Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I Just Want to Cry....

Friend, Sherry P. Popped out, and brought some wonderful things... She is a well known Photographer, from Iowa City... She was playing with my camera, informed me, it doesn't have many options, { this is a very good thing, for me... point and shoot...} and preceded to snap pictures... I said NONE of me... As I was putting my images on, this morning, I saw this one... I simply wanted to cry... and am crying... How the H... did I let this happen...I almost deleted it... but thought, no... This will be my 'before' image... What a fippin' Goddess...I am so mad at me... And thanks, to everyone, who still loves me, anyway......I truly had no idea... This is not who I see in the mirror... the camera, and the scale, never lie... { I would love to say, it's my cheap camera... or the photographer... { she is amazing... I have seen her work, and this was the worst one, of me...}But... Tom looks great, his van looks normal... {what you can see of it...and everything else in the image looks great....so, I guess, that leaves just me, to blame... no wonder everyone looks shocked, when they see me, after the long winter... I knew I had put on some weight... but really... } Lori just left a very nice comment...Please... no more... my eyes will be all swelled up, for the sale... I won't be able to see...}

6 comments:

Lori R. said...

Barb,,, haven't visited your blog in so long, the reason??? read my blog... anyway,,,, got caught up today with you. My, you are busy... I would love to find you this coming weekend. Might have to make a road trip!
You are sooo much like me... I had no idea either, until I saw a pic of me. I was shocked!!! We love you and you just need to love yourself. Do it for you, not for anyone else. my email is on my blog... type to me, I will be a supporter if you would like. I am in the same boat and working on mine too... ♥

summersundays-jw said...

We're so hard on ourselves. I think you look great. What I do is just put on a big white shirt & pretend I'm thin. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't! Hope you have a great sale. Would love to be there. Jan

ginger said...

Barb
The reason there is only a picture of Ki at What Cheer,is because I cut off the other half of the pic.Standing next to that skinny little girl I looked like a whale.I had no idea ,oh I knew a few pounds, but omg the camera shows it all.Remember it's the person on the inside not the package on the outside,maybe we should form a support group jk.I just need to stop eating the carbs,I have discovered I am a carb freak,and no real"exercise"
Hang in there there are a few of us in the boat with you
Ginger

Gatherings said...

I can feel your pain! Ginger took my photo and I hate it. I am still running on fumes though as I eat my breakfast of cheese and crackers with a slug of diet coke. Diet when I am done running so hard! Take Care! W

Betty G said...

Honey, don't be so hard on yourself. You are a beautiful lady in every way. And people look at you though eyes of love and they love who you are.

When I was a little girl, I wore chubbies (the store Brandeis had a department called that for girls my size). My great aunt Celia (bless her soul) always told me that there was "just more of me to love". And you know what-she was right! I just need to look at myself through eyes of love. There is nothing wrong with that.
As women, we always do our part to be loving to others, but we need to love ourselves too. You are a wonderful sweet and beautiful soul who is loved by so many. Don't ever forget that, sweet lady. ~Luv~Betty

vikki said...

HI SWEET BARBI~ HAVE NOT COMMENTED , I KNOW I SHOULD..BUT KNOW I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING U & LOVE.LOVE. SEEING ALL YOUR GOODIES & ESPECIALLY YOU... HATE HAVING MY PIC TAKEN, TOO... BUT AS OTHERS SAID M'DEAR FRIEND... YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE FROM THE INSIDE ~ A BEAUTIFUL PERSON ~ INSIDE & OUT!! DO NOT WORK TOO HARD.. HAHA... LOOKS LIKE MOTHER NATURE IS ON YOUR SIDE THIS WEEK*END... WILL SEE YA TOMORROW M'DEAR. HUGS & BLESSINGS, WITH LOVE...♥♥♥ VIKKI XO