The Homecoming.....

Sounds like John...will finally find his way, Home...

tomorrow....

: )

He will do so much better... recover... faster, here... at Home....

tho...

it's going to be a long journey....

with... many uncertainties....

{don't ever wait to file for Medicare.... seems... if John would have filed, on time... he'd be totally covered....

Though...he is entitled... they won't cover him... because, he filed late....}

I looked at the kind woman, at the Social Security Office...today... who said this to me.... and....

said....

"I could understand... if you would give me any...other reason.... but... 'filing late'....on a single... piece of paper...
 You won't cover him... now... tho... he's been eligible... all along?".......

they'll pick him up...in July...

too... late.

{I'm filing an Appeal... she assured me... would be denied... }
We'll see....

I won't even...get into all of Mom's.....issues....

Mom...had money appropriated for this time....
 she and I...both... thought she was covered....
We were Assured.... she would be....

seems... not so much.
That was 16 years ago... costs have risen... faster than interest.

I called the concerned parties....

and said....

"Let's Make a Deal"....

Business....

Money....

{makes me...sick...}

we did....

I'll make it happen.... and not let them down....

I know... they need to be paid....

they have bills...too....

we all do.

oh my.....

seems... every turn....
today...

 was the wrong...one.

Liz rode with, on part of the journey....today.

she just shook her head.....

as doors closed....in our faces.... again... and again.....
but...

I don't give up....

I won't... give up......

then...

We went to the Nursing Home....

to gather up...Mom's belongings.....

and...

gathered... more...paperwork....

I went through...all of Mom's things....

as Liz...sat silently.... on her bed....
gently... sorting...and reminiscing....

 while I was packing....

She looked so 'Heartbroken'....

but...

I...just kept... going.....

and packing.....

never... shedding a tear....
oh my....
oh my....

I thought about that... tonight....

I should have held... her...

comforted...her....

but....

I couldn't....

There is so much.... yet to be done....

so much... to handle... deal with... fight for....

I can't think about... sorrow... or sadness... now....

I called Liz...tonight....
after....

seeing her face...over...and over.... in my mind......

throughout the evening.... while preparing the House...

for John's return....

How... she must have thought... what a... cold.... and unfeeling...
 Mother...she has..........

oh...my...
oh...my.....
unfortunately...
I know from experience....
 if... I stumble now....

even...for a moment....

I'll never find my feet.....
again....

I was reminded ... of the movie.... Gone With the Wind....

she and I...have watched... a Million... times... together....

and shared a couple clips ...on her fb.....
that seemed... fitting.

then...called her....

and.... expressed my feelings with her....
How... I so... wanted to console her.....
but... knew, I couldn't....

and said....

"There will be a day.... when all of this... catches up...

with me...
all...of the heartbreak....

but...

It can't be today...

or...

tomorrow...

or...

maybe.... for weeks....
or months....

Now...

There is a Battle... to be fought...

Many... Battles...."

She said.... she never thought... any of the above...

: )

That's... my Girl.
God... Love Her.

Love to ya....

Barb C.
{I wrote this...last night......
I'm getting ready to head out the door...now... and bring John...Home....
Blessing....
 get him settled.....
then...begin....
to
pull things..together, here....
and the rabbit hole.
: )
Please... keep us in your Prayers... : ) }