Thursday, July 20, 2017

Alison Krauss - When You Say Nothing At All


It's all...about the journey.


Yesterday, was John's Birthday.
It hit me harder...than the last three, without him. 
They've All...been pretty ruff.
but, yesterday...
I, pretty much...was in a Ball...all day.
I miss Him...Soooo Much.
: )
Somehow...I can usually...get through the Days...well. 
I stay very....Busy.
Unless, someone....stops by, and starts reminiscing... : )
then, the 'water flows'. 
but, yesterday...wasn't a good day.
Nights, are the worst.
Everything....is so quiet.
John, and I...spent Evenings....together, most...always.
That, was 'Our Time'.
We, usually sat in front of the T.V.
: )
We liked the same things, on T.V. 
: )
He'd call me, if it was getting close, to some our Favorite Show's...'time', when I was on the road....
and say...
"Where Ya At??? Show starts in an Hour!!!"
{I've Put The Hammer Down, in The Fords...Many Times....
coming, from Illinois, 
Loaded Heavy....
to get Home, and Fly...to The Recliner...beside John!!!}
We Loved...'The Closer', 'Soprano's'....
{Shoot, I remember...how Crazy we were over 'Dallas'...back, in 'The Day' : )
hahahahaha!
: )
We Could Not...Miss an Episode!!! }
It took me two years...to go back, in John's Room....
I, couldn't open the door. 
I sit in his chair, most every night...now,{sleep in it, more often, than I should.} and watch the Shows...we used to watch...together.
M.A.S.H... Barney Miller, Columbo....Perry Mason...: )
old...reruns. : ) 
We watched old reruns....every night. : )
As I sit, and watch them now...
I, wonder....when was the 'last' time...'we'...watched the episodes 'Together'.
I called Peg's Beloved...Michael, a couple Sunday mornings ago.
I, should call him, more often.
We talked..for a long...time.
He's...lost, too.  : (
Maybe...that's why, I don't call.
I..have no... advise, that will ease his pain.
He misses, Peg...Soooo Much. 

After you have spent so many...years, Loving...someone.
You, become...One Person.
It's a gradual thing.
When, you Lose...your 'Soul Mate'....
You, lose...half, of yourself.
You, don't realize that...until...they are gone.
then...
you're like a Bird....trying to fly, with one wing.
He told me, all of the things, that used to make him happy...mean nothing, anymore.
I...know. 
I told him... if my life, didn't depend...on making a living...
I'd never leave the house.
I, probably...wouldn't get out of bed.
He's retired... I, understand... how difficult...that must be.
I'm blessed, by...somehow, having a 'switch', inside...that allows me, to work.
I can flip it, when it's 'Showtime'....and, around Public.
but...
when I walk in the House...
and, close...the door, I'm done.
Yesterday, John's Birthday.....
that 'switch'...was broken.
I know...John and Peg, wouldn't want this, for us.
: ) : )
No one's...Loved Ones...would. 
so, like I told Michael...
"One Day, at a Time."
: ) : ) : ) 
There is Much...Beauty, in The World, Peg and John...taught us both...to 'See' that.
: )
Life, is short.
We'll All, will be Together...again, someday.
: )
Life, is truly...
about the journey.
We'll have to keep putting one foot, in front of the other, on our paths....
until we are called Home.
Then, what a Beautiful...Reunion, that will be. 
: )
Love, to ya...
Barb C.

{As I reread, this post...
Looking back...
and, ahead.
There's so Much...on my Shoulders, right now....
So Much, coming at me...from every direction.
I realized...
to be Thankful...
for 'The Mountains'.
Without them, I'd be consumed...
by Reality. }










Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Billy Joel - You May Be Right


You... may be... right.

Hit The Iowa...Country Roads, today.
{God, I...Love...Eating Dust, from The Iowa, Gravel Roads! <3 }
{I, Truly...do. : ) When I die, they won't find Blood, in my veins. : )
It'll...be...Dust, from the rabbit hole, and...Iowa...Gravel...Roads. : ) }
It was soooo Hot. No air...in either of the Trucks....I drove today.
 No Worries. : )
I'd Much...Rather...have the Wind, blowing in the Trucks. Along...with The Dust!!!
hahahahahaha!
I was so Sweaty...and...stinky.
: )
Then, received a message, from Family.
They, wanted to hook up, in Iowa City.
: )
My Sister, {Dad's 'Next', to 'Youngest' Daughter...is visiting, from Texas, with some of her Family.}
Oh Dear.
I...was on The Road. Had Many Stops.
There, was NO WAY, I could make it happen.
I, know...I really disappointed my Family.
I tried to explain, had I known sooner.... : ( : ( : ( 
oh...dear. : (
One, 'Stop'...was close, but...the next 'Stop'...was back to back....and MILES Away.
Oh...Dear.
I Ran Hard, Gathered Up...the first Load...
then, I...thought...I might have 15 minutes...to spare.
The Sky...turned BLACK.
A HUGE...Storm, was bearing down.
It POURED.
The Traffic, was Insane.
Ya couldn't See...it, was raining...so hard.
I pulled into a parking lot, to see how close I was, to where the 'Family'...was.
I was 'ONE MINUTE', from where They were.
: )
It was raining...so hard, I couldn't see the building.
I found the parking lot....
emptied...a plastic grocery bag, that was holding...receipt books,
 on The Ford's Passenger Seat,
threw it over my head...{holding my cell phone, under the bag, on my head!!!
I had to have it, to text the Girl, I was going to meet, letting her know....I was running a little behind! : ) }
and RAN...into the Restaurant....where, my Family...didn't expect me to 'Show'. : )
The Man, who Greeted me at the door, Laughed....when I Blew In!!!
: ) : ) : ) 
I looked like a Sweaty...Stinky...Dirty...Drowned...Rat!!!
: )
I told him... : )
"There's a Group..here, I'll Find 'em!!!"
Hahahahaha!!!!
I, did...Indeed.
: )
Oh My....
At least, The Conner Clan...isn't Shocked..by Much.
: ) : ) : ) 
{They, KNEW...my Dad. : ) <3 }
{Loved Him...too. <3 <3 <3 }
It was a Fast...Visit.
but,
 a Good...One.
<3
I, went on...piled...More...on The Ford, : )
Then...
just, as I had 'Home'...in my Sights...
The above, Tune...came on the radio.
: )
Perrrrrrfect!!!
: )
I'm kinda 'The Black Sheep'...of The Family. : )
Thankfully...
The Rest of The Flock, Loves me...anyway.
: )
May God, Bless Them!!!
Love, to ya....
Barb C.






May God Bless...
The Irish....'blood', of my Family.
: )
<3

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Brothers Osborne - It Ain't My Fault Lyrics Video

Hot...Sundays in July. One never knows, how they'll end up.

Started this Sunday Morning...off, clipping Poison Ivy.
: )
Oh My.
I was up...early, with LONG Handled Trimmers, Cutting.
before...it got Hot.
: )
Miss. Scarlett, spent the night, with me....
Son, Justin...Katie, Little Justin, and Miss. Meadow came out...as I was trimming, to feed Critters.
It was Good, seeing the Kids. 
I had to chuckle....
Miss. Scarlett, is still...afraid of Scout. {Horse <3 }
Little, Miss. Meadow...is Fearless. So is her Brother, little 'J'.
Scarlett, is All Girl. <3
Meadow, reminds me...of me, when I was little.
Love Them All, <3 <3 <3 
but...it's so interesting, to see their personalities.
Liz, told me...years ago, on Miss. Scarlett's altrasound, she had her little feet crossed, like...a
 'little lady'. 
She, still does. In so many of the pictures I take of her...she has her little feet, crossed. : ) 
Meadow, on the other hand...
was feeding Scout, and the Chickens....
She even got pecked...by one.
She just turned around, and said...
"Ooooops."
: )
A Friend, called last week, and asked if I'd help him...try and figure out...what to do, with some of his stuff.
I, went over...this afternoon.
: )
Oh....dear.
Went through a ton of stuff...
then, he pulled out one of his Toy Boxes...from when he was little.
Oh...dear.
One Big Box, was Full...of Wonderful...
Toy Trucks.
: )
I spent an hour...Playing with Those Toys!!!
: ) : ) : ) 
Who knew, this morning, when I opened my eyes...
This afternoon, I'd be digging...in a Wonderful...Big...Wooden Box,
Filled, with Awesome...Old...Toy...Trucks?????!!!!
{God, I Love...my job. : ) }
Then, he showed me an old...wooden suitcase.
My Friend, said...it was given to him...in the mid 1970's, from a Man, who was in his 90's, then.
The Man, was a Cobbler. He repaired Shoes. <3
It was like a time capsule. 
Wow.
The Old...Pin Cushion...inside, was... incredible.
I was dusting it off, and...my Friend, couldn't understand why.
I was trying to see the writing on it.
It's Sooooo Cool!!!





The Old, Wooden Suitcase...was Filled, with Tools...for Shoe Repair.
When I was in Winston Salem, NC., years ago...with my Pal, Alyson...
we visited with a Cobbler.
He said, back in the day...the cost of Shoes, to have them made...was over a Month's Wages.
I'm not sure...he didn't say 3 months. 
We, weren't...always...a 'Throw Away Society'. : (
Front and back...of the Old, Cobbler's...Pin Cushion.
LOVE, how it's filled with Boar's Hair.
LOVE...how it was repaired.
It still has several...leather sewing needles, in it.
Wow!!!

Went through...a Ton...of Stuff, today.
From Antique Furniture...to, Coins... and Jewelry.
I gave my Friend, some 'direction'...to get working on.
: )
I'll help him...late, this Fall, pull a Sale...together.
: )

Love...Love...Love.
Little 'J', Miss. Meadow, and...
Miss. Scarlett, keeping her Distance. : )
While I was Whacking Poison Ivy, I ran across this Old...Old...Boot Scraper, buried...in The Weeds!!!
Hope, Your Sunday...was Wonderful.
Love, to ya...
Barb C. 
{Love the tune, above. : ) 
It's pretty Cool. : ) : ) : ) 
I've been...Guilty, of a 'Damned Good Time', 
a 'Time'...or, two....
too.  ; )  }