Sunday, February 13, 2011

He Left Me....Softly....

I wasn't going to do this...
With all the Chaos... I thought...maybe...after 24 years...and an hour... I could get through...losing Dad... without tears... and such Deep Sorrow...
Not happening...
As I listen to this Beautiful Song... Dad, couldn't have left me, any other way...He Loved Me...Too Much...To Watch Me...Begging Him... To Please... Stay....
 I have always deeply regretted, I wasn't at his side, holding his hand... when he went away....
God knew...as did Dad...I could never have let him go...

5 comments:

Gatherings said...

they always seem to know. My father in law waited until everyone left and he had told some of the family to go on home. Passed shortly thereafter. Keep your head up. Did you get a pic of the corner cupboard before you loaded it? Kindest Regards, Wanda

simplyiowa said...

Dad died, as a surprise, to all of us... but... I know... if he had known, he was dieing... he would not have wanted me there...Begging him, not to leave... He wouldn't want to see me...on my knees... in such a sad...and hopeless situation...
I'm glad he didn't know, 'til the very end...
I went to his Grave, this morning... knowing, he isn't there.. just a place... to think...
Miss Him...
Barb C.

vikki said...

~♥i know & understand...some day we can visit about this & have a good cry {as i am right now!} & share our love & memories...this is the same time/day tomorrow when my mom had her massive stroke & remember how broken dad was for the next coupla weeks til she went to heaven...he never was the same for the next few years til he went 3 years ago & he was alone & it was a shock & i can not even go there with that story...need to keep our hearts happy even tho there is saddness & we will see them again, sweetie we have to believe that! they are not there in the ground, they are & always will be in our hearts, that is something that will never be taken from us! there is no saddness in heaven ~ i am soo grateful for that! we will be going to our happy place sweet♥ & we will do it together, okay? i am sure we will have tears, be exhausted, be grumpy, be happy, be all of the seven dwarfs! & we will take away with us our memories from our journey! loveya sweetiepea! hugs & blessings, vikki♥~xoxo

Barntiques said...

The pain of losing a parent lessens as time goes by. But, I never thought I would hurt for so long. I too, lost my mom. I was not with her. We lived one block away and I was not there when she had her massive heart attack at 58 young years. I still cry alot and share alot. It is my way of not letting her go. Peace

simplyiowa said...

Life is Bittersweet... So many Blessings...so Much Sorrow....
My Love...to You...
Barb C.