Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Jason Aldean - Fly over States (Official Video)

Blake Shelton - Home (Official Music Video)

The...'Rabbit Hole'... 'Home'.

Spent the afternoon, picking up...the pieces.
Assessing the damages, from..being 'gone', too...long.
The Rabbit Hole,
 is...
so forgiving. <3
: )
Soulfulness...
Always, is.
<3 
So, one step...at a time.
oh..my.
I'm...Home.
<3
: )








I took this picture...
when...I shut the FUSO Down,
 sitting in the hotel's parking lot...
Saturday Evening,
after a long, long...day, at Gold Rush.
I, was so...weary, on so many.....levels.
I'd had a good day, and...a very, good day, before that.
It was Wonderful...seeing, So Many....Beautiful Friends.
<3 <3 <3
I, think...I, knew...at 'this moment', it was over.
I, simply....can't do these 'shows', anymore.
My 'heart', simply...isn't in 'it'.
My heart...is 'down the rabbit hole'.
<3
It...needs me.
I, need...it.
: )
<3
Love...to You, 
Barb C.

Meat Loaf - Two Out Of Three Ain't Bad (PCM Stereo)

Two...out of Three, ain't good enough.

Headed down the rabbit hole, this morning.
Took two days...off.
Had to check, and see....how the rabbit hole managed, after the Big Rains, Storms, and..with me being absent, for so many days.
Like...always, it was fine... : )
 Welcomed me...inside, with open arms.
<3 
It, always...always, does.
: )

Seems,
 it always holds me a little tighter, when I'm hurting.
Soothes my spirit, when I need it...the most.
 Took a look around, trying to figure out, where...to begin, again.
Some...I, guess, might be overwhelmed.
: )
I'm so numb....'overwhelming'...doesn't have a chance.
Not, much...does.
I was thinking of the tune, 'Two out of Three...ain't bad', this morning,
 as I was sitting outside, sippin' my coffee.
It was such a pretty morning.
The dew...was heavy, on the grass.
Each blade, looked like it had a big...diamond, leaning from the tips.
<3
The Birds, were busy...gathering, and singing. : )
The lyrics, from the tune...really, hit home.
"I want you...
I, need...you,
 but...there ain't no way....
I'm ever gonna love you."
Keep, thinking, about the saying...
'There's nothing as cold, as ashes...
once, the fire...is gone.'
I, suppose, most would think of these thoughts...as a 'Relationship', between two people.
To, me...it's about my 'job'. 
'Work'.
I, suppose, I've...been so very Blessed, to 'Love'...my 'job'.
Have, such a 'Passion'...for it.
Thankfully, never...have had these emotions, because of falling out of Love, with John.
<3 <3 <3 
I, understand...them, now...though.
: (
I, think...it must be, like...people feel, when they fall out of Love, with one another.
: (
With what I...'do', 'Passion', is a Big...Deal.
It's...Everything, 
really.
I..lost it, somewhere....a little over 5 years ago, when John left. 
I, kept 'working'...at it, and...doing the very best, I could.
Gave it Everything, I had...left.
It's not enough.
It's...fallen...
flat. 
: (
Shows, are over...for me.
The only place....I can find, 'feel'....anything, at all...
is down the rabbit hole.
My...little Sanctuary.
: )
As much, as I Love it, I'm not sure...It'll be 'enough', to sustain 'Tara', without doing the 'Shows'.
The bills, are enough to choke...me.
I've been looking into getting my CDL, and going back, to driving Truck.
'Passion',
 isn't one of the requirements...for hauling loads, and shifting gears.
I'm very...very, good....at moving those big trucks, down the road.
: )
I'm going to put the rabbit hole, back on it's feet.
Be open...much more, after I do.
We'll see...how it goes.
If...we can make it happen, that's what I'll continue to do.
If...it doesn't work, that'll be fine, too.
I'll go back to driving, and...hang out, in my 'Sanctuary', as much...as I can.
Like, 'Tara'... in 'Gone with The Wind', I...get my 'strength', there.
: )
'Home'.
It...envelops, me.
 Embraces, me...with 'Soulfulness',
 every time....
I step through the gnarly, Wild Grape, and Bittersweet... laden, arched Entrances. 
<3 <3 <3 
I'm going to finish out the year...with Junk Jubilee, in Des Moines, in November.
I, will probably...sublet my booths, at Gold Rush. 
Not, ready...to give them up, just...yet.



Saw these little leaves, outside my booth, as I was loading...
 from a plant...that was in a booth, at Gold Rush.
They'd been walked on...trampled.
I, couldn't leave them.
Scooped them up, salvaged what I could...gave them a drink...in the only...little vessel, I had.
Wrapped them up, and placed them, in a safe corner, by the back door...of the FUSO, 
Took them out, this morning.
: )
They rode safely...and, to my surprise...after bouncing down some of the roughest roads, on 63, in northern Iowa...
I, don't think...a drop, spilled. : ) 
I, don't know...if they'll take root, or not.
I, do...know, they didn't have a chance...baking, on that asphalt. 
All we can do, is the Best...we can.
<3 
Love...to each, and...Everyone.
Please, remember...to keep all, who are struggling, and suffering...today, in your Prayers.
<3
Barb C. 

Monday, August 19, 2019

Lee Ann Womack - I Hope You Dance

Home...

Home.
<3
Packed up a bit early...at Gold Rush, 
have too...
when I take it on alone.
I, move so much slower...since my accident last year.
I'm determined, to git'er done.
but...
It, takes me a lot....longer.
and, I tire...quicker, than before.
: )
I hire Porters, to help.
Much of the Massive, I tend to Love...
requires an extra pair of hands, or... shall I say, 
is much... Easier, to handle, with another pair of hands.
I, learned in May, when I lost my Porter, if I HAVE to, I...can Still, move a 
Mountain, or Two.
{Not, pretty to watch, I'm sure. : ) }
I, feel...like my endurance is better, than in the Spring, tho. : ) 
Like the saying goes...
'It doesn't matter how Fast...you are moving, 
Just...that you're moving Forward.'
I, guess...I can be pleased, with that. : ) 
I was pretty wiped out, drained....when we closed the FUSO's door,
and pointed the Old...Truck, South. 
Took the entire day off, today.
A Day Off...
isn't always a good thing, 
especially...when I'm so....worn out, after a Show.
I, do a lot...of 'Thinking'. 
My body, has rested....today.
My mind, has been working overtime.
oh my. 
I'm going to be making some changes...in my Life.
The things, that used to bring happiness, to my life...no longer do.
A lot of the Passion, I had....was lost, a long time ago, when John went away.
Losing John, Mom, Peg...Brothers, our...Beloved...Hounds, The City, and IDOT, battles...
well...
my creativity...that I, depend on...so, is lost.
The work I do...is grueling. 
 but,
 I've Loved...it, so.
<3
It, didn't matter.
The Passion, carried me. : ) 
I've lost, much of that...and, now....it's work. 
Hard Work.
It was so Wonderful...seeing my Dear, Gold Rush... Family.
<3 <3 <3 
Folks, even said....the booth looked great.
<3
{It didn't, to me. : ( }
It all...reminds me of the Patsy Cline, quote...
"Hoss....If ya can't do it with 'Feeling'..., don't."
I, sold...very well, came Home, with a much, much...lighter load.
The FUSO, and I....are Thankful, for That. : ) <3 
Thankful, to All...who Shopped, with us. <3 <3 <3 
I've considered many options, today.
Even tho...I, know...the day, after...a Show, isn't the time to make any decisions.
I'm not.
but...
I'm thinkin'.
; )
I'm...Praying, about it too. 
<3 <3 <3 
; )
Love, to Each...and, Everyone.
Please...remember, to keep all who suffer, and struggle...in your Prayers.
<3 <3 <3 
There...are, many. 
Barb C. 



This is our Grandson, Jack.
<3
He...is Such, a Little Man.
<3 
So, Serious...at times.
: )
He makes me laugh!
He has such a Passion for Tractors, and Trucks!
Don't...Mess with His Order, when he's got a Plan...in his head!
He Knows...'Jethro',
and...Cries, when his Mama says it's time to go,
after taking a Spin...in The Growly...Old, Mustang!
He Loves...to help his Mama...Cook, too. : )
He Loves...to Create.
<3 <3 <3 
and...
he
Loves...
The Rabbit Hole.
<3 <3 <3 



{I posted 'I Hope You Dance', thinking of our Children... and Grandchildren.
<3 <3 <3
As, I watched it, I...remembered...
 'It's' for You, and...me, too. : )
I'd bet...our Kids, and Grandkids, 'Family'...
Loved Ones...
would 'Hope'...the Same, for us, too.
<3 <3 <3 }


Saturday, August 17, 2019

Simply Iowa Saturday Morning at Gold Rush August 2019

GOLD RUSH!!! Fairgrounds Rochester, MN. {and... That Damned Horse.}

Loading...at Home, was quite an event.
oh my. 
; )
I, pushed...and, shoved....loaded...and, loaded.
Drove 180 miles...North, to Rochester, MN.
I, Gotta Tell ya...
The Wind, Must...have been blowin' Strong...from the South!
 That, Old...FUSO, was Haulin' Ass!!! 
We were Passing Semis...on Two Lane Roads! 
That, rarely...happens. : ) 
He has a Tiny...little 4 Cylinder Diesel Engine.
 <3 <3 <3, 
but....
it Runs like a little Sewing Machine!!! : ) }
We had a Good...Load, on. : )



Five... of my Favorite...Girls.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 
I, promised I wouldn't post this...picture.
I, Lied. <3 
I, Love...and, Appreciate Them...All, So Very Much. <3 


Saturday, wasn't so good, for Sales...until about an hour, before the doors closed.
Then...
BIG STUFF...
Sold.
oh my. 
The FUSO...will be much Happier, heading South. : )
<3 

That...
Damned...
Horse.
How, many times...over my lifetime, have I said That.
I, grew up...with Horses.
I, 'Know'...them, well.
<3 <3 <3 
Love Them.
I bought this one, on Friday.
Late..today, I pulled his price tag.
I'd priced Him...at half, of what most...other's would.
He, didn't 'sell'.
Tonight..
He's...Sold.
to, me.
<3
He's...
Coming
Home.
<3 
Reminds me, so....
of the Old...
Carousel Horse, John...bought for me.
{That, I was So Angry, at the time...he did. <3 
We needed Money, not..a Horse. 
John, thought differently.}
<3
Every picture...I had, time...to capture, today...
'That Damned Horse'
was
Stealing The Show!!!
<3 <3 <3 
yes, 
I, think...he's...kinda, 'Special'.
<3 <3 <3 

A, Friend...
'Fellow Dealer',
 came by, this afternoon....at Gold Rush.
He, wanted to 'Gift'...me with something.
<3
He, has Amazing...Things.
I've Loved...his Collections, for Decades.
I, have so Much...to get done, alone...I haven't been able to shop, or..visit.
When, I walked into his booth, I about...dropped.
 <3
EVERYTHING...
was...
Amazing.
<3 <3 <3 
He, and I...share, The Love...of 'Old'.
'Soulfulness'.
<3
Priceless.
{I, can't write, anymore..about 'this'...'Journey', today. It's a long...one. }
Yeah, I'm...Tired.
Had to pick up...the Amazing, Stained Glass...Clock Dial, I'd bought from Pal...Laurie, yesterday morning...
today.
It's very fragile.
As we were trying to figure out, the Best...way, for me to Carry It, to my building...
I spotted a Gal, looking at a Tiara, that Laurie...had.
Holy Smokes!!
I, told Laurie, if she passes, I'll buy it. : )
{It was nine dollars.}
It, would be Perfect...for Our Granddaughter's...Pictures!!!
The, lady...'passed'. 
{oh my. }
I, couldn't carry, the fragile Clock Dial, and....the Boxed, 'Tiara'. 
So, I told Laurie, to save the Box, and...I'd put the Tiara on my head, and take them to my booth.
I, forgot about the 'Tiara'...on my head, until much...later, when I was Complimented. : )
Hahahahaha!!
Here's... The Deal.
I'm...not a Princess.
I'm...
The 
Queen.
<3
We...
All...
Are.
<3
{Kings, and... Queens }
Love,
Yourselves...
Today.
: ) 
<3 
Love, To You...
Barb C.
{Please...Pray, for all..who Struggle, and...hurt. There are many. }

Thursday, August 15, 2019

'When you say nothing at all' by Alison Krauss with lyrics

Headin' to Gold Rush! { Fairgrounds in Rochester MN.!}


Packing, and Gathering....this morning.
: )
oh my.
: )
We'll be in the Graham North Building, at The Fairgrounds, in Rochester!
Under The Visitors Banner, as...always. : )
Show runs Friday, thru Sunday!
Opens at 8 a.m. Daily!
Hope...to See Ya!

The last couple of days, have been, quite....insane.
Not, in a good way. 
: (
I spent several hours...yesterday with Scout, our Horse.
There's Nothing.... like a Horse's Gentle...Spirit, to calm a troubled mind.
They, always seem to know, when heart's are heavy, and your soul is searching.
: )
Scout... kept putting his head, over my shoulder, and... letting it rest there.
Hugging me, in his own...loving way. 
I, just...stood there, with him... for the longest time...loving on him.
Muzzle kisses, and rubbing his back.
: )
Feeling his mane...on my face, and smelling his wonderful....coat, was such a gift. 
: )
Should've been loading, but... I, simply...needed to spend time, with the Old...Boy, and...
decompress.
So, this morning....I have a lot to get done, in not...a lot of time.
The load I'm taking...isn't what I usually bring.
It'll be a different 'Simply Iowa'. 
Well, I need to get movin'!
Hope to See You, at Gold Rush!!!
Love, to Ya!
Barb C. 




Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Get Me Through December

Changing...of Seasons.

Saturday...
After picking up Sweetie's ashes, I stopped at Hoppy's in La Porte City, Iowa.
That's where our beloved...Vet, has his office.
Visited with Dave, and Shelly...for a bit, then...
headed for Home.
I missed my turn, and...was heading towards Palo.
I'd thought about going to see Kathy Zeller, she, and her Husband, Bill...
have a Wonderful Place, at their Home, in Palo, Iowa.
I've known Kathy, and Bill...for nearly 30 years.
Hadn't been to their place, for many....many...years.
With the 'Jungle', growing by leaps, and bounds, I'm in search of Garden arches, to hold the Wild Grapes, and Bittersweet...Up, and out of pathways.
I, knew...Kathy, might have a few.
: )
However...as I was driving, I'd talked myself out of going.
Just... wanted to get Home, and...retreat, with Sweetie.
Jethro, had other plans.
{Mustang}
Couldn't believe I missed my turn. 
It was a Blessing, to see Kathy's Gardens.
: )
She works Tirelessly in them.
<3
Just...the 'Peace'...I needed. 
Kathy rubbed her eyes, when she saw me standing at her Garden Gate. 
: )
Yes... it's been too long.
She, is Such...a Dear Soul.
<3 <3 <3 
As predicted....Kathy had a Huge Arch, that will work, in one spot.
I'll need to find a few more. 
Below, are a few images of Kathy's Garden.
<3
Much...more Spectacular in person. 
Not sure...of her Hours.
I went on a Saturday, I'd guess...she'd be around through the Summer, on Saturdays.
Palo, is a small town, once you get there, ask most anyone...where The Zeller's live, they'll point ya there.
It's Beautiful.
<3 










I so...enjoyed strolling through Kathy, and Bill's... Beautiful Gardens.
They, are Lovely...Lovely....People.
<3




Below... are a few images, I captured, while sorting...and packing, down the rabbit hole, on Sunday.
It was a busy afternoon. 
Had to get things cleared for a table that was leaving.
It was so..sultry.
Standing completely still, would bring sweat to your brow.
Turns out, a Tornado was sighted not far from us, that late afternoon.
That seems so rare, in August.
I was going through...tons of 'littles', from the Old...Victorian House, sale.
Takes me a long times, to go through the old...soulful. 
It's all...so beautiful.

I have a weakness for handmade...anything.
Love... vintage handwork.

This old, old...Sewing Box, has worn..velvet pin cushions on either side.
: )
It dates from the later 1800's.
So...precious.
: )



As I was making coffee this morning, stood in the kitchen...
and had a 'Wave'...of 'Fall', rush through me.
I'm not ready...for 'Fall'.
I, do...Love It, but....
not ready, to start thinking about Winter.
Not sure...exactly, what's happened to Spring, and Summer.
: (
This...year is slipping by, so fast.
: (
Daughter, Liz...and Miss. Scarlett, stopped by, on Sunday afternoon.
As Scarlett stood by the entrance to the rabbit hole, she looked like she'd grown four inches since I'd seen her last, just a few weeks ago.
Time Marches On.
Too Fast.
I'm heading to work...today.
Took the day off, yesterday.
 Needed to rest my spirit, a little.
Josey Wales, our Lawyer...
sent me an e-mail...about the Court mess, the city of Fairfax, is bringing against us, over our Chickens, we've had here...for over 30 years. 
{retaliation, for losing their suicide trail, along Highway 151. }
That'll be in early September.
oh...my.
This is Daughter, Liz... holding one of her Beloved, Barred Rock Hen's...Eggs.
Liz, was so Proud...of her Hens.
This, was in 1996, or 97.
Our Grandchildren, have also enjoyed the Chickens, and caring for them.
<3 <3 <3 
We've all, enjoyed the Fresh Eggs..those Beauties have provided.
I've again...went vegetarian...these Beautiful Eggs, are one of my major sources of Protein.
I've went back and forth, over the years....keeping meat, out of my diet.
I, just....can't eat it, anymore.
I, don't feel good....when I eat it, and... I, guess...I feel, if I can't bring myself to 'kill', anything...how, can I expect anyone to 'kill'...for me.
I, Love...Animals, so.
<3 <3 <3 
I don't want to have them... sacrifice, for me.
Well, have Much...to get done.
Better get hoppin'.
Love, to each and Everyone, today.
<3
Please...remember to keep all, who suffer, in your Prayers.
<3 
Barb C. 

{Posted 'Get me through December', by Alison Krauss, above.
It seemed the perfect tune...for today.
When I felt that 'Wave'...of Fall, this morning....it took me right to December. 
Skipped right over....Fall. }

Sunday, August 11, 2019

Alison Krauss - But You Know I Love You

Blue...Sunday.

I sit outside, by the drive....
 and sip...my coffee, most...every Pretty Morning.
I, enjoy...the quiet, and...as the moments pass, watching the traffic pick up, seeing Folks, getting along, to where they need to be. : ) 
This morning, sitting there,
a Huge, Wave...of Sorrow, took me in her Grips.
: (
There's been a little, too much, this week.
Seeing, Peg's, Beloved...Michael, bringing so many of Peg's...Treasures, back...to the rabbit hole.
Looking in his eyes, and...seeing such Brokenness.
: (
Nothing...I can say, or do, to ease....his pain. 
: (
He, brought back, so many...many, wonderful memories...that Peg, and I shared.
oh, my.

Our...Peg.
This time...of year, several years ago, Peg....and me, headed to Gold Rush.
John.
: )
<3
The Man.
The Myth.
The...Legend.
: )
Sittin' under His...Beloved, Old...Oak.
Looking Over...His Kingdom. 
<3 <3 <3 
His...'Sanctuary'.
<3 <3 <3 

John, and...me, driving Miss. Sally, around The Lake.
John, and his Beloved...Nicky.
<3 <3 <3 
They are sitting at my Beloved Sister, Chery's...Memorial, we have here...for her.
<3 <3 <3 
John, Loved...Chery...So. : ) <3 <3 <3 
{If John, liked You...that, was Really...Something.
If, John...Loved You, well...That, was Priceless. <3 
John, carried Chery's obituary in his wallet. He, also had his former Father in Law's.
When John, Loved...and, Respected, someone, he Truly...Did. <3 }
John's last...Birthday.
We went for a drive... and ran across Son, Justin...Katie, and little 'J', at one of our 
'Long Ago...Favorite Fishin' Holes'. : )
That, was a Wonderful...Surprise. <3 
Our...Peg.
Just after doing a 'Shit Show'!!!
We were Covered in Mud!!!
Sweetie Pie.
What a Wonderful...Wonderful... Blessing, Sweetie was, in my life.
She saved...my life.
When I fell down the basement stairs... Sweetie, held the basement door.
It has a spring latch.
Had she not stood there, {I found out, later...Sweetie stood there, for nearly two hours.}
The door, would've latched.
I, couldn't have opened it.
I could barely...climb up the stairs.
It, was like...climbing a Mountain. 
I, saw...Peg, too.
She Ordered me...Up Those Stairs.
<3 
{Peg, had a Way...of getting me to Move, even...when, I really...didn't want to. : ) }
I remember... when I finally, reached the top....I laid on the kitchen floor, and...on the stairs.
My body, held....the door.
Sweetie, kept Kissing my face. 
: ) <3 <3 <3 
I, couldn't walk, couldn't... stand.
Had, to crawl...through the house, on my broken arm...and, didn't know it, at the time., my severely...
lacerated leg, to get to my phone...at the other end, of the house.
If...Sweetie, wouldn't have held that door, I, may have bled to death.
I'd been unconscious, for nearly...two hours, at the bottom of the steps.
{I, didn't know that, until a couple of days later. }
Sweetie, was an Angel. 
<3 <3 <3 
The last hours, of her life...were some of the most difficult hours, of my life, and hers.
Picking up her Ashes, yesterday...was a very tuff, ride.
I'd put off, going there, for months.
: ( 
A Friend, told me, recently... he always knows, when I don't want to do something.
I, dig my heels...in, and procrastinate.
Yes, I guess, that's true. 
I, get that... from my Dad, I suppose.
I, don't handle heartbreak, very well. 
I, try to avoid it, at all cost. 
: (
Brutie, and Sweetie, with Miss. Scarlett.
We, lost Brutie, last year.
: ( 
My Polly.
Before, Sweetie, came to live with me...
There was Polly.
<3 <3 <3 
She, also...saved my life.
: )
I, don't know...how I could've survived, here...without her, after John went away.
Another, Angel.
<3 <3 <3 
My Girl!!! <3 <3 <3 
Yes....it's been a very, 
Blue...
Sunday.
I worked all day, had to pick up, a big, metal garden arch, this morning.
 Got it set, when I returned home...then, went back to sorting, cleaning...and, pricing...
for Gold Rush.
 Worked on a little area, in front of the rabbit hole, for some of Peg's...Treasures.
<3
I, want to make a little Memorial area...for her.
The Truth, 
is....
John, and....Peg,... pretty much, control....every inch, of 101 Williams Blvd.
<3 <3 <3 
Our, Beloved, Critters 'Family'...too. <3 <3 <3 
Love, to You.
Barb C.
{Please, remember....to keep all who suffer, in your Prayers. 
There, are...many. }