Holy Water....

Liz and I... took down...

Christmas....

The Blue....Tree....

yesterday.

It's quite an undertaking.

As I...was kneeling down.... tucking, the most fragile.... ornaments, inside the old Cupboard....

next to where John's.... Ashes... are resting.....

{inside an Old...old.... wooden Chest....in...an Old... Wooden Document...Box.....}

I...picked up The Book... that Friends had signed.... during John's Memorial.

It...rests on top...of the Old... Chest...with a Vintage...... Eagle....on top....

of The Book.

It's the first time... I have opened The Book... since that day.

I...gently...opened it....then sat...and read the names..... many... many... names.

One... Friend... wrote...

 "So Proud... to be John's Friend"....

I... broke down..... completely.

I...tried to read it... to Liz... but... choked.........

oh my.....

oh...

my.

The cats... had broken...the ornament... I had found, for John...this year.

I...had placed it... on the old Chest.... with The Eagle....

and...

Book.

It... was a Heart... with Stars and Stripes.

I'd noticed...they had broken it... days ago.....

but...

left the broken... fragments..... until yesterday....

somehow...

it seemed fitting....

it....was broken.

As... I swept up... the pieces....yesterday,

I saved the largest fragment....and tucked it....

 inside the Chest.....

oh my. 

It was 42 degrees.... in the Kitchen.... this morning....

I... haven't changed the setting... on the furnace, John programmed.

and...

honestly....

it didn't feel...cold.

I...guess... when you're numb....inside...and out....

 there isn't much... that can penetrate you.

Certainly.... not... the cold.
I... Miss... My Friend.
My...Soul Mate.
The Love...
of my...
Life.
I found a quote... that says it.... Best.


"There's a Reason...
Two People Stay Together....
They Give.... Each Other...
Something...
Nobody...Else...
Can."


Exactly.