Crying....

I can't stop crying... I don't know if it's Maggie... or Liz and Maggie.... I can't help it... I cried at the shelter, a couple of weeks ago...when Sweetie was lost... Thankfully...that was a happy ending...but...I think about them, at the shelter most every day...If I could bottle my feelings, today... I'd label the bottle.... "Heartbroken"...

Liz and I have put this in God's Hands... I handed it over, last night... Asked the Lord to shower us all, with blessings... Then, went to bed, knowing, I have already received them... So...why the tears...little faith?... I don't believe so... I know God is here... I also know... it's all about the journey...The rough and rocky road...the Mountains...

I know there are many, out there, that can't comprehend, why I am this way... You think I'm an idiot... and there are a lot more things in this world, to be shedding tears over, than animals.... Bless your hearts...Tho, I wish I didn't have a total 'melt down', when it comes to this... I wouldn't change anything... When we lost Molly, our old black Shepherd, several years ago... Liz was beside herself... She was, like I am, today... a mess... I said to her, how blessed she was, to be able to love so deeply... Many people aren't capable of loving, and feeling... how incredibly sad...I think the World would be a better place, with a little more compassion... love, and caring... I told her... "It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all".... Unbeknownst to me, Liz had that tattooed on her wrists... oh my... but... as we were sitting in the vets waiting room, yesterday, and Liz was crying... and cursing, because this is so painful.... I, touched her wrists... and said..."there it is"...

I look like I've gone 9 rounds, with Ali... My eyes are slits... Don't know how I'll make it, through the day... But... I will...

I'll put some 'Antiquing' images on 'iowa farmhouse stlye'... later... I'm pouring myself into work, outside.

Barb C.

{for the record... I admire people, who can show emotion... men, and women... I've seen some of the toughest people, be brought to tears, over animals...That is not a sign of weakness... it's a sign of 'Heart'...they're the ones, I want in my corner...}