved....Rubies. 
The ring he had given me...so many years before....had been stolen.
We never could afford to replace it, and... frankly, I...didn't need it. <3 <3 <3 
When Liz took me to the Hospital, they took my rings off of both hands.
I, didn't put myself...in her shoes, until many months...later. 
I, always...took care of my Mom, and...have made many Hospital runs, over the years.
This...was my Daughter's...First, run. 
She's never had to help me get dressed.
What she walked in on...that night, must...have been very difficult.
I, remember...how quiet, she was...as she drove me to the Hospital.
I, remember her telling the receptionist... that they had to get me in, right away...
because there was blood all through the house, and...she didn't know where it was coming from.
I, looked at my arm....and, wondered...what, and... who, she was talking about.
My, arm...was a mess. but...it wasn't bleeding.
I, had no idea....my leg was cut to the bone.
I'd crawled through the house, to get to my phone....and, left a trail. 
Liz, put my rings on, at the hospital. 
I saw her wearing the one, her Dad gave me...weeks later,
 and, didn't have the Heart, to ask for it back.
I, knew...she would, when...she could. 
I was Shocked...when I opened...that little box. 
<3 
Just like, the First Time.
I, never...expected, that. 
: )
I don't know...what made me think of the trailer, from 'Through the Looking Glass', today.
{posted below}
I was thinking about it, again... a little while ago, again... and thought of The Little Box.
<3 
I'm so sorry...that Liz, had to go through what she did.
I had no idea... how bad it was. I, just...knew, for some reason...I couldn't stand.
Didn't think...I could make it to the car. 
Had I known... what a Mess, 'Humpty Dumpty'...left, I would've never called her.
She's Quite...The Gal.
Much...her Father's Daughter. 
<3 <3 <3 
Such a Gift. 
<3 <3 <3 
Love, to ya...
Barb C. 




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It makes me so Proud, to See...what an Amazing Woman, and Mother...she is.
<3 <3 <3 
she'll...always...always, be...
My Little Girl. <3 
What...a Beautiful...Gift, God Sent Us.
<3 <3 <3 
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{The Whitney Houston Tune... above, reminds me...of my Dad. <3
He, was an Amazing...Father. <3  Dad, could've written that tune.
He, went through Hell, as a child.
He...made Sure, His...Children, didn't.
The Best...he could. <3 }
me, and...my Dad. <3
He was 50 years old, when I was born.
<3
I feel so Blessed, to have had This Man, for my Dad.
I only wish,
Our Children...
could've 'Known' Him.
Thankfully, Our Children...have, an Amazing...Father, as well.
<3 <3 <3
Priceless.
<3

Alice Through the Looking Glass Official Trailer #2 (2016) - Mia Wasikow...

Catching...up. Trying...to catch my breath.

Yes...yes.
: )
February...has been quite a ride, so far.
It's always such a bittersweet month.
Lost my Dad, on February 13th, 1987. 
The day before Valentine's Day.
I miss him. <3
oh...my. 
I've been keeping, fairly...busy.
That's a Good Thing.
: )
Had a great time, at The Rock Island Show...that Friend, Tammy Mendoza promotes.
She, and her...Family, are so Wonderful.
Pal, Mark...helped, and shared a booth with me.
I scaled down...to very little, at that Event.
Sometimes, the best...you can do, is...the best...you can do.
; )
I truly...enjoyed, the smaller set up.
tho...it doesn't pay the bills.
Hopefully, I'll have more 'Go'...next year. : )
It was a Great Show, for Folks! 
Met some Wonderful...People, at Rock Island.
always....do. <3
Two Ladies followed me, as I was getting a snack...shopping, as I strolled.
: ) 
They stopped me, and asked me if they could buy my apron, they Liked It.
{I, decided at the last minute, that morning...to wear that apron. I Love...that apron. Bought it from my Friend, Linda....several years ago, at her Store, in Racine, MN. 
I...wasn't ready to part with it. : ) 
It, hangs, along with...my other, Favorite Apron, from Pal's Lynn and Lea, on the Mantle...in our Bedroom.}
The Ladies, looked pretty disappointed when I told them, I liked my apron...too. 
When I asked them what they liked so....about it, they told me it was advertising their 
Great Grandfather's Business. 
oh dear.
Needless to say, I went home 'Apronless', that evening, from Rock Island.
: )
They are from North, Central...Iowa. 
I, bought the Apron...in Minnesota.
Wore it...last minute, to a Show...in Rock Island, Illinois....
where, two Great Granddaughters, of the Original Owner...saw me, wearing it.
: )
Yeah...
That's how this 'Old' Stuff....finds it's way.
: )
I, could tell you story, after...story, that I've been Blessed to be a part of, and witness, first hand...
how these 'Old Souls'...find their way, to where they're supposed to be. <3
'Winks'. 
<3 


I only took 6 totes of smalls, to Rock Island.
I, also...took the Amazing, Vintage Rugs.
That's It.
Half, of Mark's Van. 
Not...the Fuso, and second Truck.
Light...Load.
The Ford...has been down, with a Blown Transmission, since last November.
Just got him back. <3
Lord...Lord! 
That, set me back. 
He's worth...Every Nickle!
February, just isn't a good time of the year, to be 'set back'.
Oh well...
It is...what it Is. 
: )
We'll manage.
I was Lost... without The Ford. 
He's a Mighty...Mighty...Little Workhorse!
<3 
If you've followed this blog, for any time, you Know...what a Workhorse...
that little Mighty Ford, is. <3 
We've had Big Snow, seems...every other day.
: )
I, actually...am afraid to admit it...but, I really...kind of like it.
I, don't like the accidents, that are happening.
Mark, got stuck in our drive...when he brought my stuff home, from the show.
Brandon, and I were trying to dig him out...and...I nearly got tossed in the snowbank, when Mark...got more Traction, in reverse, than I expected!
YIKES!!!
Where's a Camera Man...when Ya Need One!
hahahaha!
The Neighbor, from across the highway, at EIB, must have seen The Circus, and came right over, and Cleared Out The Drive!
<3
Bless His Heart!!!
I ventured out...last week, and visited two....Wonderful Stores.
{As I've said...for Years...There are Many, in our area! }
The first stop, was in West Branch.
Friend, Jacey...owns it.
<3
It's...Wonderful!
Had such a Great Time...visiting her.
She's a Gem.
found this Darling...little Chair, and some other...Darling...little Treasures.
oh my.
Below, are a few images...of  'A Beautiful Purpose'




Then... The Ford and I... 
headed to Mt. Vernon, Iowa. 
Polly Ann's.
<3 
She's such a Gift.
Her Store, is also...Wonderful!
I found the Old Sleepy Eye, pitcher...on her front porch.
<3
It's older than dirt...and, lost his handle...somewhere, along the 'Journey'.
<3
3.00. 
oh my.
Had...to bring 'im Home. 
He'll 'Hold'...something, for me...
maybe...a bunch of Lilacs, when Spring...decides to come.
<3


Polly, is a Dear. 
It was Great, spending a little time with her, and checking out her Massive Store!
oh my. 
<3 
Below, are a few images of Polly Ann's.
Mt. Vernon, like West Branch, have Many...Wonderful Stores.
They are both, Historic Towns...and have Charm, Galore!



Love...the Flannels Polly Creates!
She, gave me one...at The Anamosa Show.
<3 
Love It!!! <3


I got a late start, the other day, when I visited Jacey, and Polly.
I'm gonna have to get Movin'...earlier, so I can visit, more Friends.
<3 
I'm trying to make my way...to the rabbit hole.
The Girls, have really Inspired me, by their Lovely...Stores.
<3 
It's difficult, it seems...these days.
February...is a tuff month. 
I, Miss... my Peg...who created the little Gourd, below...for me...several years ago.

yes....
February, is kind of tuff. 


John's always....always, on my mind.
It'll be 5 years....this Spring.
I get so frustrated, with myself.
I...feel, most days...like I'm letting him down. 
: (
Dad, and Peg...too. 
I've...gotta find my feet. 
I've got to start writing, again. 
It's so difficult, not...because, I can't.
It's for the same reason... I don't get out, so much...and visit Friends.
I, have little to share....that's happy, and positive.
Everyone...has enough darkness in their lives.
They, don't need my shade, too. 

John cut these Hearts, out of the Old...Tin, he used to cover furniture in.
<3
He put our initials in them. 
<3 
He...Truly Was...an Artist.
<3 <3 <3 



The above picture... is me...and Dad. 
<3 <3 <3 
oh my.
I've got to pull myself up...out of this.
Yes...
February... is kinda tuff.
Mom's Birthday, is the 21st.
She'd have been 99, this year.
She's been gone, nearly 5 years too. 
They'd all be Yellin' at Me!!!
Get Up!!!
{Kinda like Peg...did, when she Ordered me Up Those Stairs!!! : ) <3 }
As I process, and...process...
I understand, how I was given a Chance, to Live...
after that fall. 
I, need to get going...there must be a reason. <3
Something...I'm supposed to do. 
I, have to find my feet. : )


Me, and Miss. Scarlett. 
She comes to visit, now and then. 
<3 
Time...is slippin' away.
They...Grow Up...so fast.
I bought a GoPro Camera, the other day.
I think it'll come in handy, for the rabbit hole. 
I'd like to start doing some videos, of 'The Journey', around here.
Scarlett is helping me figure it out. <3 
{She knows how to use these devices...Far Better, than I do. : ) }
Well, I'm gonna grab some lunch...and, get moving.
Love to You All. 
Barb C.




Wednesday, February 6, 2019