'Light'

Keep tryin'... to 

keep things 'light' here, on the blog.

Best... I can, anyway.

There's so much happening in the world, today...

minute by minute...

Do my best... to stay away from it, here.

 Struggled about writing this... post,

yesterday, and... all day, today.

Somehow... believe I should put it out there.

Believe... many, many... have been directly, and indirectly touched, by this subject.

If you're like me...  can't read, or think about another ounce of sadness, here's your sign, to skip this post.

Yesterday morning, Grandson, Justin... popped in, to visit.

He, often does.

<3

We... share the same Love... of Old Diesel Fords, Horses... and Funny Redneck Videos.

: )

We were having Fun conversations... for quite a while, then...

his phone started pinging.

Justin, ignored the 'pings' at first, then... he looked a little concerned.

He said...

"Hang on Grandma, I've got to see what this is about."

Justin, walked upstairs, to the dining room, I... started working on the lap top.

Justin returned, after a few minutes, sat down... on the Settee, across from me.

Justin had a look on his face, look... in his eyes, I'd... never seen him have, before.

 asked...

 Justin, if everything was ok.

He... looked at me, and said... "You know... my Friend, '....' "

Yes....

: )

{They've been Pal's for a long time.}

"That was his Son... on the phone. He said, he wanted to let me know first.

When his Dad... got to work, this morning, he started his job, 

then pulled out a gun, and killed himself."

Not what I'd expected to hear from my 16 year old Grandson, or see in his eyes.

My mind... scrambled, to find 'words'.

All... I could muster, was...

"I'm so... so... sorry."

: (

We just sat here, in silence, for what seemed like a long, long... time, 

tho...

probably wasn't.

: (

Tried to gently... gently, explain to Justin, that... we never truly know, what's going on in someone else's mind.

and...

sadly, it seems, too often, Men have a very difficult time talking about their feelings.

Many have been raised to be 'strong', never complain, or talk about 'hurt', because some...

see that as a sign of weakness.

Often, they, themselves... see things that way.

: (

So... not true.

<3

but...

convincing them, of that... 

: (

Shared some of my Pals, stories... with Justin, yesterday.

I've lost six Friends, over the decades to suicide.

Five... were Men.

One, Woman.

: (

that... sadly, seems to be the average.

: (

Each... were fighting their own, very... different, and difficult 'battles'.

Money... Heartbreak, Cancer... but, mostly, in my opinion...

the lack of

 'Hope'.

: (

'Hope'... is something we must find, and keep...

 within ourselves, in my opinion.

Nobody... can give it to you.

to, some... 

sadly, so... very sadly,

 they can't find it, reach it... in their grasps.

: (

I know... how very much, Grandson, Justin... meant to his Pal.

: )

Those two shared many phone conversations in my presence.

Hahahahaha!!!

; )

That's the only way I knew Justin's 'Pal'.

<3

Justin... brought 'Light', to his Pal's Life.

: )

{Priceless}

That's all... any of us can do, for each other.

<3

That's All.

<3

Love to Ya...

Prayers...

for

All.

Barb C.