Hook (1991) - I believe in fairies

'Winks'... They're All...around us.

Life...has been absolutely...

Insane.

Hahahahaha. 

; )

Seems, I've been getting Hit, from Every Side, for far....too....long.

I, get pretty weary...sometimes.

Sometimes...climbing out of bed, or...John's Recliner...{more often, than not...}

is, almost, more...than I can do. : )

I feel John, near me...often.

I don't believe...I could've made it, these last five years, without his 'Winks'. <3

: )

John's..and my Dad's...'Winks'. <3 

{Peg shows up...when I'm REALLY in Trouble. : ) 

I saw her...as I laid on the basement floor, after I fell. 

Just her little feet, in her old...worn, pink 'Crocks'...and the pant legs of her Old...Bibs.

She was Right There...Yelling at me, to "Get Up Those Stairs!!!"

: )

I, swear to God. 

<3 

I'd been unconscious, unbeknownst to me...on the basement floor, bleeding out,

 for nearly two hours, when I woke up.

I, had no idea...what had happened.

I saw Peg's feet, and Heard her Order, and...didn't think a Thing, of it.

: )

{Peg, always ordered me around...: ) : ) : ) 

When we were working hard, trying to prepare for an Event. <3

{I tend to get a little... distracted...: ) 

playing with these, wonderful...old, toys. : ) }

so, hearing her Order Me...Up, Those Stairs, 

was perfectly..Normal.

: )

My, mind... after being rattled, so Hard...didn't give thought....she'd been gone, two years. 

: ( }

The very last words, I spoke to Peg... while kneeling at her side,

 were from Peter Pan. 

"You know that 'Place'... between sleep, and awake?

That 'Place', where you still remember dreaming?

That's...where I'll always...Love you, Peter Pan.

That's where I'll be waiting."

That's exactly, 'Where' Peg...found me. 

<3 

It's True...

<3

I'd been Running Hard, all morning, and half of the afternoon...today.

It was after two, when I decided I had to eat...something.

I had my phone in my ear, with 5 people...all wanting something.

Lots, of 'Somethings'. 

I'd been by the restaurant, I finally stopped at, 4 times, along with dozens...of others, while trying to put out Fires...with Everyone.

I enjoyed, a Great Meal....

Opened my Fortune Cookie, and....

Thought of John,

 and another Great Person,

 that Kicks me in The Butt, when I worry, a little too much. : )

That, was a 'Wink'. 

<3 

One...that I Really, Needed.

Then...as I walked out to The Ford, heavily loaded....

waiting,

I spotted something Shiny, on the parking lot.

It was a Nickel.

Heads Up!

: )

{I would Never pick up a penny, or any Coin...if it was tails up. 

John, would Always...pick them up.

 hahahaha!

He'd say, "That's Money. I don't care Which Side of The Coin...is Up!! It's Hard to Get!"

So...True!

: )

I picked the 'Beaten a Million Times', Nickel... up.

: )

Sat down, in The Ford...and saw it was dated 1946.

<3 <3 <3 

That's the Year, John...was Born.

: )

My Friends...

If That's Not a 'Wink'...

nothing is. 

I believe... there's more to this 'Journey'...than what we could ever imagine.

I, Trust...in The Lord, to Guide me.

<3

I, totally...understand, we never walk alone.

I don't believe in 'coincidences'.

I do believe... our 'Journey'...is mapped out, Long before we take a breath. 

I believe...We All Matter. <3 <3 <3 

: )

The rest of the pictures, below...

are of the rabbit hole, I was planting the 'Forlorn'...

what's left of the Plants, I'd taken to several events.

I asked one of the Boys, to get them out of the FUSO, several weeks ago.

He said.. there weren't any.

{With my memory...I, didn't question. }

Sadly...I found, a couple of days ago...

There, were.

: (

So...I clipped them back, planted them in Rich...soil, 

and... am Hoping, they'll take another breath.

: )

They aren't Pretty, but...

They're Fighters. ; )

<3 

{ My Kinda...Plants! <3 }

Again...I post about our Grandchildren....and this INSANE...

'Chicken Shit', that the city of Fairfax, is now Beating me over the head...with.

I'm so sorry...for those people, at city hall.

I, truly...am.

I, Pray...for them.

Yes. 

It's all...about The Journey.

and...

The 'Winks', from Above.

They're here...for us all.

We simply, need to pay attention.

Love, to Ya...

Barb C. 

Alan Jackson - In The Garden (Live)

The Moments.

I was thinking... about, my Mother...this evening.

We've had quite, a 'Journey'...together.

<3

Mostly, throughout my life... a difficult, one.

I, Loved...her, dearly.

but...sometimes, I couldn't understand, her.

I had to move away...from her, when I was 15 years old.

I, Loved Her...but, I couldn't live...with her.

She worried, about me...So, after I moved out...on my own.

 <3 <3 <3 

I couldn't afford a phone, where I landed...so, she paid for one.

: )

She, had little money, but...she wanted to make Sure...

 I was okay, every evening.

<3 <3 <3 

I was thinking back...tonight, about one of our 

Most... meaningful...conversations.

I, was at one of the lowest points, of my life.

in my early...20's.

She recalled it, 

many years later...

what...

 we'd discussed.

She said...

"I'll never forget that day. 

Watching you, standing by the kitchen sink.

 I knew, how hard...you were struggling, yet...you stood tall.

Held your head...up, high.

I, couldn't have stood that tall...with the load, you had on your shoulders.

I was so proud...of you. "

Those, are the Best...words, my Mother...ever spoke, to me. 

<3 <3 <3

Mom...was an Amazing Woman.

<3 <3 <3 

: )

I, Loved...Her, So. <3 <3 <3 

A 'lifetime', is truly...about 'The Moments'. 

Choose them...

 Wisely.

They Mean More...

than you may, realize.

<3

Love. to Ya...

Barb C. 

The Tune, above...was my Mother's Favorite.
'In The Garden'
It's..one, of mine...too. : )
<3 <3 <3 

Tammy Wynette-You'll Never Walk Alone.

Headin' Down...the Rabbit Hole.

I'm headin' down the rabbit hole, today....and Sunday.

Noon, to 5ish.

So...much, to do.

I, think... maybe, it feels the same way, about me.

: )

We're kinda a Pair, these days...for sure.

: )

Chaos..., and cobwebs.

: )

There's a Lot...of Beauty, there...make no mistake.

It always...always, embraces me, no matter how either of us...'find' one another.

: )

I asked The Lord, to show me what I needed to see...just now, in my Streams, before I head out.

Once, again... I read about how God, doesn't want us to be like fragile greenhouse plants, sheltered from strong weather.

He wants us to be like storm beaten Oaks.

He wants us to be like...tempered steel, that can withstand the twisting, and crushing pressure... without collapse.

I gotta tell ya, it's quite a process...this 'Journey', called 'Life'. 

<3

So... I'm headin' down the rabbit hole.

It's gonna be a rainy afternoon.

I'm thinkin'...that's a good thing. It'll keep me inside.

That's where I need to be, today.

Love...to Ya.

Barb C.

My computer hasn't been repaired yet.

So...I'm choosing pictures blindly...

: )

This one, reminds me of my Dad, and John.

: )

Both, Gave me....my 'Head'. 

Never, tried to hold me down...or, control me.

They both... encouraged me. Always. 

They, Both... took me through our 'Journeys', together...

Full, of Adventure.

: )
They...Both, believed in me...far more, than... I, often, believed in myself.
at times.
They Pushed...me, at times.
Lovingly.
<3 <3 <3 

Thinking about those Wonderful... Men, I was so Blessed to have, in my life...

this, Father's Day Weekend. <3 

God, does the same thing, doesn't He. 

<3

Dad exposed me, to a Lot.... most children never were.

He Believed in me, and...thought I could do Anything, I set my mind to.

John, was the same...way. <3 <3 <3 

I won't say, I didn't have my heart broken, many times....

I've had many...many, 'skinned knees', on those Adventures.

: )

God's 'lessons', and 'tempering'...are the Same.

With 'Adventure', we are opening ourselves up...to the Elements. 

I'm so Thankful...for the Gifts, They All...have given me.

<3 

'Adventure'

Wouldn't be much of a 'Life'...without it. 

<3 <3 <3 

GIRL- Maren Morris (Lyrics)

Simply Iowa. Fairfax, Iowa City Council Meeting. 6-11-19

Alison Krauss & Union Station | Maybe (Official Video)

Everything... happens, for a Reason.

My poor, tired...little laptop, won't let me see the pictures that are stored within, anymore.

So, tonight...I picked them..blindly, at random.

While doing so...I traveled a Million Miles.

Blindfolded.

: ) 

The first image... is of my Dad's Grave Stone.

I, was 23...when he left us.

I, was the Executor. 

My siblings...on both, my Mom, and Dad's side....are much older...than myself.

but...

the last years, of our Parents Lives...I, was much closer.

Losing Dad... dropped me to my knees.

Literally. 

He, was my Best Friend, and...I'll Miss Him, until we meet, again.

There isn't a day... that goes by...when I don't think of Dad.

This image.... has several memories attached.

A lovely... lovely Girl... gave this old Currier and Ives, print...to me.

<3

She has a such a gentle soul...and, understands...I, do too. : ) <3

It, also... takes me back...many, many...years ago.

I, was about 8 years old.

I went to school, at Taylor, in Cedar Rapids.

Walked about three blocks...to school.

Every day... after school, a girl... who was about 12, waited for me..and, beat me up.

I could never... understand, why.

I, didn't know who she was. 

I was too ashamed... to tell my Parents.

I, felt... I should've been stronger. 

I, felt... they would've thought, I should've been tuffer. 

Looking back, my Folks...would've been heart sick. 

as...all Parents, would. 

This... print, also... reminds me, of the Lonesome Dove, who follows me, around our land.

Doves... mate, for life.

{So, did I.}

There's been a Lonesome Dove...that follows me, around our 'Rabbit Hole', since John... went away.

I've taken many pictures...of her, or...him, over the last 5 years.

I've pointed that... 'Lonesome Dove'... out, to Folks... who've stopped by.

That Dove... sits, all by herself...watching, over me. 

My heart breaks... as she coo's. 

: (

Me, and... Admiral.

<3

I bought Admiral... when he was 4 months old.

I, was 12.

He... came from Great Stock. 

War Admiral... Man O War...

yes, 

He.. was a Thoroughbred.

I paid, 50.00 for him. 

We grew up...together.

Swimming across the Cedar River, together.

Traveling a Million Miles, on trail rides, rodeos...and, beside...the highways.

I, always... rode bareback. 

I trained Admiral, like...so many, many...others.

No bridle. No saddle.

just...

a twine, and Trust.

<3

He's buried here.

We spent 28 years...together. 

<3 

The city of Fairfax... is, still...messing, with me.

I'm sorry, for them.
I'm not 8 years old...anymore.

Love...to ya.

Barb C.